I Met That Guy Once

You’re great
Aw
Thanks
Wanna go on a date?
Not really
No thanks
Actually rather swim in shark tanks
When I said you’re great
I meant
You remind me of a place I once went
No
I didn’t like the letter you sent
And I just like to look at you
You make me laugh
And I like that you do
Well I guess I am not
What I think I am
I guess I am damned
Cursed
Everyone’s favorite
But still the very worst
Good enough to look at
Funny enough to laugh at
Great to do your work
But now
Feel like dirt
Walked all over
And totally mistreated
Why am I always defeated?
I guess it is true
We reap what we sow
And get what we deserve
I just wish I could remember
I could know
What I did that was so wrong?
Why my life is not in reverse
Nor in forward
Just stuck in park
And standing still
At least pretty soon I’ll die from these pills
That will be that
Time here on Earth past
Please Lord grant me my pass back
There I knew me
There my heart was free
Not frozen
And broken perpetually
On Earth I cannot even live simply
3 days away from my bank account being empty
No one around who really knows me
The silence on the other line
Deafening
This sucks
And I hate loosing
One day perhaps
I may feel my life is of my choosing