I saw another one of your movies just last night
Thought it was perfect for the season
Just right
Then when I slept
Of you I dreamt
Not much of a surprise
Can’t remember enough to summarize
Just you
And your name in flashing lights
An indication of my plight
My jealously now in plain sight
Not because you are someone else’s wife
No
I am jealous of your life
I heard you say you would do this once before
Become what you are
Soon perhaps your name will be in a star
On Hollywood Boulevard
And I’ll probably still be driving my mom’s car
Still going to the same bars
Saying next year will be the year
Maybe I’ll be this
Or I am looking into that
Still unsure
Still caught looking back
I wish I could be like you
That is jealously too
Because you’ve got it all together
You live where there is beautiful weather
And a beautiful man
And I am still wanting to understand
How am I part of the Lord’s plan
How can I be all I am?
And how can I be part of the world
Just not one who feels damned
Cursed
For my journey lately has seemed on Earth
There was a time
When I took pleasure in every day
And within myself I was happy to stay
Perhaps it changed when I went to work for pay
Maybe when you and I parted ways
The one thing I know I can say
Is I am jealous of you
Because of who you are
And what you do
Because you’ve gone forward
Keep traveling upward and onward
And I feel like I’ve only been going downward
Too many visits to the psych ward
Too many days at my desk feeling bored
So much art work
Most of it just stored
Never even came close to an award
Instead of feeling jealous
Why not be inspired?
Why not also desire to be admired?
To see my name in print too
In the credits
So all can know what I do
Maybe then I’ll stop feeling so jealous of you
Maybe then
I’ll be in charge of my life again
And maybe then
We can become friends again
Thursday, December 31, 2015
Yesterday for You. Today for Me
I spent all of yesterday
Thinking of you
And wondering what to do
Should I call?
Or write?
See us together
Perhaps you might
I know what we have been
And I know that was then
But we never really did begin
Only because I was stuck in way back when
And only saw pictures of the past
Only worried about what would not last
Could not see us as now
Nor could I be humble and bow
To you
Ask forgiveness
And promise to undo
All the wrong I’ve done to you
I do feel something special
When I’m next to you
So please be with me to see it through
In a short time
I grew
And your faithfulness I always knew
Today I am going to spend it with me
Open my eyes and see
And open my heart
In this way I will start
See you in this world
And the other
Wonder if again we will be with one another
Wonder if that is the will of the Divine Mother
It is not a hard question
Especially when your feelings give no explanations
Just joy
Just pleasure
These are the tools that the heart uses to measure
To love
It does encourage this endeavor
It can happen whenever
It does feel special when we are together
Matters not if we last forever
For feelings do
And love for you I will feel for ever
Thinking of you
And wondering what to do
Should I call?
Or write?
See us together
Perhaps you might
I know what we have been
And I know that was then
But we never really did begin
Only because I was stuck in way back when
And only saw pictures of the past
Only worried about what would not last
Could not see us as now
Nor could I be humble and bow
To you
Ask forgiveness
And promise to undo
All the wrong I’ve done to you
I do feel something special
When I’m next to you
So please be with me to see it through
In a short time
I grew
And your faithfulness I always knew
Today I am going to spend it with me
Open my eyes and see
And open my heart
In this way I will start
See you in this world
And the other
Wonder if again we will be with one another
Wonder if that is the will of the Divine Mother
It is not a hard question
Especially when your feelings give no explanations
Just joy
Just pleasure
These are the tools that the heart uses to measure
To love
It does encourage this endeavor
It can happen whenever
It does feel special when we are together
Matters not if we last forever
For feelings do
And love for you I will feel for ever
Tuesday, December 29, 2015
Honesty
When I am around you
I still feel that definite chemistry
That awhile ago you mentioned to me
Still see your beauty
But
I wait
Do too much thinking
Only contemplate
To ask for another date
Even forget to compliment
Even for that place we went
The sweetest gift
Our love though
Set a drift
Unsure was I
But why?
My fear staring me back in my face
I didn’t want to end the race
Even though I was destined to finish in first place
I do miss your taste
And that special smile on your face
and I am over flights to outer space
Prefer someone else’s grace
Simple things are easy
With you next me
I guess it is complicated
When it’s you and me
When we try and be more than two
But I can’t keep away from you
Do all things need explanations?
All thoughts clarifications?
All feelings justifications?
I’lll spend forever alone waiting for a reason
Watch the world turn and just count the seasons
But probably just end up feeling the same
Still care more about the game
Then being true
To both me and you
Is that love coming through?
When I look at you
Are you just reflecting back
What I am sending out?
Love
Always more to learn about
Together we both could learn
For each other
Do we still yearn?
I still feel that definite chemistry
That awhile ago you mentioned to me
Still see your beauty
But
I wait
Do too much thinking
Only contemplate
To ask for another date
Even forget to compliment
Even for that place we went
The sweetest gift
Our love though
Set a drift
Unsure was I
But why?
My fear staring me back in my face
I didn’t want to end the race
Even though I was destined to finish in first place
I do miss your taste
And that special smile on your face
and I am over flights to outer space
Prefer someone else’s grace
Simple things are easy
With you next me
I guess it is complicated
When it’s you and me
When we try and be more than two
But I can’t keep away from you
Do all things need explanations?
All thoughts clarifications?
All feelings justifications?
I’lll spend forever alone waiting for a reason
Watch the world turn and just count the seasons
But probably just end up feeling the same
Still care more about the game
Then being true
To both me and you
Is that love coming through?
When I look at you
Are you just reflecting back
What I am sending out?
Love
Always more to learn about
Together we both could learn
For each other
Do we still yearn?
The Longest Night
The longest night
We celebrate by fire light
Gather
And burn our grievances
Move forward
And start a new
Look back and see how we grew
Each year on this day
Say all there is to say
No longer wait
No longer delay
Play drums
And pray
Set our intentions
To lead our way
Tomorrow is set to be a glorious day
As old as man
To celebrate this day
We understand
To honor it
Is the Lord’s plan
A symbol of their creation
A universe full of animation
Life of all classifications
Ad we are all a part of it
That is why we build a fire and around it we sit
To remember our place
Where we all fit
Into the fire go things unwanted
Into the fire go desires
Both our consumed
And transformed
Unwanted sent away
The others to the Lord
Honor ourselves and choices in the New Year
Be honest
Be clear
Know always
Heaven is near
It’s blessings our right here
Ready for us to embrace them
Welcome them with good cheer
The night is long
Spend all night dreaming
It is not wrong
Feel the love
Feel how you belong
We celebrate by fire light
Gather
And burn our grievances
Move forward
And start a new
Look back and see how we grew
Each year on this day
Say all there is to say
No longer wait
No longer delay
Play drums
And pray
Set our intentions
To lead our way
Tomorrow is set to be a glorious day
As old as man
To celebrate this day
We understand
To honor it
Is the Lord’s plan
A symbol of their creation
A universe full of animation
Life of all classifications
Ad we are all a part of it
That is why we build a fire and around it we sit
To remember our place
Where we all fit
Into the fire go things unwanted
Into the fire go desires
Both our consumed
And transformed
Unwanted sent away
The others to the Lord
Honor ourselves and choices in the New Year
Be honest
Be clear
Know always
Heaven is near
It’s blessings our right here
Ready for us to embrace them
Welcome them with good cheer
The night is long
Spend all night dreaming
It is not wrong
Feel the love
Feel how you belong
Thursday, December 24, 2015
Waiting in Darkness
I’ve grown tired and weary
All things
Now a lot less cheery
I did ask for this
And I have known bliss
But now darkness is my wish
For the battle has been fought
And decided
All sides have been divided
I sit with the ones in darkness
The ones alone
The ones who were not chose
But rather defeated
And worked to the bone
We lost the fight
And now live in forever night
Victims of our oppositions strike
But it is still hard to say who was right
Even though one clearly had more might
In darkness one gains greater sight
Knows more what life is like
Understands more people’s plight
Victory is not all just delight
Defeated is now how I am
This is not tragedy
I do understand
Just part of the Lord’s great plan
Three steps more before I become a man
All things move with the hands of sand
Time necessary for our journey
But not just measured on a clock
Not just starts and stops
Or map plots
Or work on your calendar in time slots
There should be time for shocks
Time to build blocks
And a time to wear fun socks
When it comes it matters not
To know is the task
To wonder should be your first class
Now I stay in darkness to watch time pass
In this moment I wait
Be patient and regain my strength
Understand the distance of all lengths
I am not in pity
I am not in sadness
I am though in darkness
All things
Now a lot less cheery
I did ask for this
And I have known bliss
But now darkness is my wish
For the battle has been fought
And decided
All sides have been divided
I sit with the ones in darkness
The ones alone
The ones who were not chose
But rather defeated
And worked to the bone
We lost the fight
And now live in forever night
Victims of our oppositions strike
But it is still hard to say who was right
Even though one clearly had more might
In darkness one gains greater sight
Knows more what life is like
Understands more people’s plight
Victory is not all just delight
Defeated is now how I am
This is not tragedy
I do understand
Just part of the Lord’s great plan
Three steps more before I become a man
All things move with the hands of sand
Time necessary for our journey
But not just measured on a clock
Not just starts and stops
Or map plots
Or work on your calendar in time slots
There should be time for shocks
Time to build blocks
And a time to wear fun socks
When it comes it matters not
To know is the task
To wonder should be your first class
Now I stay in darkness to watch time pass
In this moment I wait
Be patient and regain my strength
Understand the distance of all lengths
I am not in pity
I am not in sadness
I am though in darkness
Not Me
I tried all I could to get her attention
Her beauty I did not fail to mention
Offered to massage
And relieve her tension
Offered everything
Even my pension
Wrote beautiful words
Offered to take her places
Put her on a horse
And show her wide open spaces
For all I tried
I was denied
And should not be surprised
For it was her choice
And she did decide
Perhaps that one thing I should of continued to hide
Too late did I realize
But later in life
I now see
That it was not meant to be
Her and me
I could not give her what she did need
Even though I wanted to give her everything
And I her muse
I would do more than amuse
It was still not me she would choose
I can’t always get what I want
Or the prettiest girl
Even with my pretty face
And hair that does twirl
Looks just like hers with nice curl
In loss we learn much
And it makes us yearn more for touch
And to have long conversations about such and such
I guess I need to be tough
Not try and win them over with stuff
Who you are should be enough
Although I missed my chance
I hope there will be someone to take her to the dance
Give her what she really needs
For it certainly is not me
Her beauty I did not fail to mention
Offered to massage
And relieve her tension
Offered everything
Even my pension
Wrote beautiful words
Offered to take her places
Put her on a horse
And show her wide open spaces
For all I tried
I was denied
And should not be surprised
For it was her choice
And she did decide
Perhaps that one thing I should of continued to hide
Too late did I realize
But later in life
I now see
That it was not meant to be
Her and me
I could not give her what she did need
Even though I wanted to give her everything
And I her muse
I would do more than amuse
It was still not me she would choose
I can’t always get what I want
Or the prettiest girl
Even with my pretty face
And hair that does twirl
Looks just like hers with nice curl
In loss we learn much
And it makes us yearn more for touch
And to have long conversations about such and such
I guess I need to be tough
Not try and win them over with stuff
Who you are should be enough
Although I missed my chance
I hope there will be someone to take her to the dance
Give her what she really needs
For it certainly is not me
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
Human Rights for Xmas
In this time of giving
In this time of light
Let us remember
We all have human rights
The right to shelter
The right to food
The right to decide our own mood
This year let’s not just give meaningless gifts
Let’s allow our ideas to shift
How we treat one another
Embrace as sisters and brothers
No matter our race
No matter the eyes in our face
No matter if we own or rent space
Remember this is the season of grace
And we all have rights in this place
To uphold these rights not only the job of the state
We all have responsibilities
We are all members of this city
And the larger community
And we all should live freely
Without fear
Without hardship
All with equal citizenship
In the season of friendship
In the season of love
Let’s remember all and none above
Equality for all is this years song of the doves
So on your wish list this year
Human rights should be on the top of all our lists
For this year that is my wish
In this time of light
Let us remember
We all have human rights
The right to shelter
The right to food
The right to decide our own mood
This year let’s not just give meaningless gifts
Let’s allow our ideas to shift
How we treat one another
Embrace as sisters and brothers
No matter our race
No matter the eyes in our face
No matter if we own or rent space
Remember this is the season of grace
And we all have rights in this place
To uphold these rights not only the job of the state
We all have responsibilities
We are all members of this city
And the larger community
And we all should live freely
Without fear
Without hardship
All with equal citizenship
In the season of friendship
In the season of love
Let’s remember all and none above
Equality for all is this years song of the doves
So on your wish list this year
Human rights should be on the top of all our lists
For this year that is my wish
Tuesday, December 8, 2015
The Same Question
I keep hearing the same question
What happened?
Why did you do such?
Don’t ask me
Cause I don’t know that much
You’re asking a question only the Lord can touch
Besides
You can answer these questions on your own
But I guess you’re afraid of having your mind blown
Learn lots and grow
I am just a human being
Not a deity
Not here to enlighten you
Can’t do that anyway
You choose that by how you spend your days
And I guess you spend too much time working for pay
Not enough on play
Too much time doing what others say
Not living in a splendid way
And letting the Lord do with you what they may
Same question
Different day
Same thing to say
Can’t answer that
Don’t want to
Screw you
For even asking
When you don’t even care to know
Because you see the world as collapsing
I am not scared
Cause I know this is what is suppose to be happening
All ending
Just a new beginning
We are all fools
For we have been the ones pretending
Completely missed the message the Lord has been sending
Keep killing
Keep hating
Keep caring about only escaping
I will stand firm in front of the Lord
And will not waver or shake when I taste the flame of Their sword
Dissolve and fade back to nothing
Only to be reborn
And return as something
What happened?
Why did you do such?
Don’t ask me
Cause I don’t know that much
You’re asking a question only the Lord can touch
Besides
You can answer these questions on your own
But I guess you’re afraid of having your mind blown
Learn lots and grow
I am just a human being
Not a deity
Not here to enlighten you
Can’t do that anyway
You choose that by how you spend your days
And I guess you spend too much time working for pay
Not enough on play
Too much time doing what others say
Not living in a splendid way
And letting the Lord do with you what they may
Same question
Different day
Same thing to say
Can’t answer that
Don’t want to
Screw you
For even asking
When you don’t even care to know
Because you see the world as collapsing
I am not scared
Cause I know this is what is suppose to be happening
All ending
Just a new beginning
We are all fools
For we have been the ones pretending
Completely missed the message the Lord has been sending
Keep killing
Keep hating
Keep caring about only escaping
I will stand firm in front of the Lord
And will not waver or shake when I taste the flame of Their sword
Dissolve and fade back to nothing
Only to be reborn
And return as something
I See (IC)
No matter how hard you try
Do your best to hide
Your love shows
It is not just I who knows
Not just me who sees your glow
Be not shy
It’s cool if you got yourself a guy
One that makes you smile
A love that is not juvenile
The kind that will probably be around awhile
I hope he treats you right
Not only wants to put a ring on your fourth finger left
Or only enjoys you at night
Or want to impress you with big checks
I hope that he is a reflection of you
Just as beautiful
And as magical
Can cast spells of all kinds
Write rhymes
Make art
Live through the rhythm of your heart
And honors all your parts
Does not fear your dark nights
Or gloomy days
But takes them right along with your sun rays
So baby be proud
Your life is not meant to wear that dark shroud
I know you’ve been hurt before
Because I was the one who did that
But don’t look back
I am the one who now misses the chance
I am the one who no longer knows your love glance
And I am fine with that circumstance
He deserves to know your brilliance
I now learn resilience
And perseverance
For I believe in love for me too
I know my heart beats for more than just you
From the storm I will come through and know a love true
Saw her just the other day
Walking down the street
Coming my way
Simple but inviting words to say
And my heart knew right away
Make sure you get her number
Before she gets away
Do your best to hide
Your love shows
It is not just I who knows
Not just me who sees your glow
Be not shy
It’s cool if you got yourself a guy
One that makes you smile
A love that is not juvenile
The kind that will probably be around awhile
I hope he treats you right
Not only wants to put a ring on your fourth finger left
Or only enjoys you at night
Or want to impress you with big checks
I hope that he is a reflection of you
Just as beautiful
And as magical
Can cast spells of all kinds
Write rhymes
Make art
Live through the rhythm of your heart
And honors all your parts
Does not fear your dark nights
Or gloomy days
But takes them right along with your sun rays
So baby be proud
Your life is not meant to wear that dark shroud
I know you’ve been hurt before
Because I was the one who did that
But don’t look back
I am the one who now misses the chance
I am the one who no longer knows your love glance
And I am fine with that circumstance
He deserves to know your brilliance
I now learn resilience
And perseverance
For I believe in love for me too
I know my heart beats for more than just you
From the storm I will come through and know a love true
Saw her just the other day
Walking down the street
Coming my way
Simple but inviting words to say
And my heart knew right away
Make sure you get her number
Before she gets away
Tuesday, December 1, 2015
Heart Math
She is just learning to speak my tongue
And in her language all I know is sweetheart then I am done
But my love for her is not mum
If there is such a thing
She could be the one
For in just one look
My heart she took
And now she inspires me to write books
My heart did the math
Said love this one as she crossed my path
Together we do laugh
So what are words even good for
If with so few she can make me soar
And with each beat
My heart yearns for more
Sometimes words get in the way
Just babbling
And nothing to say
But together we can fill up the day
Looking at art
Heart to heart
We can know each other at the soul level
Our true essence
And that is just from each others presence
Between us there is not silence
Just simple words
But everything said is heard
And our hearts keep track
And do the math
Keep us close
Show us why it is each other we chose
I plan to learn more through her words
Because her true voice I have hardly heard
I want to learn her tongue
For her beautiful language I must become a sponge
Until I can understand
I will rely on my heart
That will be my plan
Let it do the math
Tell me if I fail or pass
Whether or not to take a class
For now it only tells me to love her
To please her
And make her feel special
Because that is what she is
A beautiful heart
And that is where my knowing her starts
And in her language all I know is sweetheart then I am done
But my love for her is not mum
If there is such a thing
She could be the one
For in just one look
My heart she took
And now she inspires me to write books
My heart did the math
Said love this one as she crossed my path
Together we do laugh
So what are words even good for
If with so few she can make me soar
And with each beat
My heart yearns for more
Sometimes words get in the way
Just babbling
And nothing to say
But together we can fill up the day
Looking at art
Heart to heart
We can know each other at the soul level
Our true essence
And that is just from each others presence
Between us there is not silence
Just simple words
But everything said is heard
And our hearts keep track
And do the math
Keep us close
Show us why it is each other we chose
I plan to learn more through her words
Because her true voice I have hardly heard
I want to learn her tongue
For her beautiful language I must become a sponge
Until I can understand
I will rely on my heart
That will be my plan
Let it do the math
Tell me if I fail or pass
Whether or not to take a class
For now it only tells me to love her
To please her
And make her feel special
Because that is what she is
A beautiful heart
And that is where my knowing her starts
Sunday, November 22, 2015
Look at Me
Look at me
What do you see?
