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Thought I had become an adult
Learned the lessons
Seen it all
Ready for my new life sessions
But I was wrong
My new life
Not yet begun
Still three steps left
Still have not arrived yet
Then Ascension will be set
A triangle of equal sides
Then another
Together they combine
And then divide
Been on both
The light and dark sides
No matter what always try
And when you say goodbye
Know that hello is just around the bend
Always a beginning
Always an end
Now, no time to pretend
Conscious life now begin
Love thyself love thy friends
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On this day
At the pinnacle
Bathed in golden rays
In awe of the spectacle
In wonder of the sensation
Not in need of explanation
For it is Divine satisfaction
Christened on this day
Enlightened
And expanded on this day
Now my experience in learning is complete
My task not to repeat
But start anew
With these glorious new views
Thoughts of you
Plenty of others too
And a desire to be true
To me
So I can be
The best version of me
The one that’s
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Let's be Friends

Let’s be friends
Cause you make me laugh
My feelings for you always last
Let’s be friends
Let’s see each other at our best
And know when it’s our worst
My life you do bless
This I do not have to guess
When I wrong I ask forgiveness
Let’s be friends
Cause you’re beautiful
And we look good as two
Your wit is sensational
Your smarts are unbelievable
And your smile
Radiant
Not just shades of grey
All colors gradient
I am going to make you a special pendant
Let’s be friends
Let’s go out on dates
Let’s paint the town
Make people wonder, what’s wrong
Cause we’re not around
Let’s be friends
Let’s go to ball games
And eat S’mores by campfire flames
No need to explain
Usually we just feel the same
Laugh
And make jokes
Listen to each other tell of their path
Together we could teach a class
Make sure all the students pass
So yeah
Let’s be friends
Cause we are good at what we are
A dynamic duo at the bar
Someone to count on
A friend to be there
People who care
We always love to share
A friend to spend time with
The only thing that we miss...
Is not a trip to the store thrift
Something that does not shift
Is a great and wonderful myth
One that ends when it is meant to
Until then
I love what you do
And I love you
So it end’s
Let’s be friends

A Walk

Can we talk?
Can we walk?
Smoke a cigarette
As we stroll around the block
Say all you want
Please don’t stop
I am just glad you invited me
Cause you
Well I like what I see
And when I am around you
It is pretty easy to be
I can say whatever
It could be true
Or total make believe
But I doubt you’ll leave
Cause you invited me here
And asked me to hear
All your dreams and fantasies
And practical things
What’s up with you and me
And where will we be next year
No longer here
No longer together
With the same school colors
We will be somewhere else
Living with others
Off in the world
Underneath the great wave’s curl
Even though we are both leaving
No need for grieving
Cause when we were here
And together
There was nothing better
I wish you well
Where ever it is you go to dwell
Whomever of this you do tell
Even after our final farewell
I will keep this moment
This time
As both yours and mine
A special thing
A unique encounter
A bond
That will always live on
Because I will make it so
I will be forever glad to know
For I can always recall our time
Walking beneath the street lamps glow
And trees all in a row
Anytime we are both back in town
I hope I can call you and ask
Want to take a walk around
It can be that time again
Talk as friends
Walk as partners
See each other as lovers
Nostalgia be the lens of how we see one another
May it be this way
And not an other

Grace

I missed again
Wrote what I felt
But I guess I should not of pressed send
It was indeed the end
Can I learn grace?
Can I stop tears from streaming down my face?
Just funny I guess
Cause I thought I knew my heart space
Now I feel time spent
Might have been a waste
Although 
I did always feel great
No one always gets what they want
Even me
I guess it was just make believe
Cause in reality
I can’t seem to get it right
Try as I might
I just seem to suck at this life
Can’t keep a girlfriend
Forget a wife
Can’t get a good job
Or stay healthy
I definitely will never be wealthy
Got collectors calling constantly
It doesn’t really bother me
But it helps me see
This world is not for me
So please let me escape gracefully
And peacefully
If you come for me
I will probably scream and shout
But if I can learn grace
Maybe I can find out what this world is about
Cause right now I cannot figure it out
Feel lost without a map
Stuck in a horrible trap
Waiting for something
Anything
To take me away
Anything
Other then this sky of grey

