Charge

Charge up your body
Charge up your mind
You need them both
They work together
A perfect system
Your heart beats your mind listens
Your brain talks, your heart says different

You can’t rely on just one
When you do,
oh the the things that get done
Your heart leads you to a beauty
She’s stunning, hot, and surprisingly quite funny
There’s love in her eyes
But not for you
Just one part
The one she wants to use
She never liked to hear you talk
Said it was stupid when you asked to go for a walk
Just smiled at you
Said you were hot
You thought that was right
You said: “oh yeah, let’s play”
It went on too long
One day you got home
She was gone
It was a relief
It was incomplete
Not all of you
Not all of her

What we want is hard to find
People often don’t wait
Don’t take the time
To know themselves
Don’t sharpen all the tools
The body
The mind
Working together, combined
So, charge up your body
Charge up your mind
Add soul
All powers trine
Then you’ll glow, gleam, and shine

I Want to Learn

I want to learn
I want to know
Please teach me
Please help me grow
I see lots of things
And have many questions
Please help me
Guide me, show me, teach me

I got big plans
I can see my future
But I can’t make it alone
I need help
I need to learn
Need to grow
I won’t get where I want knowing only what I know
I know there is so much more
I want the key to the door
I know that key is in my mind
Just help me find it
I’m ready to climb

Up
Up
Up
Always climbing upward
We reach closer
But will never arrive
There is no ending
I know this, but it doesn’t change the way I feel
I want to thrive
So, please teach me
Please help me grow
I want to learn
I want to know

I Never Knew you Jessica

Jessica, I never knew you
Doesn’t mean I never loved you
Jessica, it’s not fair we no longer get to see you this way
Wasn’t fair you happened to be at the movies that day
I wish James knew that people loved him too
I do
I was not here in my Denver home the day I heard the news
I was in the kitchen on the ranch, wearing new shoes
People shot and killed in Colorado last night
A horrific scene, people aghast
I saw this before
Same town in fact
Now I live here too, my town - D-town
How could this happen again?
Why do we have to lose friends?
Why do we come to these ends?
James I want you to know I’m your friend
I know you’re hurt in ways you cannot understand
Crazy? Maybe
But, not likely, probably just hurt
Cause no one said: “Hi”, or “I love you baby”
Isn’t that obvious
We create these worlds, and here’s the consequence
No more views like this of Jessica
Her love no longer shown to us
We have to feel it
It has always been there
Eternal Light, crystal clear
Jessica I’m not sad
I was mad
I got over that, now I’m just glad
Because I got the chance to know you were here
You helped make it clear
Towards love is how we must steer
We’re in this together
We will be joined forever
It is the beginning not the end
James you are my friend

The Top of the Stairs

I am waiting for you at the top of the stairs
Waiting at the closed cellar door
I thought this could be
Where we could meet
Once we talked, you seemed complete
Not in need of doing more learning
Just ready for sharing
That’s where I’m at too
The place of deep caring
For people and the world
The way I see it in you
Through the eyes of a girl
Must we pretend?
Still go through all those silly steps
Get a Scantron, take a test
Thought we didn’t need any of that
Felt we only needed an instant
The moment our eyes met
I got the message
It was time for my heart to listen
So I came here to the top of the stairs
Of course the door is closed
Has anyone ever been down there?
I have my key with me
Not for your door
For mine
Let’s go there too
Let’s do it at the same time
I know it looks dark
And perhaps it is scary
I know it is not
Because I saw it when I met you
When you smiled it came right through
It was your heart
Beautiful and true
That is why you can’t fool me
Why I am not giving up
Why I am waiting at the top of the stairs
Waiting for you to take me down there
Right into your heart, that’s where I belong
Because I want you in mine
Open that cellar door
Let’s let our hearts shine

2012 Finals

I’m KD
She’s Lebron
Takes me off my game
Way too strong
Can’t get my shot
Can’t drive the lane
Doesn’t matter that I’m hot
I’m not insane
Not even interested about competing
Looking forward to the Olympics
When we are on the same team
Cause then: KD makes a dunk
Lebron Says: “sick”

If my Heart is Broken

If my heart is broken
And my eyes are closed
It is impossible to have my mind open

I know this is not what I want
I know this is not what the world needs
But right now it is how I feel
Can’t get my mind off of it, it is the deal

How do I connect with someone who doesn’t understand what I say
Even though we speak the same language
Stand in the same places
Look the same, both have pretty faces

When I see, when I open my eyes
I see right through you
And feel hurt inside
Not from what’s in you
But what’s in me
It’s my hurt, it’s my pain
That I see in you
Makes me feel like I need to change

The change is simple:
Have known for years now
Starts at the beginning
Starts with my heart
It must be open
It must be true
There are things that I cannot undo
Can’t change the past
Can’t change that certain things didn’t last

I can change how I feel about it
Choose to live in love
Never doubt it

I try, I’ve tried
And each time I do I feel denied
Not just cause she said no
But cause of the consequence
Frequent meetings
Prescription drugs, an escaped sentence

They have me shackled
Chained up like a menace
Feared and ridiculed
Laughed at
Called a fool
My only problem, my deficit:
I feel love
I know it’s pure divine power
I want to scream it out loud and hand everyone flowers

I can’t say this without a raised eyebrow
Without assumptions, judgements, and speculations
Please wait for the doctor here’s your prescription

How can I not be this?
This is who I am
Why must I have to try so hard
Just for you to understand

I try to be open, but just keep getting hurt
The problem is, without openness,
The hurt is worse
Loneliness, sadness, and emptiness

I can’t feel love
Cause then I’m crazy,
But if I don’t feel love I am not me
Just a shell, broken, hurt, lonely and empty

Why is this what they want me to be?
Please Lord set me free
Bring me back to your dwelling
I remember the last time, 
But need some more telling
Instructions that are crystal clear
Bring Earth a bit more near
Closer to you and your simple instructions:
Love without restrictions
For all, in all directions
Basic formula:
Open heart
Open eyes
Open Mind

I would like for my heart to shine