A man?
A friend?
Or other things?
A demon?
Your enemy?
I can not choose what you see
But I do choose what to be
And I am neither
I am everything
Light Dark
Pretty
And ugly parts
I do know though
I am of pure heart
For that is never torn apart
Even when I destroy my own castle
Shatter the windows
And break the doors
My heart is never torn
For it cannot break
Do not mistake
Even when my hands do shake
And in my heart there is a stake
Because love is never in my wake
It is in the freezer with one last piece of our wedding cake
Cause I know that fire is not fake
It burns through anything
And it connects to Lord Everything
Tells me when to sing
And when not to feel the sting
No need to give or wear a ring
Because our bond is eternal
And everlasting
So please do look at me
And when you do
Many things you will see
Look at me with fear and judgement
I can take it
And I know your assumptions
Those are yours
And not mine
But look on me with love and admiration
And I can show you transfiguration
Show you all you can be
At the same time I show me
Then together we ride to infinity
What do you see?
A man?
A friend?
Or other things?
A demon?
Your enemy?
I can not choose what you see
But I do choose what to be
And I am neither
I am everything
Light Dark
Pretty
And ugly parts
I do know though
I am of pure heart
For that is never torn apart
Even when I destroy my own castle
Shatter the windows
And break the doors
My heart is never torn
For it cannot break
Do not mistake
Even when my hands do shake
And in my heart there is a stake
Because love is never in my wake
It is in the freezer with one last piece of our wedding cake
Cause I know that fire is not fake
It burns through anything
And it connects to Lord Everything
Tells me when to sing
And when not to feel the sting
No need to give or wear a ring
Because our bond is eternal
And everlasting
So please do look at me
And when you do
Many things you will see
Look at me with fear and judgement
I can take it
And I know your assumptions
Those are yours
And not mine
But look on me with love and admiration
And I can show you transfiguration
Show you all you can be
At the same time I show me
Then together we ride to infinity
Saturday, November 21, 2015
Go Forth
It has already begun
So don’t wait
Do not hesitate
For your heart does anticipate
You can trust
She is great
And will make your life much better
Your love can last forever
Exist in all seasons
And in all weather
Go forth
Into her arms
Make love until dawn
Together sing the Lord’s holiest of songs
In the street
Take her by the palm
Be not afraid to show
Let the world know who
Let everyone know she is the one your heart beats for
And you are not satisfied
You yearn for more
Go forth
For she has more in store
She has it waiting for you
Waiting for a love true
Guess what?
That’s you
So go
Go without fear
Go because she is sincere
And so should you be
Then together you can travel to infinity
And do things a plenty
And I have stories a many
To know the heart of a woman
Is to be a real man
The path of Hanuman
It will set you free
And give you strength
So always thank
Always honor her
Even in her absence
Even when she goes
Her love is everlasting this you should know
She gave you gifts
And helped you grow
So go forth towards her
She will call you sir
And your heart she will stir
So don’t wait
Do not hesitate
For your heart does anticipate
You can trust
She is great
And will make your life much better
Your love can last forever
Exist in all seasons
And in all weather
Go forth
Into her arms
Make love until dawn
Together sing the Lord’s holiest of songs
In the street
Take her by the palm
Be not afraid to show
Let the world know who
Let everyone know she is the one your heart beats for
And you are not satisfied
You yearn for more
Go forth
For she has more in store
She has it waiting for you
Waiting for a love true
Guess what?
That’s you
So go
Go without fear
Go because she is sincere
And so should you be
Then together you can travel to infinity
And do things a plenty
And I have stories a many
To know the heart of a woman
Is to be a real man
The path of Hanuman
It will set you free
And give you strength
So always thank
Always honor her
Even in her absence
Even when she goes
Her love is everlasting this you should know
She gave you gifts
And helped you grow
So go forth towards her
She will call you sir
And your heart she will stir
Glory
I have seen it all
At least I thought so
Seen down the long hall
Seen the light
Carved my name on the wall
Read the scriptures
And heard the call
But I did not know true glory
Even though I had been through Hell’s gory
And learned everything
From every story
I saw her from a far
Her beauty in the distance
Then she was near
And I knew she was my heart’s prescription
To her love I gave no resistance
She stood by me
And showed persistence
Her eyes and skin they do glisten
When she speaks I definitely listen
Because she shows the true glory of the Lord
Their patience, grace, and love that absorbs
Why do I get so many chances?
Why Am I worthy of this angels advances?
I feel that my luck should of run out by now
Should wear a jumper and a number
Not a nice tie and a shirt the color of cucumber
Or worse yet
Be set down for my eternal slumber
Yet
She calls me
Says I love thee
Says there are beautiful things I make her see
With her I know glory knows no bounds
And there is one who knows all sounds
And they are the Lord
Supreme Master of this world
And my gift
Is this beautiful girl
And she is the Lord’s glory
And I am happy to write our story
At least I thought so
Seen down the long hall
Seen the light
Carved my name on the wall
Read the scriptures
And heard the call
But I did not know true glory
Even though I had been through Hell’s gory
And learned everything
From every story
I saw her from a far
Her beauty in the distance
Then she was near
And I knew she was my heart’s prescription
To her love I gave no resistance
She stood by me
And showed persistence
Her eyes and skin they do glisten
When she speaks I definitely listen
Because she shows the true glory of the Lord
Their patience, grace, and love that absorbs
Why do I get so many chances?
Why Am I worthy of this angels advances?
I feel that my luck should of run out by now
Should wear a jumper and a number
Not a nice tie and a shirt the color of cucumber
Or worse yet
Be set down for my eternal slumber
Yet
She calls me
Says I love thee
Says there are beautiful things I make her see
With her I know glory knows no bounds
And there is one who knows all sounds
And they are the Lord
Supreme Master of this world
And my gift
Is this beautiful girl
And she is the Lord’s glory
And I am happy to write our story
Thursday, November 19, 2015
Still A Mazing
Although her skies seem grey
Every day a bad day
No friends to play
Just bills to pay
Only thing to do is pray
And it may be dark
She still has the same heart
And I know she still shines bright
She will win every fight
Get any boy at first sight
An instrument of the Lord’s might
And still all I want to do with her is star gazing
Because I know she is and will always be amazing
Even in these times of dazing
Fearing
Questioning
And deep contemplating
Where have her friends gone?
And why does everything else seem wrong?
When all she has done is be herself
Bright and shining
Golden light
Why does it still feel like the darkest night
But I know she is still amazing
I know how she makes me feel
Definitely drives me crazy
Makes my heart sing
Want to go get her bling
Give her anything
Thank Lord Everything
For bringing her to my life
Let me see her light
Open my heart
And give me a new start
Beauty that knows no chart
An angel come down from Heaven
There is no way I am the only one who sees
Shit
She won’t even be with me
But that does not change a thing
She’s still amazing
A star that is blazing
I guess too bright for most to see
So too bad for thee
If as a star is not how you want her to be
Because she already is
And always will be
A mazing
Every day a bad day
No friends to play
Just bills to pay
Only thing to do is pray
And it may be dark
She still has the same heart
And I know she still shines bright
She will win every fight
Get any boy at first sight
An instrument of the Lord’s might
And still all I want to do with her is star gazing
Because I know she is and will always be amazing
Even in these times of dazing
Fearing
Questioning
And deep contemplating
Where have her friends gone?
And why does everything else seem wrong?
When all she has done is be herself
Bright and shining
Golden light
Why does it still feel like the darkest night
But I know she is still amazing
I know how she makes me feel
Definitely drives me crazy
Makes my heart sing
Want to go get her bling
Give her anything
Thank Lord Everything
For bringing her to my life
Let me see her light
Open my heart
And give me a new start
Beauty that knows no chart
An angel come down from Heaven
There is no way I am the only one who sees
Shit
She won’t even be with me
But that does not change a thing
She’s still amazing
A star that is blazing
I guess too bright for most to see
So too bad for thee
If as a star is not how you want her to be
Because she already is
And always will be
A mazing
Love Awaits
Tomorrow she waits
For this moment I did anticipate
And made a joke of it on our first date
I could not see her for fifteen years
I had been locked up
And sent away
All she could get from me
Was a letter a day
And a short call at night
In May I was joking
But it happened alright
Right at the same time
As it did the other times
And I was left to wonder would she still call me mine?
Still ask to hear my mind?
But
She did not waver
And she did not flee
She said please amor come visit me
And so
Love awaits me
In its city
And again I will see her face oh so pretty
Her warmth
The spark she gives
The part that has been missing
To be in her room is what I have been wishing
To show her more of me
No need to convince her or make her believe
Because I know she sees
I know she cares
I feel it in her stare
That is how I know it is love that awaits
I cannot wait for our next date
See art and contemplate
Not go to the streets and demonstrate
Or say things that only frustrate
With her in my life
I want to participate
I want to take it all in
Every game I play I feel like I win
Regardless of the score
There is no game with her
She is so pure
She is so clear
To her heart is where I do steer
To the love that awaits
Towards Heavens gate
For this moment I did anticipate
And made a joke of it on our first date
I could not see her for fifteen years
I had been locked up
And sent away
All she could get from me
Was a letter a day
And a short call at night
In May I was joking
But it happened alright
Right at the same time
As it did the other times
And I was left to wonder would she still call me mine?
Still ask to hear my mind?
But
She did not waver
And she did not flee
She said please amor come visit me
And so
Love awaits me
In its city
And again I will see her face oh so pretty
Her warmth
The spark she gives
The part that has been missing
To be in her room is what I have been wishing
To show her more of me
No need to convince her or make her believe
Because I know she sees
I know she cares
I feel it in her stare
That is how I know it is love that awaits
I cannot wait for our next date
See art and contemplate
Not go to the streets and demonstrate
Or say things that only frustrate
With her in my life
I want to participate
I want to take it all in
Every game I play I feel like I win
Regardless of the score
There is no game with her
She is so pure
She is so clear
To her heart is where I do steer
To the love that awaits
Towards Heavens gate
Monday, November 16, 2015
A New Chance
Even though I keep getting second chances
This one is brand new
Although I still get these sideways glances
And even though I am confused about the pictures I drew
Someone said “I believe in you”
But I wonder how that could be true
When all I feel is lack
The only color I want to wear is black
And I rather just lay on the ground
Flat on my back
What now to do
I am so unsure
Seems dangerous just to think about you
But you don’t seem to waver
Your words are the exact ones to say
You give me hope there can be another chance
And perhaps again I will enjoy to dance
Not feel the victim of my circumstance
But again feel the magic of coincidence
And believe life is not just happenstance
I should give myself a new chance
For even as I falter again and again
I have yet to meet my end
It is not easy
And right now
The road seems without end
I do have a new chance to begin
To her my love I can send
And in my basement the colors I can blend
And in time all wounds they do mend
I wish I knew when
I wish I could feel sure of something
Wish I could feel like a human being
Not a monstrous thing
Or an Angel without wings
Tomorrow the sun will rise again
And I can still count on the same friends
A new day
And a new chance to begin
I promise to make the most of it
My disappointments I will forget
And my actions I won’t regret
This one is brand new
Although I still get these sideways glances
And even though I am confused about the pictures I drew
Someone said “I believe in you”
But I wonder how that could be true
When all I feel is lack
The only color I want to wear is black
And I rather just lay on the ground
Flat on my back
What now to do
I am so unsure
Seems dangerous just to think about you
But you don’t seem to waver
Your words are the exact ones to say
You give me hope there can be another chance
And perhaps again I will enjoy to dance
Not feel the victim of my circumstance
But again feel the magic of coincidence
And believe life is not just happenstance
I should give myself a new chance
For even as I falter again and again
I have yet to meet my end
It is not easy
And right now
The road seems without end
I do have a new chance to begin
To her my love I can send
And in my basement the colors I can blend
And in time all wounds they do mend
I wish I knew when
I wish I could feel sure of something
Wish I could feel like a human being
Not a monstrous thing
Or an Angel without wings
Tomorrow the sun will rise again
And I can still count on the same friends
A new day
And a new chance to begin
I promise to make the most of it
My disappointments I will forget
And my actions I won’t regret
The Return
How long can one wait?
Anticipate the date?
Even though time seems to delay
I know soon I will walk through that door
And you will love me that much more
Although again
I will not be the same as before
Again
I will be much more
Even less fear
Even more cheer
Because I was not afraid to shed tears
Show my most vulnerable side
Know I am certain to die
But have strong faith in the beauty of the other side
I was scared this separation would be a reason to divide
But
Our love survives
And more things I want you now to realize
Most I cannot explain
Just reinforce their claims I am insane
Wild, free, and crazy sure
But I do have a name
And you do know it
And you have been to my personal palace
Were there to be my date on a night I felt great
Then next to me on a loveseat to watch a historic horse race
Soon I will be home
I will be back where I belong
And if you like you can find out this story long
But I rather just make you a mix tape and tell it in songs
Plenty of chores to do
When this long stay is through
Then I hope again to get close to you
So we can resume
So we can return to what we started
In yours and my room
I will bring you new flowers to bloom
The day draws near
Be patient
I will see you soon
Anticipate the date?
Even though time seems to delay
I know soon I will walk through that door
And you will love me that much more
Although again
I will not be the same as before
Again
I will be much more
Even less fear
Even more cheer
Because I was not afraid to shed tears
Show my most vulnerable side
Know I am certain to die
But have strong faith in the beauty of the other side
I was scared this separation would be a reason to divide
But
Our love survives
And more things I want you now to realize
Most I cannot explain
Just reinforce their claims I am insane
Wild, free, and crazy sure
But I do have a name
And you do know it
And you have been to my personal palace
Were there to be my date on a night I felt great
Then next to me on a loveseat to watch a historic horse race
Soon I will be home
I will be back where I belong
And if you like you can find out this story long
But I rather just make you a mix tape and tell it in songs
Plenty of chores to do
When this long stay is through
Then I hope again to get close to you
So we can resume
So we can return to what we started
In yours and my room
I will bring you new flowers to bloom
The day draws near
Be patient
I will see you soon
Thursday, November 12, 2015
Rise
Many Lay in bed still
Even though it is long past the time to wake
Each new day is ours to make
For granted please do not take
Or life do not forsake
Or her love do not mistake
For those of us who are awake
It is the time to rise
Time to open up your mind and realize
All we do in life is for us to decide
Let’s make clear choices
Do things worth people’s rejoices
And holy noises
For we should be listening to the Lord
Release your hand from the sword
And forget you even carry one
Take a few more steps up the ladder to the Holy One
The best part
We have only just begun
Please accept this invitation
This front row seat to the universes recreation
This is Divine declaration
So raise up your heart and mind
Be prepared to learn new things about space and time
Forget what is yours
And what is mine
The most important thing to do is shine
And let your heart rise
So once again you can see in her eyes
Remove all desire to disguise
Any thought of suicide or homicide
For now is the time to thrive
Reasons for conflict
Ended a long time ago
By now we all should know
Ascension is now the only path to go
By now we all should definitely know
I feel like I waited in the darkest cell
In my private hell
My own graveyard
Where only my old bones dwell
For the longest night
Because she was the only one left to fight
Good thing she is a warrior of light
And so am I
And I never forgot my power to fly
Rise
And never die
But for us
I knew there was a time to choose sides
So I chose darkness
So she could be light
And locked myself away so there would be no fight
I kept her eyes in my sight
The Lord’s love in my heart to know
I served the light
I checked all my notes
And the famous quotes
Remembered how to count
Covered my mouth when it was time to shout
Our love was not what this was about
It is about much more than that
It is about everyone and everything
A gift for every human being
It is time to rise and awaken
For our glorious new Golden Age to begin
I hope that it never ends
Even though it is long past the time to wake
Each new day is ours to make
For granted please do not take
Or life do not forsake
Or her love do not mistake
For those of us who are awake
It is the time to rise
Time to open up your mind and realize
All we do in life is for us to decide
Let’s make clear choices
Do things worth people’s rejoices
And holy noises
For we should be listening to the Lord
Release your hand from the sword
And forget you even carry one
Take a few more steps up the ladder to the Holy One
The best part
We have only just begun
Please accept this invitation
This front row seat to the universes recreation
This is Divine declaration
So raise up your heart and mind
Be prepared to learn new things about space and time
Forget what is yours
And what is mine
The most important thing to do is shine
And let your heart rise
So once again you can see in her eyes
Remove all desire to disguise
Any thought of suicide or homicide
For now is the time to thrive
Reasons for conflict
Ended a long time ago
By now we all should know
Ascension is now the only path to go
By now we all should definitely know
I feel like I waited in the darkest cell
In my private hell
My own graveyard
Where only my old bones dwell
For the longest night
Because she was the only one left to fight
Good thing she is a warrior of light
And so am I
And I never forgot my power to fly
Rise
And never die
But for us
I knew there was a time to choose sides
So I chose darkness
So she could be light
And locked myself away so there would be no fight
I kept her eyes in my sight
The Lord’s love in my heart to know
I served the light
I checked all my notes
And the famous quotes
Remembered how to count
Covered my mouth when it was time to shout
Our love was not what this was about
It is about much more than that
It is about everyone and everything
A gift for every human being
It is time to rise and awaken
For our glorious new Golden Age to begin
I hope that it never ends
In my Hometown
Back home
Still sometimes it feels like I never left
Still speeding down the hill
Trying to get to high school
Still only care about being cool
And still love all the same things
Upset
I cannot find my class ring
People wonder why by now
I don’t wear a wedding ring
Well I guess a wedding is not just a thing
More a commitment
A divine union
Holy communion
Not just a life step
Or something you should expect
By the time you reach a certain age
Prefer
For
Now to spend my time reading words of the sage
Learn to be a mage
My soul I can never trade
And yours
If I can
I’d like to save
Simply by saying have a nice day
Now that I am back home
I see friends where ever I go
Ask what they are up to
So I can know
When they ask what I do
Same as before
Doing my thing
Living the dream
Making the world into scenes
Making the most out of each day
Living under these golden rays
Making the lake my place of play
Make art
Make love
Send beautiful letters her way
How can one not love this life?
