A Walk

Can we talk?
Can we walk?
Smoke a cigarette
As we stroll around the block
Say all you want
Please don’t stop
I am just glad you invited me
Cause you
Well I like what I see
And when I am around you
It is pretty easy to be
I can say whatever
It could be true
Or total make believe
But I doubt you’ll leave
Cause you invited me here
And asked me to hear
All your dreams and fantasies
And practical things
What’s up with you and me
And where will we be next year
No longer here
No longer together
With the same school colors
We will be somewhere else
Living with others
Off in the world
Underneath the great wave’s curl
Even though we are both leaving
No need for grieving
Cause when we were here
And together
There was nothing better
I wish you well
Where ever it is you go to dwell
Whomever of this you do tell
Even after our final farewell
I will keep this moment
This time
As both yours and mine
A special thing
A unique encounter
A bond
That will always live on
Because I will make it so
I will be forever glad to know
For I can always recall our time
Walking beneath the street lamps glow
And trees all in a row
Anytime we are both back in town
I hope I can call you and ask
Want to take a walk around
It can be that time again
Talk as friends
Walk as partners
See each other as lovers
Nostalgia be the lens of how we see one another
May it be this way
And not an other

Grace

I missed again
Wrote what I felt
But I guess I should not of pressed send
It was indeed the end
Can I learn grace?
Can I stop tears from streaming down my face?
Just funny I guess
Cause I thought I knew my heart space
Now I feel time spent
Might have been a waste
Although 
I did always feel great
No one always gets what they want
Even me
I guess it was just make believe
Cause in reality
I can’t seem to get it right
Try as I might
I just seem to suck at this life
Can’t keep a girlfriend
Forget a wife
Can’t get a good job
Or stay healthy
I definitely will never be wealthy
Got collectors calling constantly
It doesn’t really bother me
But it helps me see
This world is not for me
So please let me escape gracefully
And peacefully
If you come for me
I will probably scream and shout
But if I can learn grace
Maybe I can find out what this world is about
Cause right now I cannot figure it out
Feel lost without a map
Stuck in a horrible trap
Waiting for something
Anything
To take me away
Anything
Other then this sky of grey

My Old Friend

I just saw you again
My dear old friend
We spent some time together
I wished it would never end
Oh I have missed you my friend
It was dark
And the air was cool
There were many kids from school
And with each turn I left my mark
Showed you how much I loved you
And I miss when we can’t be together
When it is not the right weather
But each time we meet again
My old friend
It gets better
May we always have a chance to be together
I will love you forever
And that is something you can bet on
And count on
Because you set me free
Make me see
And fully believe all
In the beauty of life
And the beauty of living
Flying down the slopes I start singing
Even chairlift rides are nice
When I am looking at your cold beautiful ice
Each run a new surprise
New adventures at every turn
For you it is easy to yearn
You do so much for me
So please what can I do for thee
My old friend
I will be still and listen
And return all I have been given
I will tell all who ask
You are divine
Forever will you last
For not just a mountain
Or all of your snowflakes
A part of eternity
Do not mistake
And everlasting
Although the moment passing
Your feeling lives forever in memory
Your face always a sense of pleasantry
See you each winter solstice happily
Say goodbye in spring sadly
But my love for you stays the same
Infinity
As the seasons change
Our love just turns a new page
We start a new age
And you and me
My old friend
Our love starts anew again

2+0+1+6=9

Again the calendar changes
Our lives start a new set of stages
Directed by the highest group of mages
This year
Truthfulness is my wish
Not to lie to others
Not to lie to myself
Not to just focus on wealth
Promise to live in better health
I ask myself
What I want to be in the new year
And I wish I could be clear
Perhaps I am
Because I cannot deny what I feel
When you are near
My heart races
And I keep taking mental pictures of your pretty faces
Maybe this year
We can go to some new places
Find some fresh wood
To burn in our hearts fireplaces
It has been more than a few days since we met
How I treated you may you forget
Or at least be honest too
Perhaps you feel the same
As I do to you
In this new year
A new chance
Started like last year
With a dance
And now I have words stuck in my mouth
Just writing them to myself on the couch
How can we honor each other?
Not just me and you
But for all others
How can we make this year the best?
There will not be a test
Starts by listening to the beating in my chest
Understand its beat
Listen to its message
Let it be my guide
And allow it to be the one to decide
Should you be the one by my side?
And I be the one next to you?
Is this the year I can see us through?
Honor and stay true to you?
First
I must remember how to woo