My Old Friend

I just saw you again
My dear old friend
We spent some time together
I wished it would never end
Oh I have missed you my friend
It was dark
And the air was cool
There were many kids from school
And with each turn I left my mark
Showed you how much I loved you
And I miss when we can’t be together
When it is not the right weather
But each time we meet again
My old friend
It gets better
May we always have a chance to be together
I will love you forever
And that is something you can bet on
And count on
Because you set me free
Make me see
And fully believe all
In the beauty of life
And the beauty of living
Flying down the slopes I start singing
Even chairlift rides are nice
When I am looking at your cold beautiful ice
Each run a new surprise
New adventures at every turn
For you it is easy to yearn
You do so much for me
So please what can I do for thee
My old friend
I will be still and listen
And return all I have been given
I will tell all who ask
You are divine
Forever will you last
For not just a mountain
Or all of your snowflakes
A part of eternity
Do not mistake
And everlasting
Although the moment passing
Your feeling lives forever in memory
Your face always a sense of pleasantry
See you each winter solstice happily
Say goodbye in spring sadly
But my love for you stays the same
Infinity
As the seasons change
Our love just turns a new page
We start a new age
And you and me
My old friend
Our love starts anew again

2+0+1+6=9

Again the calendar changes
Our lives start a new set of stages
Directed by the highest group of mages
This year
Truthfulness is my wish
Not to lie to others
Not to lie to myself
Not to just focus on wealth
Promise to live in better health
I ask myself
What I want to be in the new year
And I wish I could be clear
Perhaps I am
Because I cannot deny what I feel
When you are near
My heart races
And I keep taking mental pictures of your pretty faces
Maybe this year
We can go to some new places
Find some fresh wood
To burn in our hearts fireplaces
It has been more than a few days since we met
How I treated you may you forget
Or at least be honest too
Perhaps you feel the same
As I do to you
In this new year
A new chance
Started like last year
With a dance
And now I have words stuck in my mouth
Just writing them to myself on the couch
How can we honor each other?
Not just me and you
But for all others
How can we make this year the best?
There will not be a test
Starts by listening to the beating in my chest
Understand its beat
Listen to its message
Let it be my guide
And allow it to be the one to decide
Should you be the one by my side?
And I be the one next to you?
Is this the year I can see us through?
Honor and stay true to you?
First
I must remember how to woo

Jealously

I saw another one of your movies just last night
Thought it was perfect for the season
Just right
Then when I slept
Of you I dreamt
Not much of a surprise
Can’t remember enough to summarize
Just you
And your name in flashing lights
An indication of my plight
My jealously now in plain sight
Not because you are someone else’s wife
No
I am jealous of your life
I heard you say you would do this once before
Become what you are
Soon perhaps your name will be in a star
On Hollywood Boulevard
And I’ll probably still be driving my mom’s car
Still going to the same bars
Saying next year will be the year
Maybe I’ll be this
Or I am looking into that
Still unsure
Still caught looking back
I wish I could be like you
That is jealously too
Because you’ve got it all together
You live where there is beautiful weather
And a beautiful man
And I am still wanting to understand
How am I part of the Lord’s plan
How can I be all I am?
And how can I be part of the world
Just not one who feels damned
Cursed
For my journey lately has seemed on Earth
There was a time
When I took pleasure in every day
And within myself I was happy to stay
Perhaps it changed when I went to work for pay
Maybe when you and I parted ways
The one thing I know I can say
Is I am jealous of you
Because of who you are
And what you do
Because you’ve gone forward
Keep traveling upward and onward
And I feel like I’ve only been going downward
Too many visits to the psych ward
Too many days at my desk feeling bored
So much art work
Most of it just stored
Never even came close to an award
Instead of feeling jealous
Why not be inspired?
Why not also desire to be admired?
To see my name in print too
In the credits
So all can know what I do
Maybe then I’ll stop feeling so jealous of you
Maybe then
I’ll be in charge of my life again
And maybe then
We can become friends again