Why choose strife?
When we always can choose not to fight
Only serve light
Live with the Lord in
Eternal life
Still sometimes it feels like I never left
Still speeding down the hill
Trying to get to high school
Still only care about being cool
And still love all the same things
Upset
I cannot find my class ring
People wonder why by now
I don’t wear a wedding ring
Well I guess a wedding is not just a thing
More a commitment
A divine union
Holy communion
Not just a life step
Or something you should expect
By the time you reach a certain age
Prefer
For
Now to spend my time reading words of the sage
Learn to be a mage
My soul I can never trade
And yours
If I can
I’d like to save
Simply by saying have a nice day
Now that I am back home
I see friends where ever I go
Ask what they are up to
So I can know
When they ask what I do
Same as before
Doing my thing
Living the dream
Making the world into scenes
Making the most out of each day
Living under these golden rays
Making the lake my place of play
Make art
Make love
Send beautiful letters her way
How can one not love this life?
Why choose strife?
When we always can choose not to fight
Only serve light
Live with the Lord in
Eternal life
Monday, November 9, 2015
C
I am love
So are you
So is everyone
So is everything above
And below
Why do we think there is so much we do not know?
When the only thing in life to do is to grow
In all ways
In all directions
To see all perspectives
Not only follow directions
But do some introspection
And self reflections
Decide what will be your life lessons
By asking God the questions
And let them be the one to do the telling
Not some angry white guy yelling
It is so easy when you turn off the telly
Put some good food in your belly
Go for a walk
And just start listening
And start looking
Feeling
And living
This is where we start
When we begin
To not only build a world
But also live in it
This is how the fire is lit
Love is the beginning of it
That is where we came from
And where we are headed
The beginning is where it is ended
So start each day
As you ought
Be what you are as you are brought
A Divine beam
A long thread of eternal seed
You are pure
Always believe
Even if at times you are not in deed
Ask forgiveness
And you shall see
What true love really means
So are you
So is everyone
So is everything above
And below
Why do we think there is so much we do not know?
When the only thing in life to do is to grow
In all ways
In all directions
To see all perspectives
Not only follow directions
But do some introspection
And self reflections
Decide what will be your life lessons
By asking God the questions
And let them be the one to do the telling
Not some angry white guy yelling
It is so easy when you turn off the telly
Put some good food in your belly
Go for a walk
And just start listening
And start looking
Feeling
And living
This is where we start
When we begin
To not only build a world
But also live in it
This is how the fire is lit
Love is the beginning of it
That is where we came from
And where we are headed
The beginning is where it is ended
So start each day
As you ought
Be what you are as you are brought
A Divine beam
A long thread of eternal seed
You are pure
Always believe
Even if at times you are not in deed
Ask forgiveness
And you shall see
What true love really means
Wednesday, November 4, 2015
She Knows
I love women
In all their varieties
Whether
They be
Sisters or mothers
Daughters or nieces, grandmothers
Especially as lovers
So why do we live in a world
That does not seem to see it as so?
Constant objectification
Thought for only male satisfaction
Never given gratification
Just degradation
How do you not love a woman?
When she is the one who knows
The one who always knows
Even when ugliness is all that shows
When you’re the worst version of man
She knows
You are still a son of Hanuman
The greatest man
Strongest of the strong
A creature made for protecting His woman and land
For they are one and the same
One of your birth
And one of your grave
Both lead to the same place
Heaven’s gate
One way in
One way out
Same as on the inside
As it is on the out
And she is the one who knows
Taught you all of this
Said this life is what you make of it
I’m always with you
I am always here
I love you forever
I’ll be waiting
When you get back home
This is where you left from
And the only home you will forever know
Now free yourself and grow
So love a woman
Whether she be your mother or wife
Or something different
Whether in this or the next life
She is the one who
Knows
How bright is your light
So shine
Shine so bright
In all their varieties
Whether
They be
Sisters or mothers
Daughters or nieces, grandmothers
Especially as lovers
So why do we live in a world
That does not seem to see it as so?
Constant objectification
Thought for only male satisfaction
Never given gratification
Just degradation
How do you not love a woman?
When she is the one who knows
The one who always knows
Even when ugliness is all that shows
When you’re the worst version of man
She knows
You are still a son of Hanuman
The greatest man
Strongest of the strong
A creature made for protecting His woman and land
For they are one and the same
One of your birth
And one of your grave
Both lead to the same place
Heaven’s gate
One way in
One way out
Same as on the inside
As it is on the out
And she is the one who knows
Taught you all of this
Said this life is what you make of it
I’m always with you
I am always here
I love you forever
I’ll be waiting
When you get back home
This is where you left from
And the only home you will forever know
Now free yourself and grow
So love a woman
Whether she be your mother or wife
Or something different
Whether in this or the next life
She is the one who
Knows
How bright is your light
So shine
Shine so bright
Monday, November 2, 2015
Reunion
It had been awhile since
We had been a class
The last
Of the millennium
Or perhaps the first
The last time we shared a stage
I held the mic
In place of the other me
But here we were together
I and she
A reunion
A celebration
A chance to meet our new generation
Now our classmates
Have lifemates
from different places they did graduate
And now have children
Our family grows bigger
And I am happy to be together
Kind of blew it on the planning
Let work get in the way of living
Forgot to send notes
Do more than Facebook pokes
Or Twitter quotes
My class is what matters most
Not my social class
My mates
Ones of past dates
And study groups
The ones who helped you learn
Helped you grow
Gave you the power
To let your light show
And heart glow
To them I will always be beautiful
And that is what they are to me
My family
I manned the grill
And I am happy to be the tree
The one at the center
The one who always remembers
Although I never really took notes
Just drew in my notebooks
To me please connect the spokes
And I will stay here
Always welcome you home
Say it is nice to see you
How are you?
I love you
Wanna go to the lake later?
Let’s talk about the things that are true
Let’s always remind each other
What matters most
Regardless of which coast
Or who makes the most
Whether you came on a plane or a boat
We will remember the good times
Renew our vows to each other
Everyone more like a sister or a brother
We have seen each others worst
Best
And now all the rest
To each other we do bless
Our mirrors
Always there to remind us
Who we are
That we are each stars
But live together in this cluster
For we learned and grew together
Which makes us family
4 Eva and forever
We had been a class
The last
Of the millennium
Or perhaps the first
The last time we shared a stage
I held the mic
In place of the other me
But here we were together
I and she
A reunion
A celebration
A chance to meet our new generation
Now our classmates
Have lifemates
from different places they did graduate
And now have children
Our family grows bigger
And I am happy to be together
Kind of blew it on the planning
Let work get in the way of living
Forgot to send notes
Do more than Facebook pokes
Or Twitter quotes
My class is what matters most
Not my social class
My mates
Ones of past dates
And study groups
The ones who helped you learn
Helped you grow
Gave you the power
To let your light show
And heart glow
To them I will always be beautiful
And that is what they are to me
My family
I manned the grill
And I am happy to be the tree
The one at the center
The one who always remembers
Although I never really took notes
Just drew in my notebooks
To me please connect the spokes
And I will stay here
Always welcome you home
Say it is nice to see you
How are you?
I love you
Wanna go to the lake later?
Let’s talk about the things that are true
Let’s always remind each other
What matters most
Regardless of which coast
Or who makes the most
Whether you came on a plane or a boat
We will remember the good times
Renew our vows to each other
Everyone more like a sister or a brother
We have seen each others worst
Best
And now all the rest
To each other we do bless
Our mirrors
Always there to remind us
Who we are
That we are each stars
But live together in this cluster
For we learned and grew together
Which makes us family
4 Eva and forever
Thursday, October 29, 2015
Darkness
In the dark
There the light is born
In darkness
We often mourn
The roses thorn
I have dwelled in shadows
And lived in the night
Been ghouls and ghosts of fright
Learned to be guided by the eyes of sight
But it was not hatred that guided me
It was Divine might
For ugliness is not the only thing that lives not in light
For it was in the shadows
It was within fear
It was a time I saw the colors come clear
I traveled to places both far and near
I heard a message we all need to hear
I learned that true radiance
Needs a black backdrop
And I do not fear what will happen when my heart does finally stop
Because at the bottom
You can see the top
Know you will reach it
And there you can sit
There with the Lord of all things
Creator of the light and the dark in all beings
There you can ask why
There you can understand why black is the color of the night sky
And every star and every galaxy
Is every color you have ever seen
I dwell in darkness
Because my light is for her
To make sure she knows bliss
Make sure she gets all she deserves
I can take your scorn
I can take your bad words
And I can take your hate
Because she is the one who sees my best parts
When we go out on a dates
And that is why I do not fear the dark
Why I wear the color black
She sees what’s underneath that
Her and I know it is pure radiance
Look close and you might catch a glance
But to possess it you have no chance
It is for her only
And it is not mine, just on loan from the one holy
So tonight again I go into the darkness
Into the blackness
Again there she will be
Always waiting for me
There the light is born
In darkness
We often mourn
The roses thorn
I have dwelled in shadows
And lived in the night
Been ghouls and ghosts of fright
Learned to be guided by the eyes of sight
But it was not hatred that guided me
It was Divine might
For ugliness is not the only thing that lives not in light
For it was in the shadows
It was within fear
It was a time I saw the colors come clear
I traveled to places both far and near
I heard a message we all need to hear
I learned that true radiance
Needs a black backdrop
And I do not fear what will happen when my heart does finally stop
Because at the bottom
You can see the top
Know you will reach it
And there you can sit
There with the Lord of all things
Creator of the light and the dark in all beings
There you can ask why
There you can understand why black is the color of the night sky
And every star and every galaxy
Is every color you have ever seen
I dwell in darkness
Because my light is for her
To make sure she knows bliss
Make sure she gets all she deserves
I can take your scorn
I can take your bad words
And I can take your hate
Because she is the one who sees my best parts
When we go out on a dates
And that is why I do not fear the dark
Why I wear the color black
She sees what’s underneath that
Her and I know it is pure radiance
Look close and you might catch a glance
But to possess it you have no chance
It is for her only
And it is not mine, just on loan from the one holy
So tonight again I go into the darkness
Into the blackness
Again there she will be
Always waiting for me
Wednesday, October 28, 2015
Her Throne
She was born to be a queen
Destined not to be mean
Powered by love
Sent from the Lord above
A wonderful woman
And a messenger of the One
Now her throne is set
Prepared for her eternal rest
Sent soon to look over a new nest
For when we arrive she will make us her guest
Destined for a new quest
Into the great unknown
Surely this queen will sit on a throne
Adorned on all sides
With the things she has made
And the lives she has saved
Students and youngsters from ball games played
Her date with the Lord delayed
Even though she should of lived plenty more days
It was her time to return to the golden rays
And spend some service with the Divine
Gain a better understanding of time
She will sit on her throne as she likes
And watch her grandchildren ride bikes
Remind us all there is no reason to fight
That is not how we show Divine might
We do that when we shine our light
Her throne is eternal and everlasting
Luminous and bright
A flame that burns forever
Her name never forgotten
Her spirit forever present
A life so full it will always be present
Continued through her descendants
Now she joins the everpresence
And the one who is omniscient
In that place that is always pleasant
Gabriel will take her to the gates
And show her to her throne
And she will become what we always have known
A brilliant star
Shinning in the night sky
To remind us what we are
The same
All descended from the Most High
Destined not to be mean
Powered by love
Sent from the Lord above
A wonderful woman
And a messenger of the One
Now her throne is set
Prepared for her eternal rest
Sent soon to look over a new nest
For when we arrive she will make us her guest
Destined for a new quest
Into the great unknown
Surely this queen will sit on a throne
Adorned on all sides
With the things she has made
And the lives she has saved
Students and youngsters from ball games played
Her date with the Lord delayed
Even though she should of lived plenty more days
It was her time to return to the golden rays
And spend some service with the Divine
Gain a better understanding of time
She will sit on her throne as she likes
And watch her grandchildren ride bikes
Remind us all there is no reason to fight
That is not how we show Divine might
We do that when we shine our light
Her throne is eternal and everlasting
Luminous and bright
A flame that burns forever
Her name never forgotten
Her spirit forever present
A life so full it will always be present
Continued through her descendants
Now she joins the everpresence
And the one who is omniscient
In that place that is always pleasant
Gabriel will take her to the gates
And show her to her throne
And she will become what we always have known
A brilliant star
Shinning in the night sky
To remind us what we are
The same
All descended from the Most High
Monday, October 26, 2015
Dark Heart Light Heart
To be radiant
One must know all the colors
The rainbows in all their spectrum's
Shine forth in all directions
And be able to be a divine reflection
Unfortunately
One must also know no color
Or lightness
One must also know the darkness
Not be fearful of the abyss
But going willing to the depths
If perhaps only to know perseverance
And to know disgrace
And to understand what happens in this dark place
The dark heart
Is a place the Radiant Warrior can start
However if you let the dark heart be your end
To learn again
You may have to wait for your life to begin again
Again
Relearn to make friends
For with your heart dark
You learn the power to end all creation
You can expand through the constellations
Tend to lack reflection
And have limited compassion
For you took the oath of darkness
To turn life into a carcass
But the circle needs a dark half
And dark dot
For the light has its slot
And it is just the opposite
White half and small white spot
The light heart
Is one we have all got
It is easy to feel
And even easier for others to touch
Especially when they tell us they love us much
Or you’re beautiful and such and such
When we know the light heart
We can even easier go to the dark
Fear not the great wolf’s bark
Or the teeth of the great white shark
For we have rode the wheel all the way around
Above and below ground
I have known both hearts
And learned their lessons
To be radiant is what I try to do most
And that is how I balance between both
To love infinite is the message of the Holy Ghost
And my beliefs
Those words I already spoke
Now I prefer to tell and write jokes
Teach the basics, elementary things
And how much fun it is to ski
You need not listen to me
I do not ask that
Just find your own facts
Know your heart
Let that be your guide
And it will take you to the Divine
One must know all the colors
The rainbows in all their spectrum's
Shine forth in all directions
And be able to be a divine reflection
Unfortunately
One must also know no color
Or lightness
One must also know the darkness
Not be fearful of the abyss
But going willing to the depths
If perhaps only to know perseverance
And to know disgrace
And to understand what happens in this dark place
The dark heart
Is a place the Radiant Warrior can start
However if you let the dark heart be your end
To learn again
You may have to wait for your life to begin again
Again
Relearn to make friends
For with your heart dark
You learn the power to end all creation
You can expand through the constellations
Tend to lack reflection
And have limited compassion
For you took the oath of darkness
To turn life into a carcass
But the circle needs a dark half
And dark dot
For the light has its slot
And it is just the opposite
White half and small white spot
The light heart
Is one we have all got
It is easy to feel
And even easier for others to touch
Especially when they tell us they love us much
Or you’re beautiful and such and such
When we know the light heart
We can even easier go to the dark
Fear not the great wolf’s bark
Or the teeth of the great white shark
For we have rode the wheel all the way around
Above and below ground
I have known both hearts
And learned their lessons
To be radiant is what I try to do most
And that is how I balance between both
To love infinite is the message of the Holy Ghost
And my beliefs
Those words I already spoke
Now I prefer to tell and write jokes
Teach the basics, elementary things
And how much fun it is to ski
You need not listen to me
I do not ask that
Just find your own facts
Know your heart
Let that be your guide
And it will take you to the Divine
Open Your Heart
Open your heart
Here is where we must start
Because on the news
It is the same story
It is always bloody and it is still gory
And the same people preaching about war’s glory
But I see suffering
Thousands stranded and homeless
Due to war and violence
Those who can help
Silent
And not acting
Just debating
While the war is protracting
It is not hard to want to help your fellow man
For I see the pain in their faces
Ravaged and destroyed are their places
New homes await
In new lands
Why is the UN not making plans?
How much longer until we understand?
