Are we talking?
Are we having a conversation?
Why are you doing so much explaining?
No need to justify
I mean not to deny
But I am not one who can validate either
Our time on earth
Is for our own fulfillment
This life
Our Individual assignment
Now let’s take a moment
And get to know each other
We can each take turns
Telling the other what makes our hearts burn
The things for which our soul yearns
Our spirits journey to discern
What lessons in this life we are to learn
But we just talk at each other
And try to impress one another
I’ve been there
And I’ve done that
Just last week I bought a house
Left my deadbeat spouse
Took my kids and left them without
I guess that is cool
Am I suppose to be checking things off a list?
Pro and con columns is how I should look at this?
And you?
Sorry honey that is not how I do
Honestly
When you’re talking I am hardly listening
Mostly just looking in your eyes
Reading your body language to try and decide
Do you even care what’s beneath this skin?
The places I’ve been
More importantly
Do you care what I think
Or just that I am good at a wink
And a smile
And you’re used to a different approach
Men who cannot even make a toast
Or hold your heart when it’s heavy
Stay at the house
But can’t keep the home steady
Sweetheart
If you’re ready
To get what you deserve
A man that honors and does serve
No need to pick me
For my job is for you to see
I am just a mirror
For you to see yourself
Help you learn unlimited personal wealth
Let you see
And say out loud all you want to be
I’ll be there to support
Cheer you on
And wish you well
But I probably won’t be standing next to you
Cause you never asked about me
I understood that clearly
That’s fine
I am not angry
As a guide
I am one of many
Wednesday, June 28, 2017
Thursday, June 22, 2017
Solitude
Solitude
Life is of your control
There will always be people to meet
Always be people to be close to
How close can people get
To some closeness is all that is important
It is what defines them
The search for closeness sometimes robs you of oneself
Solitude
How much can one give without giving too much
Why do people want closeness from you
Is it for their gain or for yours
Is an experience alone as valuable as an experience with another
Does someone else have to experience something with you
Does that make the experience worthy
I desire my own experience
Solitude
There is a need for space
There is a need for my own experience
This experience will bring me closer to me
Being close to yourself is important
You need to know yourself
To know yourself takes time and space
Without knowing yourself, how can you become close to another
Solitude
My heart is a treasure
It is not for everyone
It is not for anyone
It is for me
I want my heart to be full of my own pleasures
Then it can be for someone other than me
Solitude
Life is of your control
There will always be people to meet
Always be people to be close to
How close can people get
To some closeness is all that is important
It is what defines them
The search for closeness sometimes robs you of oneself
Solitude
How much can one give without giving too much
Why do people want closeness from you
Is it for their gain or for yours
Is an experience alone as valuable as an experience with another
Does someone else have to experience something with you
Does that make the experience worthy
I desire my own experience
Solitude
There is a need for space
There is a need for my own experience
This experience will bring me closer to me
Being close to yourself is important
You need to know yourself
To know yourself takes time and space
Without knowing yourself, how can you become close to another
Solitude
My heart is a treasure
It is not for everyone
It is not for anyone
It is for me
I want my heart to be full of my own pleasures
Then it can be for someone other than me
Solitude
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How Come?
How come the best things in life
You can’t explain?
You can tell your friends
And give your feelings names
But when you say it
It is not the same?
Does not come close to the feelings you had
The things you saw
How you were so glad
How you stood in awe
Everyday now harder to be sad
How come?
I can’t just tell everyone
Tell them how great it is to live under this sun
And know our neighbors from the next one
Feel the parts from the first one
The sun before our sun
How come?
You’re always out the door
The moment you have my heart on the floor
I am the one always left wanting more
Why didn’t it work out?
Why am I always trying to know what this life is about?
Why when in a relationship I constantly doubt?
I wish to live in love
I know this is true
So
How come?
I cannot convince you?
But whenever I feel left behind
There is another who shows up
And is there to remind
Make me smile
Realize perhaps I have been living in denial
Not being me
Still waiting for someone else to announce my arrival
Giving my power away
But tomorrow is the day
When I fully control what I do and say
Please Lord let me live this way
How come?
I didn’t just believe
How come?
You did just leave?
But to answer is not for me
I am meant to live
And learn how to live differently
So I won’t be disappointed if I don’t see
I will be happy just to be
Now without thee
I can truly be free
You can’t explain?
You can tell your friends
And give your feelings names
But when you say it
It is not the same?
Does not come close to the feelings you had
The things you saw
How you were so glad
How you stood in awe
Everyday now harder to be sad
How come?
I can’t just tell everyone
Tell them how great it is to live under this sun
And know our neighbors from the next one
Feel the parts from the first one
The sun before our sun
How come?
You’re always out the door
The moment you have my heart on the floor
I am the one always left wanting more
Why didn’t it work out?
Why am I always trying to know what this life is about?
