All in All

All in all
Things are fine
Going well really
I am living happily
I guess though I feel lonely
Like no one here really knows me
And though I did have that epiphany
I still can’t say it clearly
Or in a way that anyone can hear me
I remember it throughly
The details
And the scenery
I am just not so sure that is why I see things differently
All my wonderings based here in reality
I’m all set when it comes to fantasy
Been there plenty
I know the difference between now and eternity
Yet people just seem to laugh at me
Not only when I say things jokingly
But when they look at me
Poke fun of my dress mockingly
Not just about me
It’s about all of us
And thee
Why go to hatred so easily
When pain is all it brings clearly
Why do we only see what is different
And can’t see almost everything is the same?
To do so
All we do is change
Remake our heart
So that love is our guide
We will thrive
Not merely survive
Through this corporate slavery
Just living day to day
Every two weeks
We get pay
And 1.5 vacation days
No
This is not the only way
And I wonder why
It seems so hard to see
This world
The Lord did not give
It is the world we made
By choosing to forget our heavenly ways
By denying our truth
By only seeing dollar signs
By not remembering we are better when we combine
We could live any other way
To start
Love is the only word to say

Lessons in Love

Will there come a day?
Hopefully not much after today
When I hear you say
You’re sorry you went away
It probably would of been better
If you stayed
Then at least I would not feel this way
I would have the honor to hold you again
We could make amends
Feel serenity begin
Our lives
I want them to blend
Our daughter could have both our names
One at the beginning
One at the end
In the middle
Something new
Just between us two
That is what I miss the most
Me
And you as the host
Our voices together
Making each song we play better
I wish I could say whatever
And be glad you’re gone
Cause like you said
You moved on
Well I got twenty new girlfriends now
So there
I rather have your vow
Cause I know you loved me
Even if you didn’t want me to
See
And I blew it
Believe me
But there is no reason for us
Both to live in misery
Baby
Now I got everything
It’s just you that’s missing
Remember us kissing?
Now I am just left wishing
Trying to undo a past
Wanting to laugh
But I see your name and gasp
Oh why God did it not last
Why would I feel this way
If it would only lead to dismay
How could I know
If towards your heart I did not go
I guess that’s life though
We can’t have all we want
Even if it was ours
We thought
It is true
The best thing in life are never bought
And I guess
You were just another lesson in love taught
Although I feel like I’ve failed
I know in the end
Love will always prevail

In Jest

No need to make any other calls
Cause you’re already the one
But I pretend I never won
Always second place
Never anyones ace
But I do love
That is true
I just blow it with the things I do
Stuck on being who I was
So I can’t expect your hugs
Because who I am
Is actually a man
Unafraid of what to do
What to say
Or just waste all my time wondering
Who
When it’s you
Standing right in front of me
Someone who waits patiently
And gives of themselves
Cause it’s free
Who knows what we can be
But we will always be nothing
If I won’t be me
In jest
I decline protest
But I really want you laid on my chest
Naked
So I can feel your breasts
Instead I make you guess
Seem as if it is just conquest
My feelings
Regret
Because the dishonesty
Because I lie to you
And me
And then
You flee
And why shouldn’t thee
For no sense in faking
And only enjoy the love we’re making
When we could have it all
Each others dates to the New World’s ball