A New Beginning

From time to time
I have this wish
But then it goes away
Because what I wish
The thing I dream
Is to no longer think of us again
Just permanently call you my ex-girlfriend
But then again
I don’t really want that
Because when I see something I like in someone new
It is just a part of you
Something that you do
Maybe that’s the deal with love?
And since I learned it from you
Shouldn’t it be you
The one who
Makes me believe it is true with this one new?
Or that other one?
I don’t want you as my ex cause your more than that
You took me there
And you bring me back
So when I think of us together again
I don’t want it to go away
And I don’t want to pretend
That if you called tonight
On my phone
It would be quite a sight
My heart would beat
And feel delight
What would you say?
Hopefully more than goodbye and goodnight
Or
I want you out of my life
I hope sometimes you feel as confused as I
Shouldn’t feelings like this die?
Others have
So why have these feelings survived?
Why is it almost twenty years since I last felt alive?
I’d like to think I am wrapped up in Hallmark fantasy
But I’ve been to a land a lot wilder than Disney
More alive, a lot more connected to infinity
Fully controlled by Lord Everything
The land ruled by Divinity
And here in that world was you
In a way I knew
There
Here
And everywhere
The sparkle in your eyes
The door to your soul that wears no disguise
Please let me back inside
We’ve done our best learning to divide
But I am ready to relearn to multiple
Back at the head of our family tree
On the right her, and on the left me
All of our children we welcome and see
I forgive you
So please forgive me
I’m sorry baby, for everything
To make it up to you I’ll do anything
How about to start
A new beginning?