Why when in a relationship I constantly doubt?
I wish to live in love
I know this is true
So
How come?
I cannot convince you?
But whenever I feel left behind
There is another who shows up
And is there to remind
Make me smile
Realize perhaps I have been living in denial
Not being me
Still waiting for someone else to announce my arrival
Giving my power away
But tomorrow is the day
When I fully control what I do and say
Please Lord let me live this way
How come?
I didn’t just believe
How come?
You did just leave?
But to answer is not for me
I am meant to live
And learn how to live differently
So I won’t be disappointed if I don’t see
I will be happy just to be
Now without thee
I can truly be free
Monday, June 19, 2017
The Rain
It won’t seem to stop raining
I heard it was good luck
So I am not complaining
Nor do I think the rain needs much explaining
Just another symptom of the seasons changing
It’s almost summer again
And the rain is how it does begin
Perhaps it will bring me luck this year
A new job
That is much closer to a career
Still not really in the mood to consume beer
A relationship is not near
But why always seems clear
At least to me
I guess I am something women do not want to see
Or want me to be
Something I am not
Just that guy in the corner who is so hot
Heard that from three other people
But never met you
Or talked to you
So maybe I should change what I do
I sure hope this rain comes through
Brings change to the earth
And changes me too
Cause I am ready for something new
Not really change the things I do
Or believe that it is you
As the one to remake me
For that job is not for thee
It is for me
And Lord Everything
Perhaps I have forgotten them lately
And that is why it has been so rainy
As a reminder
That not everything I want
I will find here
I could move to a new town or city
But that will not help me uncover what’s inside of me
If I stood in the rain
Got wet
And felt all my pain
Then I can start to change
To God is the only one I will have to explain
Use only one word for thy name
Give up on being everyone else’s teacher
Just cause I read the book does not make me a preacher
The rain reminds me
Where I belong
And that is in this universe where I am so small
It is here
In this place
My home
Where I feel safe
Already finished the race
Came in second place
But that’s my number
And a few others too
I am not worried
Nor concerned
I know there is purpose when lightening strikes
And some dead grass burns
In this rain
Lord please let me grow
In this rain
Lord please let me change
In this rain
Lord please let me learn
I heard it was good luck
So I am not complaining
Nor do I think the rain needs much explaining
Just another symptom of the seasons changing
It’s almost summer again
And the rain is how it does begin
Perhaps it will bring me luck this year
A new job
That is much closer to a career
Still not really in the mood to consume beer
A relationship is not near
But why always seems clear
At least to me
I guess I am something women do not want to see
Or want me to be
Something I am not
Just that guy in the corner who is so hot
Heard that from three other people
But never met you
Or talked to you
So maybe I should change what I do
I sure hope this rain comes through
Brings change to the earth
And changes me too
Cause I am ready for something new
Not really change the things I do
Or believe that it is you
As the one to remake me
For that job is not for thee
It is for me
And Lord Everything
Perhaps I have forgotten them lately
And that is why it has been so rainy
As a reminder
That not everything I want
I will find here
I could move to a new town or city
But that will not help me uncover what’s inside of me
If I stood in the rain
Got wet
And felt all my pain
Then I can start to change
To God is the only one I will have to explain
Use only one word for thy name
Give up on being everyone else’s teacher
Just cause I read the book does not make me a preacher
The rain reminds me
Where I belong
And that is in this universe where I am so small
It is here
In this place
My home
Where I feel safe
Already finished the race
Came in second place
But that’s my number
And a few others too
I am not worried
Nor concerned
I know there is purpose when lightening strikes
And some dead grass burns
In this rain
Lord please let me grow
In this rain
Lord please let me change
In this rain
Lord please let me learn
A Chance
Take a chance
Roll the dice
Gamble on your circumstance
Because life is a gift
No punishment for thrift
And no reward
For loads of gold
The point of existence
Is to simply enjoy the magnificent
Not worry so much about decisions
For each choice is neither right or wrong
Left or right
Up or down
Back and forth
Or all around
The choice we make
Is simply the path we take
And on the journey
We learn
We grow
We realize
That life is lived on the inside
Not just what we show each other
Or outsides
No need to over-think what we decide
More important to go along for the ride
The Lord’s lesson do abide
For questioning
Is very different from understanding
And we only grow through learning
This is best done on our own spiritual journey
Each day on earth while it is turning
Our spirits awake
And our souls yearning
My heart burning
Some of its rooms now empty
But I still have love in plenty
Even though some of my hearts tenants are no longer renting
They have not been evicted
Or their lease ended
They just left
It was kind of unexpected
I try not to feel neglected
Or rejected
It would be nice to see the light in their room
Cause I actually never got the chance
I just made the space and invited them to stay
No thanks
They did not say
