Grace

I missed again
Wrote what I felt
But I guess I should not of pressed send
It was indeed the end
Can I learn grace?
Can I stop tears from streaming down my face?
Just funny I guess
Cause I thought I knew my heart space
Now I feel time spent
Might have been a waste
Although 
I did always feel great
No one always gets what they want
Even me
I guess it was just make believe
Cause in reality
I can’t seem to get it right
Try as I might
I just seem to suck at this life
Can’t keep a girlfriend
Forget a wife
Can’t get a good job
Or stay healthy
I definitely will never be wealthy
Got collectors calling constantly
It doesn’t really bother me
But it helps me see
This world is not for me
So please let me escape gracefully
And peacefully
If you come for me
I will probably scream and shout
But if I can learn grace
Maybe I can find out what this world is about
Cause right now I cannot figure it out
Feel lost without a map
Stuck in a horrible trap
Waiting for something
Anything
To take me away
Anything
Other then this sky of grey