War, violence and hatred have brought this
But it is easy for our thoughts to shift
When we open our hearts
Call these refugees brother and sister
And understand their plight
They are the victims of their leader’s fight
No longer should we just watch the news and judge
Just shake out heads and allow our shoulders to shrug
Because we all can do something
We can all be part of what takes away their heart sting
Be human
That means be compassionate
Be sensitive
And be caring
We can decide peace is the only answer
And that war is the worst form of cancer
A human being is a much better dancer
Than a solider
And far better when they are a romancer
We can all write a poem
Or a simple love note
Then hatred is not even a joke
It becomes a distant memory
And fades from view
And this conflict we all see through
See it for its worthless nature
Not even worth putting it on paper
Why do we not invite these displaced people over?
There are plenty of places to live
And plenty of work to do
If we opened our hearts we could easily see that plan through
Know the work we were doing was true
Make sure the sky was the only thing on the earth that was blue
Only one thing left to do
Open our hearts
Then we can start
Here is where we must start
Because on the news
It is the same story
It is always bloody and it is still gory
And the same people preaching about war’s glory
But I see suffering
Thousands stranded and homeless
Due to war and violence
Those who can help
Silent
And not acting
Just debating
While the war is protracting
It is not hard to want to help your fellow man
For I see the pain in their faces
Ravaged and destroyed are their places
New homes await
In new lands
Why is the UN not making plans?
How much longer until we understand?
War, violence and hatred have brought this
But it is easy for our thoughts to shift
When we open our hearts
Call these refugees brother and sister
And understand their plight
They are the victims of their leader’s fight
No longer should we just watch the news and judge
Just shake out heads and allow our shoulders to shrug
Because we all can do something
We can all be part of what takes away their heart sting
Be human
That means be compassionate
Be sensitive
And be caring
We can decide peace is the only answer
And that war is the worst form of cancer
A human being is a much better dancer
Than a solider
And far better when they are a romancer
We can all write a poem
Or a simple love note
Then hatred is not even a joke
It becomes a distant memory
And fades from view
And this conflict we all see through
See it for its worthless nature
Not even worth putting it on paper
Why do we not invite these displaced people over?
There are plenty of places to live
And plenty of work to do
If we opened our hearts we could easily see that plan through
Know the work we were doing was true
Make sure the sky was the only thing on the earth that was blue
Only one thing left to do
Open our hearts
Then we can start
Saturday, October 24, 2015
My Plans
You may not have plans for the future
But I do
You might just like TV
And only have love for your boo
And that is fine if that is what you choose for you
But I’ve got other plans
Most of them from a long time ago
Way before I started to let my hair grow
Closer to a time when it was seeds I learned to sow
Or it was my chore the grass to mow
I made plans with a pen similar to this
When I was the same soul and spirit
Just my body different
I planned on a life beautiful
I planned that during and at the end I would be fulfilled
Yes there would be thrills, the good kind of chills, and of course spills
But I would always get up
Never give up
And in doing so I learn so much
Learn to thrive
Really know and appreciate what it means to be alive
Like I said
You do not need to make this choice
You can have what you want
Just worry about what you’ve bought
How much it costs
The color of your hair
What kinds of things you share
Only let one person see your body and soul bare
If that is what you choose I do not care
But it will not be what I choose for me
I want a life full and plenty
Exciting with love many
But like Forest Gump with only one Jenny
I chose this life for me
Now please just sit back and see
How you can make a love for thee
But I do
You might just like TV
And only have love for your boo
And that is fine if that is what you choose for you
But I’ve got other plans
Most of them from a long time ago
Way before I started to let my hair grow
Closer to a time when it was seeds I learned to sow
Or it was my chore the grass to mow
I made plans with a pen similar to this
When I was the same soul and spirit
Just my body different
I planned on a life beautiful
I planned that during and at the end I would be fulfilled
Yes there would be thrills, the good kind of chills, and of course spills
But I would always get up
Never give up
And in doing so I learn so much
Learn to thrive
Really know and appreciate what it means to be alive
Like I said
You do not need to make this choice
You can have what you want
Just worry about what you’ve bought
How much it costs
The color of your hair
What kinds of things you share
Only let one person see your body and soul bare
If that is what you choose I do not care
But it will not be what I choose for me
I want a life full and plenty
Exciting with love many
But like Forest Gump with only one Jenny
I chose this life for me
Now please just sit back and see
How you can make a love for thee
Thursday, October 22, 2015
Ten Years Gone by
I started to learn not to look back
When we said goodbye
When we were kissing and there were tears in our eyes
When all the kids at her new school saw both of us cry
I had set up her dorm room
And met all her family the week before
Then her mom drove me back home
For the next week I was headed to my new Rome
To build a new throne
But before I left
I put a piece of both of us in a place it would never leave
A golden frame around the two of us
Arm in arm
Not in lust
Definitely in love
Definitely both of us had been touched
I looked one last time
Said I love you 4 Eva
Then said goodbye
And although we were still dating on our first day
I knew our future together was uncertain
And perhaps soon we would draw the curtain
When we did
I did my best to move on
I wanted to know in my heart it was not wrong
So I did my best to love
Knowing my picture was safe in a box
Knowing our hearts were in a lock
So I went forward
Was not a coward
Lead the team
And not the class
Was more focused on getting ass
Then I was getting A’s
Simply glad with passing grades
When school ended
I closed another chapter
And another book
Glanced back
With just one loving look
Started at home
Before again I did roam
And again searched out a new throne
But before I did
There was this incident
It was not pretty
It happened outside my own city
I gained some scars
But luckily did not do anytime behind bars
Even though the state had it in for me
My future they saw as empty
And me the opposite of infinity
But I beat the case
And bought myself a fish filet
Decided I would pack up my things and spend some time away
Every once in awhile I would have a bad day
And end up in the worst place in the hospital
They always say the same thing
I’m a drug addict
And need new friends
And they always desire me to have the same end
Going nowhere
My voice silenced
My body confined to a cell
And empty hollow shell
No longer say I am doing well
No longer dream of climbing the mountain to ring the holy bell
Here I am again trying to live in the present
Love a new woman
Feel Divine presence
But I am stuck in the same place
Facing the same questions and acquisitions
They keep preaching the same lesson
Even though that is in the past for me
10 years ago in fact
But they still have a problem I am black
And I am really tired of that
I am going forward
Because I am not scared
And I know what the future looks like
Cause I’ve been there
I’ll be riding my white mare
And my darling carino
Will be waiting there
When we said goodbye
When we were kissing and there were tears in our eyes
When all the kids at her new school saw both of us cry
I had set up her dorm room
And met all her family the week before
Then her mom drove me back home
For the next week I was headed to my new Rome
To build a new throne
But before I left
I put a piece of both of us in a place it would never leave
A golden frame around the two of us
Arm in arm
Not in lust
Definitely in love
Definitely both of us had been touched
I looked one last time
Said I love you 4 Eva
Then said goodbye
And although we were still dating on our first day
I knew our future together was uncertain
And perhaps soon we would draw the curtain
When we did
I did my best to move on
I wanted to know in my heart it was not wrong
So I did my best to love
Knowing my picture was safe in a box
Knowing our hearts were in a lock
So I went forward
Was not a coward
Lead the team
And not the class
Was more focused on getting ass
Then I was getting A’s
Simply glad with passing grades
When school ended
I closed another chapter
And another book
Glanced back
With just one loving look
Started at home
Before again I did roam
And again searched out a new throne
But before I did
There was this incident
It was not pretty
It happened outside my own city
I gained some scars
But luckily did not do anytime behind bars
Even though the state had it in for me
My future they saw as empty
And me the opposite of infinity
But I beat the case
And bought myself a fish filet
Decided I would pack up my things and spend some time away
Every once in awhile I would have a bad day
And end up in the worst place in the hospital
They always say the same thing
I’m a drug addict
And need new friends
And they always desire me to have the same end
Going nowhere
My voice silenced
My body confined to a cell
And empty hollow shell
No longer say I am doing well
No longer dream of climbing the mountain to ring the holy bell
Here I am again trying to live in the present
Love a new woman
Feel Divine presence
But I am stuck in the same place
Facing the same questions and acquisitions
They keep preaching the same lesson
Even though that is in the past for me
10 years ago in fact
But they still have a problem I am black
And I am really tired of that
I am going forward
Because I am not scared
And I know what the future looks like
Cause I’ve been there
I’ll be riding my white mare
And my darling carino
Will be waiting there
The Good ole Days
It did not seem that long ago
We were all together
Enjoying nice weather
And all we did know
All the lessons learned in school
We were showing each other how we did grow
Each afternoon a swim
Most nights a drink and a smoke
A ride through town in my fun red car and a toke
Singing our favorite songs
And telling jokes
Suddenly though
Things got less funny
Our hippie parents told us to get more focused on money
Move out of the house
And get on with life
Go find a wife
Or a husband
That is not the Lord’s plan I thought
Why just focus on things that get bought
When we were already living in a mythic place
Where Homer’s epic ends
And King Odysseus reigns again
After suffering in the Iliad
And an Odyssey just to get home
Only to find some trespasser on his throne
Who was interested in only his wife’s beauty
And the kings bounty
I put this famous Grecian city in my rearview
After I beat the case on some things I could not undo
But was able to live through
Wanted some time away
Where skies were not just grey
But bright blue
And golden sun rays
So I headed west until the mountains touched the sky
Spent a number of years asking the Creator of all things simply why
When I started to hear the reply
It seemed simple and obvious
This world is to bless
No need to guess
Just experience all and everything
For that is what God wants for you
And for me
That for sure I did see
But like the boy I have always been
I would get upset
When I saw others forget
And act with disrespect
Show hate and contempt
You can guess what happened next
My mother did all she knew how
Moved me back home
And I was okay with it at first
Because I assumed it would be the good ole days again
Although I was not with the same friends
It looked basically the same
And I was given a similar feeling
Something was definitely strange
The uniqueness was gone
All the kids wanted to be the same
All very concerned with succeeding at the rich man’s game
To me and my friends that is still lame
Now it is myself I blame
Because I could of been a better example
Could of shown the way better
So this will be my last sorry letter
Because tomorrow I write my love again
For it is with her I begin again
A chance to be more than friends
To rewrite this end
Find our own place
Our own escape
Where we write the rules
And decide what is cool
Where we build our new school
Both become teachers
Not preachers
Truth seekers
And love believers
It will be the good ole days again
And I will call all my old friends
See if they want to be a part of this happy end
We were all together
Enjoying nice weather
And all we did know
All the lessons learned in school
We were showing each other how we did grow
Each afternoon a swim
Most nights a drink and a smoke
A ride through town in my fun red car and a toke
Singing our favorite songs
And telling jokes
Suddenly though
Things got less funny
Our hippie parents told us to get more focused on money
Move out of the house
And get on with life
Go find a wife
Or a husband
That is not the Lord’s plan I thought
Why just focus on things that get bought
When we were already living in a mythic place
Where Homer’s epic ends
And King Odysseus reigns again
After suffering in the Iliad
And an Odyssey just to get home
Only to find some trespasser on his throne
Who was interested in only his wife’s beauty
And the kings bounty
I put this famous Grecian city in my rearview
After I beat the case on some things I could not undo
But was able to live through
Wanted some time away
Where skies were not just grey
But bright blue
And golden sun rays
So I headed west until the mountains touched the sky
Spent a number of years asking the Creator of all things simply why
When I started to hear the reply
It seemed simple and obvious
This world is to bless
No need to guess
Just experience all and everything
For that is what God wants for you
And for me
That for sure I did see
But like the boy I have always been
I would get upset
When I saw others forget
And act with disrespect
Show hate and contempt
You can guess what happened next
My mother did all she knew how
Moved me back home
And I was okay with it at first
Because I assumed it would be the good ole days again
Although I was not with the same friends
It looked basically the same
And I was given a similar feeling
Something was definitely strange
The uniqueness was gone
All the kids wanted to be the same
All very concerned with succeeding at the rich man’s game
To me and my friends that is still lame
Now it is myself I blame
Because I could of been a better example
Could of shown the way better
So this will be my last sorry letter
Because tomorrow I write my love again
For it is with her I begin again
A chance to be more than friends
To rewrite this end
Find our own place
Our own escape
Where we write the rules
And decide what is cool
Where we build our new school
Both become teachers
Not preachers
Truth seekers
And love believers
It will be the good ole days again
And I will call all my old friends
See if they want to be a part of this happy end
Wednesday, October 14, 2015
I
I’ve watched summer waste away
Seen the sunset from a closed window each day
All month long
Been locked up
They ask me why?
To answer I do not even try
For it is not I who seek the answers to that question
For these are not even my lessons
Their motives I can only be guessing
I know who I am
I know why I would be damned
But I know I am not
I know for what I have fought
And I am certain now what I live for
Love
That is my mission
And life’s purpose
If I had a job
I would not mind to run a circus
Because it would be entertaining
I like to host the party
Not be the life of it
In fact
At the party I hire security
In case I have too much beer or herbal tea
Or if mi carino just wants to make out with me
Privately
And we can forget about all the guests
And I can see her holy body
For it is that I like to bless
Honor her
And show her the love she deserves
Especially after all she has been through this month
All the false things she has heard
Thank God she still believes my word
And still longs for my touch
I know I owe her much
And I am still broke as fuck
So I can buy nothing to heal her heart
Or restore her trust
But I will place my lips on her bust
And look in her eyes
Show her that when I am with her
I wear no disguise
When we walk the streets together
I only show pride
Because I beam with radiance with her by my side
I love this life
And do not fear the other side
For our love will last beyond this brief lifetime
Let’s act our age and be wise
And let our love grow steadily in time
Seen the sunset from a closed window each day
All month long
Been locked up
They ask me why?
To answer I do not even try
For it is not I who seek the answers to that question
For these are not even my lessons
Their motives I can only be guessing
I know who I am
I know why I would be damned
But I know I am not
I know for what I have fought
And I am certain now what I live for
Love
That is my mission
And life’s purpose
If I had a job
I would not mind to run a circus
Because it would be entertaining
I like to host the party
Not be the life of it
In fact
At the party I hire security
In case I have too much beer or herbal tea
Or if mi carino just wants to make out with me
Privately
And we can forget about all the guests
And I can see her holy body
For it is that I like to bless
Honor her
And show her the love she deserves
Especially after all she has been through this month
All the false things she has heard
Thank God she still believes my word
And still longs for my touch
I know I owe her much
And I am still broke as fuck
So I can buy nothing to heal her heart
Or restore her trust
But I will place my lips on her bust
And look in her eyes
Show her that when I am with her
I wear no disguise
When we walk the streets together
I only show pride
Because I beam with radiance with her by my side
I love this life
And do not fear the other side
For our love will last beyond this brief lifetime
Let’s act our age and be wise
And let our love grow steadily in time
I Still Break too
When you see me
Please smile back
It is okay to hug me
Cause I like to feel like you are willing to pick up the slack
Cause just like you
I still feel lack
Still feel that I am not as bright as I should be
Still feel lost in infinity
But I try and only feel that way briefly
Because I’ve heard the opposite plenty
I’ve heard that I light up the room
Take away others gloom
And that is what I like to do
Because my favorite thing to do is love you
Make you feel as good as I
Remind you to take your time
Show you how you reflect the Divine
But I am just like you
I have bad days
And disappointments
Get scraps and bruises
And need ointment
And like you I heal
I pray for forgiveness
And guidance
Because I know Lord Everything is this realms constance
Mine is a beautiful women who comes in several forms
And whether she have beautiful African skin
Pale as a ghost
Jew
Christian
My soul’s twin
Round or thin
American or European
She is the one who allows me to hold this pen
Her love is what I drink each morning as coffee
And herbal tea at night
She relieves my fright
Gives me courage to fight
Or wings for flight
Let’s kiss this spiteful world goodbye
Let me show you and remind you
Of your wings to fly
Return to the throne of the Lord
Where we can lay side by side
Where once again we will simply be Divine
Please smile back
It is okay to hug me
Cause I like to feel like you are willing to pick up the slack
Cause just like you
I still feel lack
Still feel that I am not as bright as I should be
Still feel lost in infinity
But I try and only feel that way briefly
Because I’ve heard the opposite plenty
I’ve heard that I light up the room
Take away others gloom
And that is what I like to do
Because my favorite thing to do is love you
Make you feel as good as I
Remind you to take your time
Show you how you reflect the Divine
But I am just like you
I have bad days
And disappointments
Get scraps and bruises
And need ointment
And like you I heal
I pray for forgiveness
And guidance
Because I know Lord Everything is this realms constance
Mine is a beautiful women who comes in several forms
And whether she have beautiful African skin
Pale as a ghost
Jew
Christian
My soul’s twin
Round or thin
American or European
She is the one who allows me to hold this pen
Her love is what I drink each morning as coffee
And herbal tea at night
She relieves my fright
Gives me courage to fight
Or wings for flight
Let’s kiss this spiteful world goodbye
Let me show you and remind you
Of your wings to fly
Return to the throne of the Lord
Where we can lay side by side
Where once again we will simply be Divine
Monday, October 12, 2015
How Can I Help
When I ask you how you are
Especially when we are just sitting at a bar
Please do not give a list of grievances
Or things you dislike
Complaints
And just spew hate
Tell me where your visions take you
Show me you wear wings under your clothes
You dream in color
And love to mix hues
Then I can help you
Then I will help those dreams come true
Because I will know you are not blue
Not just living outside of you
But building on what you came with
A Jedi
And not a Sith
I did arrive on earth to grant your wish
And this meeting I planned it
I was waiting
Not really anticipating
Just prepared
I reviewed my notes on you
When I clasped your palm
Greeted you
And looked in your eyes
To you
It might have been a surprise
When you saw me as an angel
No need to tell me
Cause long ago I realized
Counted every day until this day
When I could return to earth
Made of water and dirt
In a normal body
Not one of ether and only things holy
Because I like being in the congregation
Not the choir
And definitely not the pulpit
For it is not me
I was the one who was taught
At the alter of the Lord
And it was there I felt the fire of their sword
And the power of their words
Vaporized and learned all about death
Until the sweet words of life
Knew the power of resurrection
And was told to serve as part of their creation of perfection
Spent too many eternities as only a divine reflection
Overlighting souls both pious and lost
It was a burden
It was a cost
But I knew this would be my reward
A human life back on earth
One filled with love and simple artistic creations
And I am happy to help you
Never judge you
Remind you
Yes of course the Lord is above you
And me
So just tell me I am pretty
And how you enjoy my little city
Or my D-town
When I leave the bar
I’ll just wink
And say see you around
Especially when we are just sitting at a bar
Please do not give a list of grievances
Or things you dislike
Complaints
And just spew hate
Tell me where your visions take you
Show me you wear wings under your clothes
You dream in color
And love to mix hues
Then I can help you
Then I will help those dreams come true
Because I will know you are not blue
Not just living outside of you
But building on what you came with
A Jedi
And not a Sith
I did arrive on earth to grant your wish
And this meeting I planned it
I was waiting
Not really anticipating
Just prepared
I reviewed my notes on you
When I clasped your palm
Greeted you
And looked in your eyes
To you
It might have been a surprise
When you saw me as an angel
No need to tell me
Cause long ago I realized
Counted every day until this day
When I could return to earth
Made of water and dirt
In a normal body
Not one of ether and only things holy
Because I like being in the congregation
Not the choir
And definitely not the pulpit
For it is not me
I was the one who was taught
At the alter of the Lord
And it was there I felt the fire of their sword
And the power of their words
Vaporized and learned all about death
Until the sweet words of life
Knew the power of resurrection
And was told to serve as part of their creation of perfection
Spent too many eternities as only a divine reflection
Overlighting souls both pious and lost
It was a burden
It was a cost
But I knew this would be my reward
A human life back on earth
One filled with love and simple artistic creations
And I am happy to help you
Never judge you
Remind you
Yes of course the Lord is above you
And me
So just tell me I am pretty
And how you enjoy my little city
Or my D-town
When I leave the bar
I’ll just wink
And say see you around
It is Still Personal
Hi
I told you my name
Now please go away
Cause I am not feeling it today
I am ready to make it rain
And not in a good way
I don’t have wads of cash in my hand
Don’t feel great
Definitely don’t feel grand
This is not what I had planned
I feel like I am still trapped in a Hell of my own creation
Don’t feel oneness
Just the worst sense of separation
Keep looking at the H I put back on my wrist
Wondering all day
If I made her wish
Did I give her bliss?