But never came in either
Just stayed a minute
Then bounced
This will happen more
On that I will count
Just what happens
When you take a chance
Ask a very beautiful woman to dance
Try and show her your heart
And how you feel
But there is no agreement
There is no deal
No reason to stop
Or to quit
Or to feel like shit
Just a chance for your heart to learn
Realize in love there is little to earn
For we all deserve
It is rather a chance
And just one
To really understand the power of Love is limitless
And last forever
So not matter the times
And no matter the number
If not in love now
There will always be another
Roll the dice
Gamble on your circumstance
Because life is a gift
No punishment for thrift
And no reward
For loads of gold
The point of existence
Is to simply enjoy the magnificent
Not worry so much about decisions
For each choice is neither right or wrong
Left or right
Up or down
Back and forth
Or all around
The choice we make
Is simply the path we take
And on the journey
We learn
We grow
We realize
That life is lived on the inside
Not just what we show each other
Or outsides
No need to over-think what we decide
More important to go along for the ride
The Lord’s lesson do abide
For questioning
Is very different from understanding
And we only grow through learning
This is best done on our own spiritual journey
Each day on earth while it is turning
Our spirits awake
And our souls yearning
My heart burning
Some of its rooms now empty
But I still have love in plenty
Even though some of my hearts tenants are no longer renting
They have not been evicted
Or their lease ended
They just left
It was kind of unexpected
I try not to feel neglected
Or rejected
It would be nice to see the light in their room
Cause I actually never got the chance
I just made the space and invited them to stay
No thanks
They did not say
But never came in either
Just stayed a minute
Then bounced
This will happen more
On that I will count
Just what happens
When you take a chance
Ask a very beautiful woman to dance
Try and show her your heart
And how you feel
But there is no agreement
There is no deal
No reason to stop
Or to quit
Or to feel like shit
Just a chance for your heart to learn
Realize in love there is little to earn
For we all deserve
It is rather a chance
And just one
To really understand the power of Love is limitless
And last forever
So not matter the times
And no matter the number
If not in love now
There will always be another
Monday, June 12, 2017
Coronation
Jupiter
The king of kings
Is on their way back
3rd time in fact
I am aware of that
And know what that means
A year of fate is what the cosmos deems
Here I am
Without a queen
No need to wonder
Or feel sad for being denied
Why I am without is no surprise
Cause I focused on me while I climbed
These last twelve steps
Dog to Rooster
Only thought of you
Little did I do
To honor
Or show my love to you
Just acted strange
Only reached for you while deranged
Promised someone I’d change
Never did
So on my coronation
It will be me standing there
Scepter in hand
But no woman
Crown of jewels that shines
No one glad to call me mine
Mastered both space and time
But the closest I came to you are these rhymes
I am alone
But only sometimes lonely
This life is for me
And a part of it you will always be
Just one step left
I can see the top
Too late to even consider I stop
Although I walk alone
Towards the pinnacle
The throne
Not a lot that I own
Just my feelings
Just my being
If I’ve missed out on anything
It’s you
Because I was too busy doing what I do
Things that concern none but me
My thoughts I hold secretly
But feel for you so desperately
Think longingly of things heavenly
As I’ve climbed
Mostly focused on mine
Even if you were trying to get my attention
I missed it
And my love I failed to mention
I can’t fail this test
Please professor may I have an extension
Unfortunately
It does not work that way
I had to keep climbing
No time to delay
So on I went
For this life is what I was meant
This walk alone
To my palace
My heavenly throne
The king of kings
Is on their way back
3rd time in fact
I am aware of that
And know what that means
A year of fate is what the cosmos deems
Here I am
Without a queen
No need to wonder
Or feel sad for being denied
Why I am without is no surprise
Cause I focused on me while I climbed
These last twelve steps
Dog to Rooster
Only thought of you
Little did I do
To honor
Or show my love to you
Just acted strange
Only reached for you while deranged
Promised someone I’d change
Never did
So on my coronation
It will be me standing there
Scepter in hand
But no woman
Crown of jewels that shines
No one glad to call me mine
Mastered both space and time
But the closest I came to you are these rhymes
I am alone
But only sometimes lonely
This life is for me
And a part of it you will always be
Just one step left
I can see the top
Too late to even consider I stop
Although I walk alone
Towards the pinnacle
The throne
Not a lot that I own
Just my feelings
Just my being
If I’ve missed out on anything
It’s you
Because I was too busy doing what I do
Things that concern none but me
My thoughts I hold secretly
But feel for you so desperately
Think longingly of things heavenly
As I’ve climbed
Mostly focused on mine
Even if you were trying to get my attention
I missed it
And my love I failed to mention
I can’t fail this test
Please professor may I have an extension
Unfortunately
It does not work that way
I had to keep climbing
No time to delay
So on I went
For this life is what I was meant
This walk alone
To my palace
My heavenly throne
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