A New Chance

Even though I keep getting second chances
This one is brand new
Although I still get these sideways glances
And even though I am confused about the pictures I drew
Someone said “I believe in you”
But I wonder how that could be true
When all I feel is lack
The only color I want to wear is black
And I rather just lay on the ground
Flat on my back
What now to do
I am so unsure
Seems dangerous just to think about you
But you don’t seem to waver
Your words are the exact ones to say
You give me hope there can be another chance
And perhaps again I will enjoy to dance
Not feel the victim of my circumstance
But again feel the magic of coincidence
And believe life is not just happenstance
I should give myself a new chance
For even as I falter again and again
I have yet to meet my end
It is not easy
And right now
The road seems without end
I do have a new chance to begin
To her my love I can send
And in my basement the colors I can blend
And in time all wounds they do mend
I wish I knew when
I wish I could feel sure of something
Wish I could feel like a human being
Not a monstrous thing
Or an Angel without wings
Tomorrow the sun will rise again
And I can still count on the same friends
A new day
And a new chance to begin
I promise to make the most of it
My disappointments I will forget
And my actions I won’t regret