Or seal my story with the sting of death’s kiss?
No rock to hold on to
Not sure if I can trust my own wings
Not sure if my heart can sing
Just a long list of names
And a parade of faces
Beautiful women from all my favorite places
But
I don’t feel like a champion
Closer to the worst demon
The serpent of the pit
Even though violence against women makes me sick
I know who did this
I did it
Not sure how to correct it
Stuck on the wrong side of the story
I want no glory
I want no fame
Please forget my name
And my face
For it is in my hands
And tears run through my fingers
My nose runs
And my body shivers
How can I ever lead my own tribe
If all I do is cry?
How can I be the warrior of light I am meant to be
If one girl brings me to my knees?
Beg and plead
Baby please save me
Makes me feel like I failed at our plan for infinity
And my new girl
Is still waiting to hear from me
Why
Why
Why
Am I back locked up by the state
Worse than any criminal
Worse than the rapists and murderers
Who are villains in my eyes
They are vile and I do despise
Why get out?
Why even try?
Cause when I do, I will still just be a doe
And the cops are hunters with a bow
But it is worse
Cause they like to see the light show
And watch my blood fly all over the snow
Had to watch summer end again
From behind a window that does not open
Only because I could not hide my love
Or myself
Now they want me permanently on the shelf
They want me empty
A hallow shell
But I love the ocean
And that is not how I play
So I can wait today
And tomorrow
But it will be a waste
Disgusting medication is all I taste
But shortly it will be her lips again
And once more I’ll hope forever can begin
I told you my name
Now please go away
Cause I am not feeling it today
I am ready to make it rain
And not in a good way
I don’t have wads of cash in my hand
Don’t feel great
Definitely don’t feel grand
This is not what I had planned
I feel like I am still trapped in a Hell of my own creation
Don’t feel oneness
Just the worst sense of separation
Keep looking at the H I put back on my wrist
Wondering all day
If I made her wish
Did I give her bliss?
Or seal my story with the sting of death’s kiss?
No rock to hold on to
Not sure if I can trust my own wings
Not sure if my heart can sing
Just a long list of names
And a parade of faces
Beautiful women from all my favorite places
But
I don’t feel like a champion
Closer to the worst demon
The serpent of the pit
Even though violence against women makes me sick
I know who did this
I did it
Not sure how to correct it
Stuck on the wrong side of the story
I want no glory
I want no fame
Please forget my name
And my face
For it is in my hands
And tears run through my fingers
My nose runs
And my body shivers
How can I ever lead my own tribe
If all I do is cry?
How can I be the warrior of light I am meant to be
If one girl brings me to my knees?
Beg and plead
Baby please save me
Makes me feel like I failed at our plan for infinity
And my new girl
Is still waiting to hear from me
Why
Why
Why
Am I back locked up by the state
Worse than any criminal
Worse than the rapists and murderers
Who are villains in my eyes
They are vile and I do despise
Why get out?
Why even try?
Cause when I do, I will still just be a doe
And the cops are hunters with a bow
But it is worse
Cause they like to see the light show
And watch my blood fly all over the snow
Had to watch summer end again
From behind a window that does not open
Only because I could not hide my love
Or myself
Now they want me permanently on the shelf
They want me empty
A hallow shell
But I love the ocean
And that is not how I play
So I can wait today
And tomorrow
But it will be a waste
Disgusting medication is all I taste
But shortly it will be her lips again
And once more I’ll hope forever can begin
Thursday, October 8, 2015
Why? (U Know me)
Why is everyone so scared of me?
When the last time I was angry was late 2003
Got rid of that version of me
Left him inside of the white lines of the field of that game
The one to be successful one must be insane
Make up lies about yourself
Create an alter ego that has no name
Just a number and color
Roll with a band of ten other brothers
Say and do things you would never tell your mother
Or anyone else
Because for sixty minutes it is going to be hell
Tell yourself you’re invincible
Even though it is a lie
Pretend you cannot die
Smash your body to ruin
Just for school pride
To get attention from the apple of your eye
Hope she will want you for her guy
Give you a sweet surprise
Hello tonight
And tomorrow morning goodbye
She kisses you and thanks you for the ride
By 2004 I was back to me
Doing my favorite thing
My first love and that is to ski
Took awhile for me to remember I only serve peace
From a special town in ancient Greece
A beautiful city that is clearly unique
Definitely not just a number
So special just one name
One said all the time
A word that opens up the world
One that makes you grow
A word that helps you know
This is how I like to always be known
Only that number for 11 years
But been this name since the beginning
And I will keep it until the ending
Because the name is not pretending
It is the number that had a short life span
Just a brief reminder of our old war clan
Just a flash in the pan
Just campus games
To collect pretty girls heart flames
So I could learn their names
And their beds
Trust me being a football hero is a great way to get head
But it had its costs
And my body knows
And now I have returned to the snow
Back with my favorite saint
The one who makes pretty flakes
The one who lives in the mountains
And the one who holds that special purple fountain
28 years now been on the snow each winter
Twice as long as the field where I tried to be the worst sinner
So why wonder who I am?
Iceman is authentic
Fieldman is dead
Buried still inside the lines of the field
My full name in gold on the wall
2003 captains our history is sealed
If you ask me today in 2015
Who I am
No need to wonder
Have never sought the glam
Went back up the mountain one lap ago
Now I am coming back down
Not yet ready to wear my crown
Because I will get it when I clean up I-Town
That will be here before you know it
Who I am
Definitely not afraid to show it
My purple skis clearly representing
St. Germaine
For the next three years
Will be my favorite name
And by then if you don’t remember my name
I suggest you don’t just look
But stop
And Read a book
When the last time I was angry was late 2003
Got rid of that version of me
Left him inside of the white lines of the field of that game
The one to be successful one must be insane
Make up lies about yourself
Create an alter ego that has no name
Just a number and color
Roll with a band of ten other brothers
Say and do things you would never tell your mother
Or anyone else
Because for sixty minutes it is going to be hell
Tell yourself you’re invincible
Even though it is a lie
Pretend you cannot die
Smash your body to ruin
Just for school pride
To get attention from the apple of your eye
Hope she will want you for her guy
Give you a sweet surprise
Hello tonight
And tomorrow morning goodbye
She kisses you and thanks you for the ride
By 2004 I was back to me
Doing my favorite thing
My first love and that is to ski
Took awhile for me to remember I only serve peace
From a special town in ancient Greece
A beautiful city that is clearly unique
Definitely not just a number
So special just one name
One said all the time
A word that opens up the world
One that makes you grow
A word that helps you know
This is how I like to always be known
Only that number for 11 years
But been this name since the beginning
And I will keep it until the ending
Because the name is not pretending
It is the number that had a short life span
Just a brief reminder of our old war clan
Just a flash in the pan
Just campus games
To collect pretty girls heart flames
So I could learn their names
And their beds
Trust me being a football hero is a great way to get head
But it had its costs
And my body knows
And now I have returned to the snow
Back with my favorite saint
The one who makes pretty flakes
The one who lives in the mountains
And the one who holds that special purple fountain
28 years now been on the snow each winter
Twice as long as the field where I tried to be the worst sinner
So why wonder who I am?
Iceman is authentic
Fieldman is dead
Buried still inside the lines of the field
My full name in gold on the wall
2003 captains our history is sealed
If you ask me today in 2015
Who I am
No need to wonder
Have never sought the glam
Went back up the mountain one lap ago
Now I am coming back down
Not yet ready to wear my crown
Because I will get it when I clean up I-Town
That will be here before you know it
Who I am
Definitely not afraid to show it
My purple skis clearly representing
St. Germaine
For the next three years
Will be my favorite name
And by then if you don’t remember my name
I suggest you don’t just look
But stop
And Read a book
1 Date Every 15 Years
Hera and I
Planned a reunion for the end of July
When we were done
We asked about each others loved ones
Said she had just been to our west coast city
A week at the beach
Her skin was golden and oh so pretty
Hair like gold
Eyes of pure sapphire
Anyone who could see
Clearly saw her majesty
However
To me
She did not quite look right
Still appeared to be somewhat in the grip of something less bright
Was it her job?
Or that lame dude?
Who I never understood how he got that ring on her hand
Convinced her to settle
Never sees us anymore
Further up Lake Cayuga’s eastern shore
And to us Billy Baldwin is still a bore
I told her about my life
Half my year at a desk
The other half looking fresh
At my best
Making pretty things, cartoons, and angel wings
She said that’s perfect for me
And it is the truth
And if Hera says so
Zeus knows it too
The very next day
I saw her
Wearing the same color as Athena Nike
Her eyes beautiful
And her skin pale
Blanketed by Michael
To hide her holy grail
But when I look at people
I see right through
She was covering her heart
Because she knew
When I look at her I will fall apart
Cause I’ve imprisoned myself
In a seashell
On the ocean floor
Keeping Poseidon’s daughter safe
We all know her name
And we exclaim at her beauty
Protecting her is Artemis’ duty
And she was the reason for the Hellenistic War
And that other stupid one before
Why I took her to the ocean floor
Set her next to Tartarus’ door
In the view of Cerberus
Made sure all the lost souls of this land would live in the River Styx
And I’d play Hades and be forever damned
Until I got word again from the Pleiadian Star clan
Heard Navajo whisper words from the sky
Chief Frozen Arrow’s gaze fixed
Through Odin’s Raven’s eye
Ullr and St. Germaine at the top of the mountain
All Clear
Bathed in Lord Everything’s holy fountain
Ready to show the world
How to face fear
How to close your eyes
And open your ears
Then the message is quite clear
Love everyone and everything
Release all doubt
We are all luminous beings
And this is just the beginning of
Happily ever after and infinity
Planned a reunion for the end of July
When we were done
We asked about each others loved ones
Said she had just been to our west coast city
A week at the beach
Her skin was golden and oh so pretty
Hair like gold
Eyes of pure sapphire
Anyone who could see
Clearly saw her majesty
However
To me
She did not quite look right
Still appeared to be somewhat in the grip of something less bright
Was it her job?
Or that lame dude?
Who I never understood how he got that ring on her hand
Convinced her to settle
Never sees us anymore
Further up Lake Cayuga’s eastern shore
And to us Billy Baldwin is still a bore
I told her about my life
Half my year at a desk
The other half looking fresh
At my best
Making pretty things, cartoons, and angel wings
She said that’s perfect for me
And it is the truth
And if Hera says so
Zeus knows it too
The very next day
I saw her
Wearing the same color as Athena Nike
Her eyes beautiful
And her skin pale
Blanketed by Michael
To hide her holy grail
But when I look at people
I see right through
She was covering her heart
Because she knew
When I look at her I will fall apart
Cause I’ve imprisoned myself
In a seashell
On the ocean floor
Keeping Poseidon’s daughter safe
We all know her name
And we exclaim at her beauty
Protecting her is Artemis’ duty
And she was the reason for the Hellenistic War
And that other stupid one before
Why I took her to the ocean floor
Set her next to Tartarus’ door
In the view of Cerberus
Made sure all the lost souls of this land would live in the River Styx
And I’d play Hades and be forever damned
Until I got word again from the Pleiadian Star clan
Heard Navajo whisper words from the sky
Chief Frozen Arrow’s gaze fixed
Through Odin’s Raven’s eye
Ullr and St. Germaine at the top of the mountain
All Clear
Bathed in Lord Everything’s holy fountain
Ready to show the world
How to face fear
How to close your eyes
And open your ears
Then the message is quite clear
Love everyone and everything
Release all doubt
We are all luminous beings
And this is just the beginning of
Happily ever after and infinity
Monday, October 5, 2015
Carino Requiem
I can’t believe this happened again
Met a girl I wanted to call my girlfriend
Had a few dates
Only could call her carino
Which means sweet affection
When we met it was a Divine reflection
No time for guessing
Cause she just wanted directions
Just said follow me
That is where I am headed
The last time I met a woman this special
I kept a secret
Until she spent the night
And behind the scenes she did peep it
A box of pills
Not for thrills
Or relief
Only to pretend make me sleep
But they do more than that
They suffocate me
And make me wonder
Do these people even know what it means to be under?
And the Lord above?
Have strong wings like a dove
Not be afraid of anything
Know you are perfect
A luminous being
Mi carino always says I’m the best
And that is how I know she is here to bless
When I call from the hospital
I know she will not second guess
She will just be happy to hear my voice again
She will be happy I’m letting everyone know she’s my girlfriend
And that I will beg please baby let’s not let this end
Cause it is only just the start
She has only begun to warm my heart
How to explain this is the hardest part
Cause I don’t even believe what I have is sickness
Because they have no proof
And to that I am a witness
Please know carino that when you land today
Back in the land of the brave
I wanted to be there waiting
Right at the gate anticipating
Because when I am with you there is no doubt
I know who I am so I do not have to shout
You know my poetry
And my art
That is what is real
That is my heart
And I let you walk right in
So please stay here with me
So I can show
There are no surprises
Me you already know
And you help me grow
The only thing I ask is
We take it slow
Because I am going nowhere
For it is you
Who I want to know
Un beso amor
I am waiting for you on my hearts ground floor
Met a girl I wanted to call my girlfriend
Had a few dates
Only could call her carino
Which means sweet affection
When we met it was a Divine reflection
No time for guessing
Cause she just wanted directions
Just said follow me
That is where I am headed
The last time I met a woman this special
I kept a secret
Until she spent the night
And behind the scenes she did peep it
A box of pills
Not for thrills
Or relief
Only to pretend make me sleep
But they do more than that
They suffocate me
And make me wonder
Do these people even know what it means to be under?
And the Lord above?
