IC The End CU at The Beginning

I’ve walked these streets
And these halls
I’ve been to games
I’ve always felt the same
I love this place
This view of the lake
The performances are great
But time here
Has been like going on dates
All seems good
We’re both having a good time
Then I mention I want you for mine
She sees it
The end
But says
Let’s be friends
Just pretend everything is okay
Then run away
Maybe call and say
I really had fun the other day
But
I didn’t see things between us going that way
Regardless I would  stay
Keep being there day after day
Now
I see the end
But I really do want to be friends
You will still see me at games
And special days
I helped bring you all here
Know I will still be near
Like the view of the lake clear
I needed a new start
And I heard the other place in town
The one that it had been awhile since I was around
Was looking for new teammates
To join the winning team
To be both in front and behind the scenes
I wonder if I am living in a dream
My number 1
About to put me on again
No longer just friends
Baby I’m your boyfriend
And you’re mine
Very close to show time
Now I’ll see you at the beginning
On my first day
On my next day we will start planning our wedding
I am going to stop pretending
Expect the pass
I won’t let it slip from my grasp
Sharing my light will still be my task
On New Year’s we toast and share a glass
Now disappointment you pass
I am prepared and ready for the first day of class
And I am sure when the semester ends
I will pass
It will be just the beginning
In the same place
Where now I write a new ending

Day Five (Last Week)

It’s here
The last day
My last few hours in this place
Although today is an end
I still am the one who is leaving friends
Found another place to begin
A place where once I had the same end
Time to move on
There is somewhere else where my time I can spend
So I left
And now I come back again
The same wish I have for all my old girlfriends
Our hearts I want to mend
To ecstasy I want to send
Our lives I wish they would blend
But as I think about it
And wonder if I will ever get what I want
Or just be victims of long gone loves haunt
As I walk out the door I will not taunt
Say mean things
All I am going to say is goodbye
I’ll see you later
Another time
Probably at the grocery store
Or the movie theater
We’ll just be people
Being people
I am not resentful
Actually rather cheerful
Because even though I never got an official title
A real office
And at times felt trivial
I’ve always loved this place
I wanted to stay
Not count how many days
Just lay by the pool and get sun rays
Be apart of what happens here
It’s kind of the same of what happened between me and you
It seemed you wanted me
Then I wanted you
But we never met eye to eye
Or heart to heart
That is why you did depart
And I am left to move on
I hope it does not take too long
For me to enjoy this
For me to make this shift
Since today is the last day
That means soon there will be a first day
When love will be the only word I say
No longer see the color grey
And when I see you
Say a lot more than just hey
Let you mold me like clay
I will become brand new
Then I will give thanks to you

Day Four (Last Week)

Took care of a few more things today
Had an exit interview
Which gave me the chance to say
I love it here
I would of stayed
If I had a position with real pay
And vacation days
Not feel like just a cog in the machine
A factory worker
And totally expendable
And replaceable
That is how I feel
I’m glad they know the deal
But They should of all along
That’s how I feel
Cause I was not quiet about my feelings
And it is close to impossible for me to keep my mouth shut
I always say what’s up
I want to be clear
And be sure my words are what people hear
I am happy to give my input
I did
My thoughts I was happy to give
Yes I do forgive
But I don’t feel wronged
Or mistreated
I went through the steps
Did not feel cheated
Just confused
And not needed
But I am already here
I want to be more
Not just feel like your cheap whore
Leave your money on the dresser
Never want to caress her
So one should not be surprised
When one day your business is denied
I got other clients now
Who pay much more
And give me attention
Male me feel special not a whore
They’re not a bore
Which is why I just can’t see you like this anymore

Day Three (Last Week)

Been getting things cleaned up
Been saying goodbye
To friends and co-workers alike
I am feeling sad
I wanted to be here
I wanted it real bad
But just like life
What we want
We don’t always get
No need to regret
The time spent
Or the years that went by
Or even think of all the reasons why
Why I can’t stay
Why I am headed out on my way
Just one day left before my last day
I wish I could celebrate
Even though I am happy for what’s next
Being denied I guess is hard to accept
Hard not to forget
But I like it that way
Cause then my memory is true
Not made up of only fantasy
But a collection of all my memories
And I remember my feelings in all their frequencies
Their ups and downs
Smiles and frowns
Pretty women in gowns
Even though I am sad
I guess I came out on top
I got what I wanted
The chance to go back
Pick up where I left off
Attracted to the flame like a moth
So in just a short time
I will press rewind
And watch this movie all over again
Because with all ends
There is a time to begin
I know I am leaving friends
But also know I am running towards them too
The most important thing in life is not what you do
But rather who
You give love too
I am sure I give my love to all of you