Jealously

I saw another one of your movies just last night
Thought it was perfect for the season
Just right
Then when I slept
Of you I dreamt
Not much of a surprise
Can’t remember enough to summarize
Just you
And your name in flashing lights
An indication of my plight
My jealously now in plain sight
Not because you are someone else’s wife
No
I am jealous of your life
I heard you say you would do this once before
Become what you are
Soon perhaps your name will be in a star
On Hollywood Boulevard
And I’ll probably still be driving my mom’s car
Still going to the same bars
Saying next year will be the year
Maybe I’ll be this
Or I am looking into that
Still unsure
Still caught looking back
I wish I could be like you
That is jealously too
Because you’ve got it all together
You live where there is beautiful weather
And a beautiful man
And I am still wanting to understand
How am I part of the Lord’s plan
How can I be all I am?
And how can I be part of the world
Just not one who feels damned
Cursed
For my journey lately has seemed on Earth
There was a time
When I took pleasure in every day
And within myself I was happy to stay
Perhaps it changed when I went to work for pay
Maybe when you and I parted ways
The one thing I know I can say
Is I am jealous of you
Because of who you are
And what you do
Because you’ve gone forward
Keep traveling upward and onward
And I feel like I’ve only been going downward
Too many visits to the psych ward
Too many days at my desk feeling bored
So much art work
Most of it just stored
Never even came close to an award
Instead of feeling jealous
Why not be inspired?
Why not also desire to be admired?
To see my name in print too
In the credits
So all can know what I do
Maybe then I’ll stop feeling so jealous of you
Maybe then
I’ll be in charge of my life again
And maybe then
We can become friends again

Yesterday for You. Today for Me

I spent all of yesterday
Thinking of you
And wondering what to do
Should I call?
Or write?
See us together
Perhaps you might
I know what we have been
And I know that was then
But we never really did begin
Only because I was stuck in way back when
And only saw pictures of the past
Only worried about what would not last
Could not see us as now
Nor could I be humble and bow
To you
Ask forgiveness
And promise to undo
All the wrong I’ve done to you
I do feel something special
When I’m next to you
So please be with me to see it through
In a short time
I grew
And your faithfulness I always knew
Today I am going to spend it with me
Open my eyes and see
And open my heart
In this way I will start
See you in this world
And the other
Wonder if again we will be with one another
Wonder if that is the will of the Divine Mother
It is not a hard question
Especially when your feelings give no explanations
Just joy
Just pleasure
These are the tools that the heart uses to measure
To love
It does encourage this endeavor
It can happen whenever
It does feel special when we are together
Matters not if we last forever
For feelings do
And love for you I will feel for ever

Honesty

When I am around you
I still feel that definite chemistry
That awhile ago you mentioned to me
Still see your beauty
But
I wait
Do too much thinking
Only contemplate
To ask for another date
Even forget to compliment
Even for that place we went
The sweetest gift
Our love though
Set a drift
Unsure was I
But why?
My fear staring me back in my face
I didn’t want to end the race
Even though I was destined to finish in first place
I do miss your taste
And that special smile on your face
and I am over flights to outer space
Prefer someone else’s grace
Simple things are easy
With you next me
I guess it is complicated
When it’s you and me
When we try and be more than two
But I can’t keep away from you
Do all things need explanations?
All thoughts clarifications?
All feelings justifications?
I’lll spend forever alone waiting for a reason
Watch the world turn and just count the seasons
But probably just end up feeling the same
Still care more about the game
Then being true
To both me and you
Is that love coming through?
When I look at you
Are you just reflecting back
What I am sending out?
Love
Always more to learn about
Together we both could learn
For each other
Do we still yearn?