Have strong wings like a dove
Not be afraid of anything
Know you are perfect
A luminous being
Mi carino always says I’m the best
And that is how I know she is here to bless
When I call from the hospital
I know she will not second guess
She will just be happy to hear my voice again
She will be happy I’m letting everyone know she’s my girlfriend
And that I will beg please baby let’s not let this end
Cause it is only just the start
She has only begun to warm my heart
How to explain this is the hardest part
Cause I don’t even believe what I have is sickness
Because they have no proof
And to that I am a witness
Please know carino that when you land today
Back in the land of the brave
I wanted to be there waiting
Right at the gate anticipating
Because when I am with you there is no doubt
I know who I am so I do not have to shout
You know my poetry
And my art
That is what is real
That is my heart
And I let you walk right in
So please stay here with me
So I can show
There are no surprises
Me you already know
And you help me grow
The only thing I ask is
We take it slow
Because I am going nowhere
For it is you
Who I want to know
Un beso amor
I am waiting for you on my hearts ground floor
Trust Me, I Can
I guess they think I am a quitter
Believe I’ve been a sinner
When all I’ve done is be a winner
And a lover
One that protects their mother
And defends their father
Proud of both my blood brothers
And all my friends in the same category
They are all a part of my story
And for them I can wait
I can
And will be patient
Hold the title of saint
Don’t know the word aint
Or can’t
Or won’t
Cause give up I don’t
I stand tall
And steadfast
Not afraid to hold the title of head of the class
I am also the teacher
And it is my job to make sure
Everyone’s grade is pass
Even better
We all deserve A’s
We all deserve to live in glorious days
All connected to all colors of the Lord’s rays
So for now
All I do is pray
And only do what the Lord says
And when I break commandment
I admit what I did
Ask forgiveness and repent
My time in Hell already spent
Been living way past cloud nine
Sitting right next to the Divine
Since late 2005
So please do not ask about that one dark night
Please remind me of the light
Remind me of the beauty
Because brining that to the world is my duty
I know my arrest record is on the web
I remember
I know what I did
But my dream was to give everyone presents
Erase hatred and live in the present
The eternal now of this timeline
The one we have waited for
The one of the Divine Lord
Trust me I can wait
From her stare I do not want to escape
Five more years
Is a piece of cake
So just watch me get in my zen zone
Cause every Sunday I try and get in the end zone
And when I do I pray like Tim Tebow
Cause I know who really controls this show
It is not me
I do not have a degree in puppet mastery
It is thy Lord who does
And this is who is above
They say wait
Participate in life
And let the Lord be the one to recreate
Believe I’ve been a sinner
When all I’ve done is be a winner
And a lover
One that protects their mother
And defends their father
Proud of both my blood brothers
And all my friends in the same category
They are all a part of my story
And for them I can wait
I can
And will be patient
Hold the title of saint
Don’t know the word aint
Or can’t
Or won’t
Cause give up I don’t
I stand tall
And steadfast
Not afraid to hold the title of head of the class
I am also the teacher
And it is my job to make sure
Everyone’s grade is pass
Even better
We all deserve A’s
We all deserve to live in glorious days
All connected to all colors of the Lord’s rays
So for now
All I do is pray
And only do what the Lord says
And when I break commandment
I admit what I did
Ask forgiveness and repent
My time in Hell already spent
Been living way past cloud nine
Sitting right next to the Divine
Since late 2005
So please do not ask about that one dark night
Please remind me of the light
Remind me of the beauty
Because brining that to the world is my duty
I know my arrest record is on the web
I remember
I know what I did
But my dream was to give everyone presents
Erase hatred and live in the present
The eternal now of this timeline
The one we have waited for
The one of the Divine Lord
Trust me I can wait
From her stare I do not want to escape
Five more years
Is a piece of cake
So just watch me get in my zen zone
Cause every Sunday I try and get in the end zone
And when I do I pray like Tim Tebow
Cause I know who really controls this show
It is not me
I do not have a degree in puppet mastery
It is thy Lord who does
And this is who is above
They say wait
Participate in life
And let the Lord be the one to recreate
Sunday, October 4, 2015
I can get Through Anything
One time there was a wall
A lot more than ten feet tall
From here to Timbuktu
It contained all the knowledge that Akasha knew
That is how the knowledge grew
Turned red to blue
Horse hooves to glue
All things in this world fake and true
They’ve tried to cut me up
Smashed my face in
Beaten me up
Run me through
Electrocuted and shot
But that cannot touch what I’ve got
My heart beats pure green
Diamond encrusted
A luminous machine
To power a crystalline light body
Make art more than just a hobby
Stop being a member of the Code of Hammurabi
A start being a superstar
Cause that is what you really are
Beautiful, elegant, a fine glass jar
Limited by nothing
Ruled by Lord Everything
They thought I would break
They thought I would crumble
They thought I was weak
But I never fumble
Especially now
With the end zone in sight
Broke all the tackles
No one could touch me
Now I have another victory
And that makes three
So why do you still ask me?
How I did this or how I did that?
Those are not things I worry about
Or shout about
Or even talk about
The future’s where we are going
To the land of ultimate knowing
So come join me and all the rest
Cause when we’re together
We are the best
A lot more than ten feet tall
From here to Timbuktu
It contained all the knowledge that Akasha knew
That is how the knowledge grew
Turned red to blue
Horse hooves to glue
All things in this world fake and true
They’ve tried to cut me up
Smashed my face in
Beaten me up
Run me through
Electrocuted and shot
But that cannot touch what I’ve got
My heart beats pure green
Diamond encrusted
A luminous machine
To power a crystalline light body
Make art more than just a hobby
Stop being a member of the Code of Hammurabi
A start being a superstar
Cause that is what you really are
Beautiful, elegant, a fine glass jar
Limited by nothing
Ruled by Lord Everything
They thought I would break
They thought I would crumble
They thought I was weak
But I never fumble
Especially now
With the end zone in sight
Broke all the tackles
No one could touch me
Now I have another victory
And that makes three
So why do you still ask me?
How I did this or how I did that?
Those are not things I worry about
Or shout about
Or even talk about
The future’s where we are going
To the land of ultimate knowing
So come join me and all the rest
Cause when we’re together
We are the best
The Twin Flame
I no longer need to know her name
I no longer need to play this game
Cause I already know
And I will always feel the same
I will always love her
No matter what
Even though see never calls back
Even if she tells all her friends I am whack
Even if she stabs me in the back
Because she is my Twin Flame
And everything she does I share at least some of the blame
Even if she tries to hurt me
Hunts me like a thanksgiving turkey
Guts me and serves me for dinner
Neither one of us can ever be sinners
Because we always serve love
And know the Lord is above
The maker
The creator
The destroyer
And the originator
I keep her in my heart where she belongs
The softness of her voice
The holiest of songs
Her written words
Holy psalms
I want to love her all night long
And tomorrow
You cannot buy from me
But anything you can barrow
I love helping
Cause I know she likes that
Could care less if USweekly thinks I’m all that
Or hear whispers that I am this
Or that
Even into the eternal night
I always see the light
For it is through her eyes
I have known the Divine
And that will last much longer than just this life time
Or the next
We are coming down together
Reflecting each other
Wanting to teach this world how to Love each other
I no longer need to play this game
Cause I already know
And I will always feel the same
I will always love her
No matter what
Even though see never calls back
Even if she tells all her friends I am whack
Even if she stabs me in the back
Because she is my Twin Flame
And everything she does I share at least some of the blame
Even if she tries to hurt me
Hunts me like a thanksgiving turkey
Guts me and serves me for dinner
Neither one of us can ever be sinners
Because we always serve love
And know the Lord is above
The maker
The creator
The destroyer
And the originator
I keep her in my heart where she belongs
The softness of her voice
The holiest of songs
Her written words
Holy psalms
I want to love her all night long
And tomorrow
You cannot buy from me
But anything you can barrow
I love helping
Cause I know she likes that
Could care less if USweekly thinks I’m all that
Or hear whispers that I am this
Or that
Even into the eternal night
I always see the light
For it is through her eyes
I have known the Divine
And that will last much longer than just this life time
Or the next
We are coming down together
Reflecting each other
Wanting to teach this world how to Love each other
Patience
Patience
How is it spelled
Not quite sure
Last time I tried
All I did was yell
Before you can say P
Or get an interview from me
You must hold on tight
Not be afraid of the dark
Or the light
Hold within your hand Divine might
See how bright
Let your hurt and pain dissolve in the fire
In your palm is your hatred’s eternal pire
Let the master Germaine
Use his healing flame
Purple rain
Let his heart bleed
And he be the one to explain
After the melt
After all emotions felt
Clear the drain
And let the words come out
A
The first letter after the Divine surprise
Ahava in Hebrew
Alpha in Greek
Either way just keep walking down the street
The next letter you meet
T
And you have your first word
Pat
Also an acronym for many things
Point after touchdown
Or just someone’s name
Perhaps your first teacher
Or a Saint of your ancestors birthplace
I Comes next
Not to remind you of me
But rather remind us all of our immortal nature
Each and everyone of us
We are all blessed
Even if we feel we are on a forever banishment
From the Garden
Locked out of Heaven
But that is not true
And never will be
As long as it is the Archangel Michael who wears blue
Not just stupid cops
Who think guns are cool
Now we will decide who is and who is not ready for school
Open your heart
And let Toth take a look
Compare notes in the Elohim scribes book
Justice’s eyes shut
Her scales in everyone’s view
E
Is for Elohim
The royal guardians of our home
The protectors of all sacred
And the keepers of our safe zone
Each day the world is made new
That is what N is for
Because there will always be more
New sand will always wash onto the shore
The Lord will open any door
And close the ones you have already lived
Seen your karma
Know why you did what you did
Asked forgiveness
And begin again
C
Is for another chance
For our world will always be
Even when we join Andromeda in a new cosmic dance
Able to see new planets and stars
Pretty soon you wont even want to go to bars
They will be as lame as your new car
Cause you can’t stop staring at all those new stars
E
As in Eva
As in Forever and ever
The holy name of Adam’s sacred twin flame
A name written in all of our books
Her story read through her look
Endless eyes
Beautiful thighs
The Queen behind
The curtain
And controlling the show
Her name once Nut
But that was a long time ago
To reach Heaven you must get to the end
Great your mother
And love her again
This time not as friends
Not family by name
But turned back into the Twin Flame
Ready to descend again
Only to begin again
This time without any makeup
Not trying to cover anything up
Making it real obvious we do love to touch
Hold hands in the street
And wash each others feet
Get into the water, get nice and wet
And really deep
No more time for hiding
For true love’s light is clearly shining
Through her, me, and you
How is it spelled
Not quite sure
Last time I tried
All I did was yell
Before you can say P
Or get an interview from me
You must hold on tight
Not be afraid of the dark
Or the light
Hold within your hand Divine might
See how bright
Let your hurt and pain dissolve in the fire
In your palm is your hatred’s eternal pire
Let the master Germaine
Use his healing flame
Purple rain
Let his heart bleed
And he be the one to explain
After the melt
After all emotions felt
Clear the drain
And let the words come out
A
The first letter after the Divine surprise
Ahava in Hebrew
Alpha in Greek
Either way just keep walking down the street
The next letter you meet
T
And you have your first word
Pat
Also an acronym for many things
Point after touchdown
Or just someone’s name
Perhaps your first teacher
Or a Saint of your ancestors birthplace
I Comes next
Not to remind you of me
But rather remind us all of our immortal nature
Each and everyone of us
We are all blessed
Even if we feel we are on a forever banishment
From the Garden
Locked out of Heaven
But that is not true
And never will be
As long as it is the Archangel Michael who wears blue
Not just stupid cops
Who think guns are cool
Now we will decide who is and who is not ready for school
Open your heart
And let Toth take a look
Compare notes in the Elohim scribes book
Justice’s eyes shut
Her scales in everyone’s view
E
Is for Elohim
The royal guardians of our home
The protectors of all sacred
And the keepers of our safe zone
Each day the world is made new
That is what N is for
Because there will always be more
New sand will always wash onto the shore
The Lord will open any door
And close the ones you have already lived
Seen your karma
Know why you did what you did
Asked forgiveness
And begin again
C
Is for another chance
For our world will always be
Even when we join Andromeda in a new cosmic dance
Able to see new planets and stars
Pretty soon you wont even want to go to bars
They will be as lame as your new car
Cause you can’t stop staring at all those new stars
E
As in Eva
As in Forever and ever
The holy name of Adam’s sacred twin flame
A name written in all of our books
Her story read through her look
Endless eyes
Beautiful thighs
The Queen behind
The curtain
And controlling the show
Her name once Nut
But that was a long time ago
To reach Heaven you must get to the end
Great your mother
And love her again
This time not as friends
Not family by name
But turned back into the Twin Flame
Ready to descend again
Only to begin again
This time without any makeup
Not trying to cover anything up
Making it real obvious we do love to touch
Hold hands in the street
And wash each others feet
Get into the water, get nice and wet
And really deep
No more time for hiding
For true love’s light is clearly shining
Through her, me, and you
Wednesday, July 22, 2015
The Lake Two
Went in the lake for the first time this summer
Could not wait any longer
Soon it would be November
And then December
And I’ll be skiing again
Enjoying the winter season
That is why I swam in the lake
Even though it was cold
My breath it did take
But her waters I did not want to escape
Only embrace
Remember grace
Everything is in it’s right place
Right now
This is mine
Swimming in the lake
All my worries in a different place
Not even on shore
They vanished when I got in the water
Washed away
Same as everything
When you’re with her
She tells you special things
Makes you feel beautiful
A luminous being
Her waters are refreshing
And her current
Replenishing
A source of all remembering
And all connecting
From the water
I see my friends spirit reflecting
His bench overlooking
And smiling
Reflecting the glorious sun shinning
I swam as long as I could
Until my feet were cold
And I had to get out
I was glad it was just the first time this summer
Because that means there will be another
It will only be better
My hair will get wetter
Everyone will be there
All in love together
Could not wait any longer
Soon it would be November
And then December
And I’ll be skiing again
Enjoying the winter season
That is why I swam in the lake
Even though it was cold
My breath it did take
But her waters I did not want to escape
Only embrace
Remember grace
Everything is in it’s right place
Right now
This is mine
Swimming in the lake
All my worries in a different place
Not even on shore
They vanished when I got in the water
Washed away
Same as everything
When you’re with her
She tells you special things
Makes you feel beautiful
A luminous being
Her waters are refreshing
And her current
Replenishing
A source of all remembering
And all connecting
From the water
I see my friends spirit reflecting
His bench overlooking
And smiling
Reflecting the glorious sun shinning
I swam as long as I could
Until my feet were cold
And I had to get out
I was glad it was just the first time this summer
Because that means there will be another
It will only be better
My hair will get wetter
Everyone will be there
All in love together
The Lake
I was born with a view of the lake
Met my first love on the shores of the lake
Learned to love
And hate sailing on the lake
I still love this lake
Do not mistake
So many good memories on this lake
Even the other one
Her sister to the east
And the one to the west
Beautiful siblings we have been blessed
My friend has a bench at this lake
Close enough to hear the boats wake
Here he always is
Because he done left the earth
That is what he did
His body lays in permanent rest
But this town
And this lake
He does still bless
He is gone
But his spirit never left
Just started a new quest
Our team in 1992
The best
And that is what he still is
Next to this lake
He will forever live
And so will I
Even if I move away again
Even if I stay until the bitter end
Our two stories have the same end
He and I
On his bench
By the lake
Friends all over again
Met my first love on the shores of the lake
Learned to love
And hate sailing on the lake
I still love this lake
Do not mistake
So many good memories on this lake
Even the other one
Her sister to the east
And the one to the west
Beautiful siblings we have been blessed
My friend has a bench at this lake
Close enough to hear the boats wake
Here he always is
Because he done left the earth
That is what he did
His body lays in permanent rest
But this town
And this lake
He does still bless
He is gone
But his spirit never left
Just started a new quest
Our team in 1992
The best
And that is what he still is
Next to this lake
He will forever live
And so will I
Even if I move away again
Even if I stay until the bitter end
Our two stories have the same end
He and I
On his bench
By the lake
Friends all over again
Monday, July 20, 2015
My Family Tree
When I heard
Upon becoming an adult
I would get my own tree
I first thought
Such a privilege is not for me
Undeserving
And unworthy
But a few moments later
I would see
This is what is meant for me
It is a gift
And a joy to do it my way
For when you come from a big family tree
Sometimes you wonder if anyone cares about little old me?
People only impressed with the big trunk
And strong branches
Forget about all the life in each little leaf
That’s you
That’s me
We are all a part of this tree
The cosmic light family
If you get a chance to become your own tree
Take the opportunity
And some advice from me
First step
Become a seed
Remember everything
Store it somewhere safe
And send a back up copy to infinity
Next be brave
And fall from the tree
Hopefully in a storm
So when you land
You go in the ground
Stay in your seed
Until you are sure you have all you need
Review everything
Learn anything you need
From the great family tree
Decide what your own tree is about
Then begin to sprout
Listen and hear the sun shout
Photosynthesize
Turn it into energy
Know you will always have plenty
Soak in each rain you can
Grow your roots deep to understand
Find other trees of your tree
Your clan
They will help you grow your roots back
To the old familiar tree
The one
Where you are you
And me, me
Where we connect to everything
One with all infinity
You need those roots to grow
And of course to know
Grow your trunk thick and strong
Tall and straight
Wear the sun as your crown
In many years to come you will feel something in your roots
To your heart it will be shoots
They will be your own trees
Saying thank you
For setting me free
And shading me
While I grew
So I could be a big strong tree just like you
And many days later
You may feel like you would like your own tree again
This time your choice
The same process begins
Become a seed
Do it all over again
Anyway you like
That is the beauty of infinity
All is everything
No such thing as death
Or immortality
Just living in nature’s reality
Up down up
Life death life
Around and around
Above or below ground
It is all the same
The circle just has different parts
If you want to know the end
Learn the start
Love all
Open your heart
In the great family tree
We all have our parts
Upon becoming an adult
I would get my own tree
I first thought
Such a privilege is not for me
Undeserving
And unworthy
But a few moments later
I would see
This is what is meant for me
It is a gift
And a joy to do it my way
For when you come from a big family tree
Sometimes you wonder if anyone cares about little old me?