Day Two (Last Week)

Straightened things up today
Getting ready to pack it all up
And pull the door shut
Close this book
Start another
On a hill too
But the other
Same basic cost
Both sky high
Leaving plenty high and dry
Not sure I will find out why
To so many questions that I have about this place
Why can’t I just stay here?
Even though I felt I made that clear
I just wanted to be part of the team
A long career here I did dream
I guess I will just take this victory lap
Shake hands and say thanks
Go to the pool and splash
Waved farewell to the graduating class
Already got to meet the new students
The ones I did help to admit
They are the same as all the others
18-21 I checked off each one
Saw their grades
Read their recommendations
And resumes
Often would laugh at their essays
Oh 17 what I would not be to know you again
But this week marks the end
Time to make new work friends
After tomorrow
There will not be much week left
What happens here without me
One can only guess
But I am looking forward to my start fresh
I have learned
That this experience
And the next
Are in my life for me
And in my life to bless
Next weeks future no need to guess
For I intend to make it a success

Day One (Last Week)

Today is one of the last days
The first until there is none
So yes
Today is day one
I think about what I’ve done
Been here
For about four years
I would of been present for more
But I just stood waiting at the door
Knocking and knocking
But opportunity never came
Learned I am really bad at this game
Bu who I am that did not change
Now it’s time to leave
My feelings do not wain
My heart does not feel pain
Just gain
Cause I learned so much
Felt love
From my co-workers touch
I wanted to learn about this place
I always knew
I said no years ago
Came back
Started here brand new
Now a part of this school
We both grew
Helped new people come here too
This place is great
I found this to be true
Even though I was not fond of what I do
I wish I could stay in gold and blue
But that didn’t happen
So I went looking elsewhere
To find a place that would care
About me
So I in turn could care about the students
So I could care about thee
I am leaving
But here I will still be
And I hope my spirit will be free

U

Tomorrow is a fresh start
A new beginning
And an ending
To the future
Go with an open heart
I packed all my bags
Ready to depart
In my hands
Maps
And star charts
Cause I’m ready for whatever
A road trip
Or a ride in a rocketship
Where ever we go
I’m ready
Catch my drift
Let our mental state shift
Let our spirits lift
So we may soar and fly
Way up into the sky
Kiss the Earth goodbye
On our way to Heaven to say hi
No need to ask why
Just realize
That the day has arrived
Our chance to begin again
Make new friends
Not just means to an end
No longer worry about emails to send
Positions to defend
Online rants that never end
To please your fake friends online who love to pretend
They fight for a cause
But all they ever do is comment
Like or love
Never worn a work glove
Rolled up their sleeves and gotten dirty
Never looked in a mirror to see what was not so pretty
Decided that working on ourselves
Is the way to claim our dreams from the wishing well
Uriel
Ring the bell
Announce that Heaven is now where we all dwell
No things now to sell
Balance sheets all in balance
All of us doing well
But that’s tomorrow
And today we still live in Hell
Cause of the way we live
Putting money and possessions first
Our humanity second
Only looking at curses
Not counting blessings
Wanna get to Heaven?
No need for guessing
We all help us get there
We all must commit
Because there is no one on Earth we can omit

A Little City

Walking around town
I see lots of things
Pretty birds
With pretty wings
I see paintings on the wall
The city calls graffiti
Looks like art to me
I guess I see things differently
I see kids playing
Acting crazy
I see parents that are tired
They need a babysitter maybe
Probably can’t afford that though
Cause it costs a lot of dough
And in America
The boss is the only one whose pockets grow
The rest of us
Dress up for show
Even though we bought everything at Five Below
On the grind
Round and round we go
Even when we know
Enjoying life is simple
Take a walk
Meet a friend and talk
Shop
But not till you drop
Just for a few special things
For you a ring
That one you were so happy to get
In that special dream
I am going to chill and take in the scene
Keep walking around this little city
Do I look lonely?
Do not pity
I know all things in this vicinity
A member of the Holy Trinity
A master of infinity
Though I still wait for the Lord to deliver me
So that I may see eternity
Just another time
I promise to go back
When the trip is through
I promise Lord to do what you tell me to do
But I keep asking the same question
Still want to learn the lesson
Still feel I owe someone a confession
I guess that’s my bad
I am the one who makes me feel sad
Perhaps you’re not the best I ever had
Maybe I should be glad
And not secretly mad
Instead just patrol the city
Singing in my head
Writing a little ditty
All the girls
All so pretty
Wondering why I am here
Really?
No need to think too much
I guess I just have good luck
To live in this world
That does not suck
It’s a blessing
Why do we do so much guessing
Constant questioning
When life’s simplicity is all that is worth mentioning