In Jest

No need to make any other calls
Cause you’re already the one
But I pretend I never won
Always second place
Never anyones ace
But I do love
That is true
I just blow it with the things I do
Stuck on being who I was
So I can’t expect your hugs
Because who I am
Is actually a man
Unafraid of what to do
What to say
Or just waste all my time wondering
Who
When it’s you
Standing right in front of me
Someone who waits patiently
And gives of themselves
Cause it’s free
Who knows what we can be
But we will always be nothing
If I won’t be me
In jest
I decline protest
But I really want you laid on my chest
Naked
So I can feel your breasts
Instead I make you guess
Seem as if it is just conquest
My feelings
Regret
Because the dishonesty
Because I lie to you
And me
And then
You flee
And why shouldn’t thee
For no sense in faking
And only enjoy the love we’re making
When we could have it all
Each others dates to the New World’s ball