People only impressed with the big trunk
And strong branches
Forget about all the life in each little leaf
That’s you
That’s me
We are all a part of this tree
The cosmic light family
If you get a chance to become your own tree
Take the opportunity
And some advice from me
First step
Become a seed
Remember everything
Store it somewhere safe
And send a back up copy to infinity
Next be brave
And fall from the tree
Hopefully in a storm
So when you land
You go in the ground
Stay in your seed
Until you are sure you have all you need
Review everything
Learn anything you need
From the great family tree
Decide what your own tree is about
Then begin to sprout
Listen and hear the sun shout
Photosynthesize
Turn it into energy
Know you will always have plenty
Soak in each rain you can
Grow your roots deep to understand
Find other trees of your tree
Your clan
They will help you grow your roots back
To the old familiar tree
The one
Where you are you
And me, me
Where we connect to everything
One with all infinity
You need those roots to grow
And of course to know
Grow your trunk thick and strong
Tall and straight
Wear the sun as your crown
In many years to come you will feel something in your roots
To your heart it will be shoots
They will be your own trees
Saying thank you
For setting me free
And shading me
While I grew
So I could be a big strong tree just like you
And many days later
You may feel like you would like your own tree again
This time your choice
The same process begins
Become a seed
Do it all over again
Anyway you like
That is the beauty of infinity
All is everything
No such thing as death
Or immortality
Just living in nature’s reality
Up down up
Life death life
Around and around
Above or below ground
It is all the same
The circle just has different parts
If you want to know the end
Learn the start
Love all
Open your heart
In the great family tree
We all have our parts
Up To The Mountains
I listened when Lord Germaine said
Look and find where I lay my head
See my natural bed
My dwelling space
My holy place
When I listened
The sound led to the mountains
There were waterfalls there
And holy fountains
There is snow there
And tales that forever need recounting
The best thing when you go up is you get closer
You become a knower
And a Wayshower
To know the mystery and wonder
To understand
The Lord is above
And we are all under
But as above
So below
So climb a mountain
And enjoy the show
Watch the master work
Use all the colors
And never sell merch
They need no reward
Cause they work out of love
They work from their heart
They were there at the beginning
They will witness the end
And then help make it new again
In the mountains you can make new friends
And see your family
See them both as same
Now it is you who are the one
Who starts to change
Transformed in Lord Germaine’s purple flame
The fire of love and light
The one brighter than any night
A flame not used to fight
Rather unite
Where the three of you combine
You, Germaine, and the Divine
Learn to let go of the watch
Release your connection to time
Remember the joy of writing rhymes
Forget the word mine
Cause the mountains are for everyone
Mother, father, daughter, sons
Yes, the new world has begun
All wars fought
And won
Only to make us one
A reunion with the Great Central Sun
Don’t miss it
Cause the fun has already begun
No need to wait for the chosen one
We all are
We all have our own star
We all deserve a new car
And sure we can meet at a bar
But until then
The mountains is where I’ll be
Sitting with my family
Under an old tree
Happy just to be me
Look and find where I lay my head
See my natural bed
My dwelling space
My holy place
When I listened
The sound led to the mountains
There were waterfalls there
And holy fountains
There is snow there
And tales that forever need recounting
The best thing when you go up is you get closer
You become a knower
And a Wayshower
To know the mystery and wonder
To understand
The Lord is above
And we are all under
But as above
So below
So climb a mountain
And enjoy the show
Watch the master work
Use all the colors
And never sell merch
They need no reward
Cause they work out of love
They work from their heart
They were there at the beginning
They will witness the end
And then help make it new again
In the mountains you can make new friends
And see your family
See them both as same
Now it is you who are the one
Who starts to change
Transformed in Lord Germaine’s purple flame
The fire of love and light
The one brighter than any night
A flame not used to fight
Rather unite
Where the three of you combine
You, Germaine, and the Divine
Learn to let go of the watch
Release your connection to time
Remember the joy of writing rhymes
Forget the word mine
Cause the mountains are for everyone
Mother, father, daughter, sons
Yes, the new world has begun
All wars fought
And won
Only to make us one
A reunion with the Great Central Sun
Don’t miss it
Cause the fun has already begun
No need to wait for the chosen one
We all are
We all have our own star
We all deserve a new car
And sure we can meet at a bar
But until then
The mountains is where I’ll be
Sitting with my family
Under an old tree
Happy just to be me
Tuesday, July 14, 2015
The City of (brotherly) Love
The first time I traveled south to PA
I was just in college
Just beginning to grow my knowledge
My dad asked me if I wanted to stay
My brother was stationed not too far away
And we could watch college basketball men play
Sure
I’d like to see Philly
Run up the steps like Rocky
See the Liberty Bell
Have a few stories that are good to tell
Toss coins in a wishing well
The same one Ben Franklin threw coins in
The same wishes they’ve always been
Liberty, Freedom, and Brotherly Love
The next time I went to Philly
College was done
Didn’t go with my dad
Went to see another one
One I also loved
Not as a sister or brother
Or father or mother
But passionately
She was my lover
She showed me places that were new to me
Things before I did not see
Opened my heart to love
She was the first to show she was not the only one
Gave all the benefits of loving some one
I visited Philly more than once to see her
The last trip I was sure
We were sharing love
Perhaps I should move
But I felt it was too soon
My list still had many things left unchecked
Feeling this for her I did not fully expect
Ready for a new life
I could not accept
I didn’t move
But I don’t regret
Because we got our own lives
But our heart did not divide
Rather our new lives would synthesis
And synergize
Probably see each other again on the other side
Next to the divine
A love that lasts all time
I had not been to Philly in almost a decade
Thought my story in the city of love
Had already been played
Just long ago forgotten days
But then I met someone
Who reflects only sun rays
She called Philly her home
Although it was not
She had just arrived
Her place of birth on the Atlantic’s other side
And she spoke a language closer to love
Her words hard to understand
But her intentions clear when we joined hands
Not much to say
When someone makes you feel this way
Just the way you are
The way you know you are meant to be
We fell in Love in Philly
Had a date at the ball park
And the cinema
Made love in the light and the dark
Now I keep a piece of her heart
This is a beautiful new start
Love, that is Philly’s best part
Philly was the city of brotherly love
But love has grown and changed
Now in America
Love has been freed
And those who love those of the same sex
Can now sign each other’s checks
The same rights as all is what we expect
It is what we will get
Philly is not just the city of brotherly love anymore
It is the city of sisterly love too
A place where whites love blacks
Where Europeans love Americans
A place where students learn and understand
A place of history
But not a place where love is a mystery
Welcome to Philly
The place to love freely
I was just in college
Just beginning to grow my knowledge
My dad asked me if I wanted to stay
My brother was stationed not too far away
And we could watch college basketball men play
Sure
I’d like to see Philly
Run up the steps like Rocky
See the Liberty Bell
Have a few stories that are good to tell
Toss coins in a wishing well
The same one Ben Franklin threw coins in
The same wishes they’ve always been
Liberty, Freedom, and Brotherly Love
The next time I went to Philly
College was done
Didn’t go with my dad
Went to see another one
One I also loved
Not as a sister or brother
Or father or mother
But passionately
She was my lover
She showed me places that were new to me
Things before I did not see
Opened my heart to love
She was the first to show she was not the only one
Gave all the benefits of loving some one
I visited Philly more than once to see her
The last trip I was sure
We were sharing love
Perhaps I should move
But I felt it was too soon
My list still had many things left unchecked
Feeling this for her I did not fully expect
Ready for a new life
I could not accept
I didn’t move
But I don’t regret
Because we got our own lives
But our heart did not divide
Rather our new lives would synthesis
And synergize
Probably see each other again on the other side
Next to the divine
A love that lasts all time
I had not been to Philly in almost a decade
Thought my story in the city of love
Had already been played
Just long ago forgotten days
But then I met someone
Who reflects only sun rays
She called Philly her home
Although it was not
She had just arrived
Her place of birth on the Atlantic’s other side
And she spoke a language closer to love
Her words hard to understand
But her intentions clear when we joined hands
Not much to say
When someone makes you feel this way
Just the way you are
The way you know you are meant to be
We fell in Love in Philly
Had a date at the ball park
And the cinema
Made love in the light and the dark
Now I keep a piece of her heart
This is a beautiful new start
Love, that is Philly’s best part
Philly was the city of brotherly love
But love has grown and changed
Now in America
Love has been freed
And those who love those of the same sex
Can now sign each other’s checks
The same rights as all is what we expect
It is what we will get
Philly is not just the city of brotherly love anymore
It is the city of sisterly love too
A place where whites love blacks
Where Europeans love Americans
A place where students learn and understand
A place of history
But not a place where love is a mystery
Welcome to Philly
The place to love freely
Sunday, June 28, 2015
Good News Four. Forgiveness
People who go to church on Wednesday
Are holy, good people, clearly
Pious
And faithful
In their quest
To seek eternal peace
Accept grace
Be one with the Lord’s eternal place
Heaven on Earth
Is what has been ordained
And for these nine lives
It came from Jesus’ name
And whether it be Wednesday or Sunday
Everyday was a blessed day
No surprise they welcomed that stranger inside
Asked him to stay and read awhile
But his intentions untrue
His mind made up
He had thought it through
Did the unthinkable
Violated the sanctuary
And destroyed nine temples
For Human life is where the Lord dwells
And these nine
Were living to serve the Divine
So another man claims the power of the Lord
Too much of a coward to use a sword
Or anything civilized
His act more than criticized
Despised
The most wicked behavior
At the church of our mother
The savior
In the court room
Hatred was what he hoped he would see
Anger, frustration
Less compassion
Just more aggression
But instead
There was forgiveness
And sadness
For both their losses
Their loved one
And him
Their poor mislead son
How do you not believe we are all not from the same one
Our souls rest eternally
At the Great Central Sun
For when Angels are assassinated
It is not a time of hell
We will see
Time will tell
But when we start with forgiveness
I would say things are going well
Again the President was asked to speak
He gave the late reverend’s eulogy
And spoke plainly
We’ve got too many guns
And confederate license plates
Too often discriminate
And we’ve got too much hate
But I forgive him
He wanted to sin
Wanted to do evil things
Further divide this country
But he was an actor in the Lord’s orchestra
And the role of devil he would not play
Show them forgiveness
This is what the Lord did say
Open your heart
That is what the President did say
There is good news on this funeral day
Although we don’t deserve it
And we’re all sinners
The Lord’s grace has been delivered
What we do with it is up to us
Open our hearts
This is a must
I forgive you brother
And I see the light in you
But just as you are blind to it in others
You are blind to it in you too
I see a brighter future
Where there are no more eulogies for someone killed by a gun
It is time to live as one
And celebrate each individual one
Peace and harmony throughout the land
Be patient
In time we will all understand
I hope we decide this is the last one
I hope that hatred can be done
Open our hearts
Give and receive love from everyone
Make this country United
The glorious phoenix Liberty risen from the ashes
We all can use more compassion
And it makes us all better
A friend who has an umbrella in bad weather
We can’t change the past
So let’s forgive
And let this tragedy be the last
Open our hearts
The New World is here
Let’s make it start
See each other for what we truly are
Brothers and sisters
From many stars
And far away places
Even though we don’t deserve it
We are all together always in God’s graces
Are holy, good people, clearly
Pious
And faithful
In their quest
To seek eternal peace
Accept grace
Be one with the Lord’s eternal place
Heaven on Earth
Is what has been ordained
And for these nine lives
It came from Jesus’ name
And whether it be Wednesday or Sunday
Everyday was a blessed day
No surprise they welcomed that stranger inside
Asked him to stay and read awhile
But his intentions untrue
His mind made up
He had thought it through
Did the unthinkable
Violated the sanctuary
And destroyed nine temples
For Human life is where the Lord dwells
And these nine
Were living to serve the Divine
So another man claims the power of the Lord
Too much of a coward to use a sword
Or anything civilized
His act more than criticized
Despised
The most wicked behavior
At the church of our mother
The savior
In the court room
Hatred was what he hoped he would see
Anger, frustration
Less compassion
Just more aggression
But instead
There was forgiveness
And sadness
For both their losses
Their loved one
And him
Their poor mislead son
How do you not believe we are all not from the same one
Our souls rest eternally
At the Great Central Sun
For when Angels are assassinated
It is not a time of hell
We will see
Time will tell
But when we start with forgiveness
I would say things are going well
Again the President was asked to speak
He gave the late reverend’s eulogy
And spoke plainly
We’ve got too many guns
And confederate license plates
Too often discriminate
And we’ve got too much hate
But I forgive him
He wanted to sin
Wanted to do evil things
Further divide this country
But he was an actor in the Lord’s orchestra
And the role of devil he would not play
Show them forgiveness
This is what the Lord did say
Open your heart
That is what the President did say
There is good news on this funeral day
Although we don’t deserve it
And we’re all sinners
The Lord’s grace has been delivered
What we do with it is up to us
Open our hearts
This is a must
I forgive you brother
And I see the light in you
But just as you are blind to it in others
You are blind to it in you too
I see a brighter future
Where there are no more eulogies for someone killed by a gun
It is time to live as one
And celebrate each individual one
Peace and harmony throughout the land
Be patient
In time we will all understand
I hope we decide this is the last one
I hope that hatred can be done
Open our hearts
Give and receive love from everyone
Make this country United
The glorious phoenix Liberty risen from the ashes
We all can use more compassion
And it makes us all better
A friend who has an umbrella in bad weather
We can’t change the past
So let’s forgive
And let this tragedy be the last
Open our hearts
The New World is here
Let’s make it start
See each other for what we truly are
Brothers and sisters
From many stars
And far away places
Even though we don’t deserve it
We are all together always in God’s graces
Friday, June 26, 2015
L
So many things to do
So many things to say
So many lives to live in just one day
Why do we want it this way?
Why do we pretend we don’t enjoy play?
Think we should stay busy
Live in a big city
Hustle hustle
Always on the move
Forget to count the phases of the moon
Have no idea if it is high noon
Unless we see a clock
Or always wear a wrist watch
Take one second
Just stop
Appreciate
And celebrate
Your senses
Take it all in and contemplate
Worry less about the date
Whether on the calendar
Or the one planned
In reflection you will understand
Appreciate and trust
In Everything’s plan
In it’s perfect design
Benevolent conception
Love’s inception
Life is to be lived
Experienced
Not just practiced
And repeated
Our ascension unretreated
The guardians
And warriors of light
Have never known defeat
They never will
Everything’s promise will be fulfilled
All will be still
There will be not more ill
No more sickness, hatred, or greed
Only one loving family
Soon we all will see
This is how life should be
Anyway you live
Live peacefully
Believe fully
That all can ben seen
Hatred turned to love
No longer will we live below
We will return to life above
So many things to say
So many lives to live in just one day
Why do we want it this way?
Why do we pretend we don’t enjoy play?
Think we should stay busy
Live in a big city
Hustle hustle
Always on the move
Forget to count the phases of the moon
Have no idea if it is high noon
Unless we see a clock
Or always wear a wrist watch
Take one second
Just stop
Appreciate
And celebrate
Your senses
Take it all in and contemplate
Worry less about the date
Whether on the calendar
Or the one planned
In reflection you will understand
Appreciate and trust
In Everything’s plan
In it’s perfect design
Benevolent conception
Love’s inception
Life is to be lived
Experienced
Not just practiced
And repeated
Our ascension unretreated
The guardians
And warriors of light
Have never known defeat
They never will
Everything’s promise will be fulfilled
All will be still
There will be not more ill
No more sickness, hatred, or greed
Only one loving family
Soon we all will see
This is how life should be
Anyway you live
Live peacefully
Believe fully
That all can ben seen
Hatred turned to love
No longer will we live below
We will return to life above
Constance
It is always there
Always waiting to be discovered
Floating in the air
Delivering blessings
Without guessing
Or even your requesting
It’s definition is in its consistency
And nature unwavering
The most patient thing
She will not run
When all you do is yell
Does not believe you are doomed to hell
She is your inspiration
Your forcefield
Her name
Your religious affiliation
And her truth
Should be all our declarations
However
We don’t always remember
Her name is Constance
She spans the distance
Her body the Universe
Her chariot
Driven by a great white horse
She has other names of course
Love is the easiest to remember
And the one closest to the center
For that is why she is named such
For her love is always there
For everyone to touch
To feel
Please use it to heal
But she can only be served
Not possessed to try and preserve
For love is alive
And needs freedom to thrive
If you lessen her she will not survive
She cannot just stay where you want her
For she is everywhere
At all times
All you need do is yourself remind
She is constant
And therefore always present
If you feel no love
Look around and find a dove
A winged messenger from above
There you find love
In the beauty of their wings
Their design intacted perfectly
Shortly you will feel blissfully
And it will be easy to remember
Love is here
Even when you miss it just a moment
Constance is here waiting
Not for your atonement
Or to correct any wrongs
She is here to play holy songs
The ones you knew all along
She has been singing them
Since the beginning
And she will sing forever
For Love has no ending
Always waiting to be discovered
Floating in the air
Delivering blessings
Without guessing
Or even your requesting
It’s definition is in its consistency
And nature unwavering
The most patient thing
She will not run
When all you do is yell
Does not believe you are doomed to hell
She is your inspiration
Your forcefield
Her name
Your religious affiliation
And her truth
Should be all our declarations
However
We don’t always remember
Her name is Constance
She spans the distance
Her body the Universe
Her chariot
Driven by a great white horse
She has other names of course
Love is the easiest to remember
And the one closest to the center
For that is why she is named such
For her love is always there
For everyone to touch
To feel
Please use it to heal
But she can only be served
Not possessed to try and preserve
For love is alive
And needs freedom to thrive
If you lessen her she will not survive
She cannot just stay where you want her
For she is everywhere
At all times
All you need do is yourself remind
She is constant
And therefore always present
If you feel no love
Look around and find a dove
A winged messenger from above
There you find love
In the beauty of their wings
Their design intacted perfectly
Shortly you will feel blissfully
And it will be easy to remember
Love is here
Even when you miss it just a moment
Constance is here waiting
Not for your atonement
Or to correct any wrongs
She is here to play holy songs
The ones you knew all along
She has been singing them
Since the beginning
And she will sing forever
For Love has no ending
Thursday, June 25, 2015
Solstice
The sun came up early this morning
Just a bit more
Than the day before
And tonight
It will stay light
Just a little longer
Than tomorrow
And then the days get shorter
Soon it will be much colder
But for now
On this solstice day
It is summer’s first day
Time for the sun to shine bright
And lead the way
Leaves of green
And fields of hay
Do whatever you may
I love you is what you should say
Learn all the important lessons through play
Summer is warm
And full of splendor
The best part is not the weather
But rather the wonder
Summer storms of lighting and thunder
Make love with the stars above
and me under
The solstice is the beginning
The equinox the ending
A mid-summer’s dream in between
You and me baby
Forever a team
Invincible together
Stronger and as beautiful as ever
I love you
Always and forever
Please this
Always remember
Whether it be winter or summer time
You are always on my mind
My heart locked to yours for all time
You are as close as I may come to the Divine
In all this time I have realized
No more need for searching
There is nothing left of love for me to find
Just each year
Take one day to remind
What I search for is right in front of me
And you are all I Eva see
Just a bit more
Than the day before
And tonight
It will stay light
Just a little longer
Than tomorrow
And then the days get shorter
Soon it will be much colder
But for now
On this solstice day
It is summer’s first day
Time for the sun to shine bright
And lead the way
Leaves of green
And fields of hay
Do whatever you may
I love you is what you should say
Learn all the important lessons through play
Summer is warm
And full of splendor
The best part is not the weather
But rather the wonder
Summer storms of lighting and thunder
Make love with the stars above
and me under
The solstice is the beginning
The equinox the ending
A mid-summer’s dream in between
You and me baby
Forever a team
Invincible together
Stronger and as beautiful as ever
I love you
Always and forever
Please this
Always remember
Whether it be winter or summer time
You are always on my mind
My heart locked to yours for all time
You are as close as I may come to the Divine
In all this time I have realized
No more need for searching
There is nothing left of love for me to find
Just each year
Take one day to remind
What I search for is right in front of me
And you are all I Eva see
Father
We all have a father
From this world
And one from the first world
They give us the same thing
Help bring us into being
One physically
The other spiritually
Both a bit messy
But completely put together perfectly
There to take away your uncertainty
And teach you plenty
Love eternally
And support infinitely
Your connection to all family
From this star to the next
And all the rest
You may not always see your father as the best
Or grow tired of their test
But remember as a child
It is our job to bless
We teach father as much as
He teaches us
Remind him not to rush
Not to yell
Hush
Just tell us a story grandpa
Tell us how it once was
Tell us about the last sun
And what is like to visit other ones
Tell us about love
More importantly show us this
Be the one to introduce us to bliss
Instruct on the importance of a kiss
And promise to be a fulfiller of our wish
Please father do this
And we will do our part and listen
When you tell
No need to yell
Your servant, scribe, and partner
Has rung this new world’s bell
Release the spell
There are now many coins in the wishing well
Please fulfill
Teach us
We will be patient
We will be still
From this world
And one from the first world
They give us the same thing
Help bring us into being
One physically
The other spiritually
Both a bit messy
But completely put together perfectly
There to take away your uncertainty
And teach you plenty
Love eternally
And support infinitely
Your connection to all family
From this star to the next
And all the rest
You may not always see your father as the best
Or grow tired of their test
But remember as a child
It is our job to bless
We teach father as much as
He teaches us
Remind him not to rush
Not to yell
Hush
Just tell us a story grandpa
Tell us how it once was
Tell us about the last sun
And what is like to visit other ones
Tell us about love
More importantly show us this
Be the one to introduce us to bliss
Instruct on the importance of a kiss
And promise to be a fulfiller of our wish
Please father do this
And we will do our part and listen
When you tell
No need to yell
Your servant, scribe, and partner
Has rung this new world’s bell
Release the spell
There are now many coins in the wishing well
Please fulfill
Teach us
We will be patient
We will be still
Monday, June 22, 2015
M
A slave that could not be tamed
A magi
A sage
A force unexplained
A living example
Of all that is made
No one the same
A history that could not be explained
A Master
The original Jedi
An O.G.
