Ten Years Gone by

I started to learn not to look back
When we said goodbye
When we were kissing and there were tears in our eyes
When all the kids at her new school saw both of us cry
I had set up her dorm room
And met all her family the week before
Then her mom drove me back home
For the next week I was headed to my new Rome
To build a new throne
But before I left
I put a piece of both of us in a place it would never leave
A golden frame around the two of us
Arm in arm
Not in lust
Definitely in love
Definitely both of us had been touched
I looked one last time
Said I love you 4 Eva
Then said goodbye
And although we were still dating on our first day
I knew our future together was uncertain
And perhaps soon we would draw the curtain
When we did
I did my best to move on
I wanted to know in my heart it was not wrong
So I did my best to love
Knowing my picture was safe in a box
Knowing our hearts were in a lock
So I went forward
Was not a coward
Lead the team
And not the class
Was more focused on getting ass
Then I was getting A’s
Simply glad with passing grades

When school ended
I closed another chapter
And another book
Glanced back
With just one loving look
Started at home
Before again I did roam
And again searched out a new throne
But before I did
There was this incident
It was not pretty
It happened outside my own city
I gained some scars
But luckily did not do anytime behind bars
Even though the state had it in for me
My future they saw as empty
And me the opposite of infinity
But I beat the case
And bought myself a fish filet
Decided I would pack up my things and spend some time away
Every once in awhile I would have a bad day
And end up in the worst place in the hospital
They always say the same thing
I’m a drug addict
And need new friends
And they always desire me to have the same end
Going nowhere
My voice silenced
My body confined to a cell
And empty hollow shell
No longer say I am doing well
No longer dream of climbing the mountain to ring the holy bell

Here I am again trying to live in the present
Love a new woman
Feel Divine presence
But I am stuck in the same place
Facing the same questions and acquisitions
They keep preaching the same lesson
Even though that is in the past for me
10 years ago in fact
But they still have a problem I am black
And I am really tired of that
I am going forward
Because I am not scared
And I know what the future looks like
Cause I’ve been there
I’ll be riding my white mare
And my darling carino
Will be waiting there