from outer space
Back to chill in this place
A favorite spot
Not too cold
Not too hot
Lots to do
Best thing
Is to fall in love with you
They wrote the book
Carved the stones
And made all the signs
Writes down both truth and lies
Then lets the Lord decide
Whether or not
It is pride
Or love
If your heart is a feather
Or if you could learn to make it better
They call for your chariot ride
And bring you back to life
Or to the other side
To a new place
Where you can better learn grace
On your way there
You will see outer space
Many planets and different stars
Spaceships, Spacetrains, and regular cars
Might take a short stop
At an outer rim bar
See creatures from all over
Didn’t see pictures like this from the Mars Rover
They are our teacher
And loving parent, sibling, aunt
Great Grandparent
Never have been a preacher
So do not wait to see them at the pulpit
Or preaching from the temple steps
Oh how easy we do forget
Of course you know them
You’ve met
And will meet again
Always be together
At beginning and end
And every day in between
Even when unseen
They are always there
Loving
Just as you remember them
A magi
A sage
A force unexplained
A living example
Of all that is made
No one the same
A history that could not be explained
A Master
The original Jedi
An O.G.
from outer space
Back to chill in this place
A favorite spot
Not too cold
Not too hot
Lots to do
Best thing
Is to fall in love with you
They wrote the book
Carved the stones
And made all the signs
Writes down both truth and lies
Then lets the Lord decide
Whether or not
It is pride
Or love
If your heart is a feather
Or if you could learn to make it better
They call for your chariot ride
And bring you back to life
Or to the other side
To a new place
Where you can better learn grace
On your way there
You will see outer space
Many planets and different stars
Spaceships, Spacetrains, and regular cars
Might take a short stop
At an outer rim bar
See creatures from all over
Didn’t see pictures like this from the Mars Rover
They are our teacher
And loving parent, sibling, aunt
Great Grandparent
Never have been a preacher
So do not wait to see them at the pulpit
Or preaching from the temple steps
Oh how easy we do forget
Of course you know them
You’ve met
And will meet again
Always be together
At beginning and end
And every day in between
Even when unseen
They are always there
Loving
Just as you remember them
None Are Mine. They All Are
I can posses nothing
Not a plant
Not a Human Being
I can love them though
Feed
And water them
Make sure they grow
Show them the light in the world
Remind them it is about love
Boy or girl
Dog or cat
This or that
It’s in everything
Missing in nothing
The reason to sing
Even invent such a thing
As a wedding ring
But to wear one
Should not make you a possession
Or enhance your blessing
When without your worth not lessened
If I gave a ring
At this point I would probably need to sell a few things
Get a new job
And lots of stocks
Cause it is going to cost a lot
To get all those rings bought
For now I can’t choose one
And why should I?
When I see them all as a Sun
The eternal engine of the sky
The life giving force
Our heart
Our connection to the source
Some are yellow
Some are blue
Others red
And some green
All colors both seen
And unseen
Just as I cannot posses the stars in the sky
I can posses none of them
Can’t keep them all in my house
Can’t call them all spouse
But as I love and honor the stars
I can love and honor them too
Every night together
And each new day
A beginning
All anew
Not a plant
Not a Human Being
I can love them though
Feed
And water them
Make sure they grow
Show them the light in the world
Remind them it is about love
Boy or girl
Dog or cat
This or that
It’s in everything
Missing in nothing
The reason to sing
Even invent such a thing
As a wedding ring
But to wear one
Should not make you a possession
Or enhance your blessing
When without your worth not lessened
If I gave a ring
At this point I would probably need to sell a few things
Get a new job
And lots of stocks
Cause it is going to cost a lot
To get all those rings bought
For now I can’t choose one
And why should I?
When I see them all as a Sun
The eternal engine of the sky
The life giving force
Our heart
Our connection to the source
Some are yellow
Some are blue
Others red
And some green
All colors both seen
And unseen
Just as I cannot posses the stars in the sky
I can posses none of them
Can’t keep them all in my house
Can’t call them all spouse
But as I love and honor the stars
I can love and honor them too
Every night together
And each new day
A beginning
All anew
Tuesday, June 16, 2015
Back to The Bus Station
I once took a bus back home
I was supposed to get picked up at the station
Didn’t quite make it
Didn’t make my intended destination
Stopped at the station to the south
Just because I opened my mouth
Even though what came out
Was nothing to worry about
Just kind words
Descriptions of places
You thought you had never heard
It was love
That is all
And all is has become
All it is
And all it will ever be
However
People were frightened of me
And I didn’t make it home that night
I admit I started the fight
But not without warning
And I do regret what happened that night
That was a long time ago
And the details
No one needs to know
In the meantime
All I do is grow
Gotta go to the station later today
Meet a beautiful lady
Mi carino
A girl who calls me her beau
We are just getting to know
But each day our love does grow
The world seems brighter
The sunshine a little lighter
My heart a little more calm
Her hand
In my palm
Had I not made it to this bus station long ago
A lot I would not have known
And if I was not waiting at that bus stop a short time ago
Her
I would not know
And today my heart would not glow
And my love would not clearly show
No longer just kisses to blow
But tonight
We can touch lips
I can reintroduce myself to your hips
Wine to sip
Anything you wish
This I definitely do not want to miss
All you need bring is yourself
Because
You R the perfect gift
I was supposed to get picked up at the station
Didn’t quite make it
Didn’t make my intended destination
Stopped at the station to the south
Just because I opened my mouth
Even though what came out
Was nothing to worry about
Just kind words
Descriptions of places
You thought you had never heard
It was love
That is all
And all is has become
All it is
And all it will ever be
However
People were frightened of me
And I didn’t make it home that night
I admit I started the fight
But not without warning
And I do regret what happened that night
That was a long time ago
And the details
No one needs to know
In the meantime
All I do is grow
Gotta go to the station later today
Meet a beautiful lady
Mi carino
A girl who calls me her beau
We are just getting to know
But each day our love does grow
The world seems brighter
The sunshine a little lighter
My heart a little more calm
Her hand
In my palm
Had I not made it to this bus station long ago
A lot I would not have known
And if I was not waiting at that bus stop a short time ago
Her
I would not know
And today my heart would not glow
And my love would not clearly show
No longer just kisses to blow
But tonight
We can touch lips
I can reintroduce myself to your hips
Wine to sip
Anything you wish
This I definitely do not want to miss
All you need bring is yourself
Because
You R the perfect gift
A
Why do I see old movies on TV
We saw on the big screen?
Why did you walk out of my dream
And into real life?
Why did we meet again?
Thrice
Silly questions
When the answer and the feeling is the same
Every other girl seems lame
So boring
And so the same
Love
Do I really need to explain?
How is that a mystery?
The only truth
Before all history
The beginning
And end
Of all things
The living force of beings
And all the unseen
The wizard
Behind the scenes
Is loves servant
Not the devil as a serpent
All magic
Born of Divine touch
A love that is never too much
But infinite
And everlasting
All consuming
The force behind flowers blooming
The orchestra that needs no tuning
Perfect
Love is always correct
And not only found when we intersect
It is found where ever we look
In every face
In every place
In every moment of grace
Even when it is dark
You can find love’s light
Even in the most violent fight
There is love
As wrong as it is right
Love is what powers a Jedi Knight
And they are the most gallant warriors
Guardians of peace and justice
Ascensioned and faith entrusted
Love is not only diamond incrusted
Not just three words
Love is wild and crazy
Sometimes very absurd
But whether it finds you young
Whether or not it stung
Whether it finds you on campus
Or a delivery room
At a bus stop
Or making love under a full moon
Love will find you
Just as soon
As you know where to look
In the sky
Or in the brook
Love is everywhere
And we all care
We saw on the big screen?
Why did you walk out of my dream
And into real life?
Why did we meet again?
Thrice
Silly questions
When the answer and the feeling is the same
Every other girl seems lame
So boring
And so the same
Love
Do I really need to explain?
How is that a mystery?
The only truth
Before all history
The beginning
And end
Of all things
The living force of beings
And all the unseen
The wizard
Behind the scenes
Is loves servant
Not the devil as a serpent
All magic
Born of Divine touch
A love that is never too much
But infinite
And everlasting
All consuming
The force behind flowers blooming
The orchestra that needs no tuning
Perfect
Love is always correct
And not only found when we intersect
It is found where ever we look
In every face
In every place
In every moment of grace
Even when it is dark
You can find love’s light
Even in the most violent fight
There is love
As wrong as it is right
Love is what powers a Jedi Knight
And they are the most gallant warriors
Guardians of peace and justice
Ascensioned and faith entrusted
Love is not only diamond incrusted
Not just three words
Love is wild and crazy
Sometimes very absurd
But whether it finds you young
Whether or not it stung
Whether it finds you on campus
Or a delivery room
At a bus stop
Or making love under a full moon
Love will find you
Just as soon
As you know where to look
In the sky
Or in the brook
Love is everywhere
And we all care
Sunday, June 14, 2015
Have You Loved? How do You Know?
Have you loved?
How do you know?
Was it cause they told you so?
Or something else?
Something you felt
That made the words come out
Many thoughts in your mind other than doubt
Here is something of love I can tell you about
There is no test
No magic checklist
No way anyone other than you
Can know
Love is something we feel within
And any form it takes
It is never a sin
It is personal
And special
But universal
And everywhere
In all things
Especially human beings
Helps us become the Divine Machine we are meant to be
Radiant
Beautiful
Luminous Beings
Designed to experience everything
Life
Death
The cosmos and infinity
Seldom
Love is not seen
So why disbelieve?
That love is not the gift of Lord Everything
How do you know
If you have never seen Hermes show?
If you thought love was in the list
And the extra
The bliss
If you think this way
What you will miss
For love is the gift
And you know
That same as everything else
That is certain
It is constant
And always present
For us it is meant
Just as you know the sun will rise
You know Love when you feel it inside
When you look in her eyes
And your heart you cannot disguise
And in an instant
All is realized
Why be surprised?
This is what is meant for us
This is what heaven sent for us
Your own self
Please do trust
Only you can know
When love opens your heart
Only you know all your parts
And when they are all in their right place
With love
Have not only a taste
Do not hesitate
Participate
Open your heart
And let it find its missing parts
Love them when they come back
Right at the start
The more you love
The more you know
The more the peace inside you grows
The world becomes more beautiful
But all I can do is tell
For you have your own wish for the wishing well
Go find the answer
When you do you find love
You find eternity
You fly and sing with the Angels above
How do you know?
Was it cause they told you so?
Or something else?
Something you felt
That made the words come out
Many thoughts in your mind other than doubt
Here is something of love I can tell you about
There is no test
No magic checklist
No way anyone other than you
Can know
Love is something we feel within
And any form it takes
It is never a sin
It is personal
And special
But universal
And everywhere
In all things
Especially human beings
Helps us become the Divine Machine we are meant to be
Radiant
Beautiful
Luminous Beings
Designed to experience everything
Life
Death
The cosmos and infinity
Seldom
Love is not seen
So why disbelieve?
That love is not the gift of Lord Everything
How do you know
If you have never seen Hermes show?
If you thought love was in the list
And the extra
The bliss
If you think this way
What you will miss
For love is the gift
And you know
That same as everything else
That is certain
It is constant
And always present
For us it is meant
Just as you know the sun will rise
You know Love when you feel it inside
When you look in her eyes
And your heart you cannot disguise
And in an instant
All is realized
Why be surprised?
This is what is meant for us
This is what heaven sent for us
Your own self
Please do trust
Only you can know
When love opens your heart
Only you know all your parts
And when they are all in their right place
With love
Have not only a taste
Do not hesitate
Participate
Open your heart
And let it find its missing parts
Love them when they come back
Right at the start
The more you love
The more you know
The more the peace inside you grows
The world becomes more beautiful
But all I can do is tell
For you have your own wish for the wishing well
Go find the answer
When you do you find love
You find eternity
You fly and sing with the Angels above
Tuesday, June 2, 2015
Not Home Yet
Even though you arrived home
It seemed lonely
And similar to the road
This is not the place you know as home
But this is where you stay
Those you love
Far away
And your new friends
Away till next fall
When you see my picture on your wall
I hope it makes you smile
Makes your place feel like home
At least for a little while
Home is not just the place you are from
Where your parents live
Or where you are called a grandson
Home is also a feeling
I feel it when I’m with you
Even though our love is brand new
Maybe that is how I knew?
The first time I saw you
I believed my feelings true
Radiating in your coat of blue
I know you miss your home
And I miss mine too
Even though I am in the same place
Things seemingly out of place
Not the way I remember
Still the same colors
Each November
The same cold rain
All the familiar names
All the streets I know
All the trees I remember did grow
So how do I not know?
Why am I not home yet?
Yes, we met
And my heart is set
I placed my bet
And watched the wheel spin
And where it stopped
I swore it was I who was the one to win
I guess it is cause it is still just me here
Now a little more near
But I know this
And it is crystal clear
This cannot be home without you
You make any place a home
That much I know is true
Even this place I forever remember
Is just the place I stay now
When you get back
If you ever do
I will call this place home again
Because I will be with you
It seemed lonely
And similar to the road
This is not the place you know as home
But this is where you stay
Those you love
Far away
And your new friends
Away till next fall
When you see my picture on your wall
I hope it makes you smile
Makes your place feel like home
At least for a little while
Home is not just the place you are from
Where your parents live
Or where you are called a grandson
Home is also a feeling
I feel it when I’m with you
Even though our love is brand new
Maybe that is how I knew?
The first time I saw you
I believed my feelings true
Radiating in your coat of blue
I know you miss your home
And I miss mine too
Even though I am in the same place
Things seemingly out of place
Not the way I remember
Still the same colors
Each November
The same cold rain
All the familiar names
All the streets I know
All the trees I remember did grow
So how do I not know?
Why am I not home yet?
Yes, we met
And my heart is set
I placed my bet
And watched the wheel spin
And where it stopped
I swore it was I who was the one to win
I guess it is cause it is still just me here
Now a little more near
But I know this
And it is crystal clear
This cannot be home without you
You make any place a home
That much I know is true
Even this place I forever remember
Is just the place I stay now
When you get back
If you ever do
I will call this place home again
Because I will be with you