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I’ve walked the earth
And seen the sights
Been to the highest of heights
Beyond everything
And sometimes I feel like nothing
I don’t know why
Don’t understand
Always asking for the Lord to reveal their plan
Why don’t I just live
And have faith
Be patience
And wait
I need not know the date
I just need not hesitate
Speak from my heart
When I feel you resonate
Love with you I would celebrate
I wonder when I will feel like me again
I wonder if I will not pretend
My hand I can lend
Your heart I can mend
Time I can bend
And your wishes I will send
To the One
Who makes them true
Who makes you
You
To change my world
The choice is easy
Change myself
Change the things I do
Change what I see
Change what I hear
Change how I be
But I need not change everything
Because much of me
Like much of you
Comes from the Lord’s creation
That means it is of eternal manifestation
Not for human consumption
Or meddling
Or altering
We are Divine conception
We are meant to build off this tree
To be the fruit that is everlasting
To be connected
And unique
Each with our own life to seek
I seek mine
Again in a new home
In the same place
Same face
But wiser hair
Seemingly going nowhere
But we are always on our way there

My Little Pony

There is a horse
His name is Tucker
Actually he’s a pony
A rascal and sort of annoying
He is kind of gross
He likes to roll in the mud
And a pest when he tries to steal your gloves
Whether they are in your pocket
Or on your hands
In the hay he does stand
Scratches the ground
Because he wants some grain
I say stop
And pull on his mane
Yell his name
Tucker!
Behave!
But he won’t
He just wants to play
Get out of the paddock
And run all day
He would if he could
Whether or not he should
Tucker lives by his own rules
Decides who is and who is not cool
All the mares
They say Tucker you are a fool
And no one likes you
Stop bothering me while I am eating hay
Still the same every day
When I go to feed the horses
It is the same two courses
Grain
And hay
One after the other that’s the way
And Tucker
He’s the same always
Rolling in the mud
Stomping his feet
Always wanting something to eat
With a bite is how he does greet
And that rascal look in his eyes
I do not really care about his size
I am going to headlock him
Through away his feed bin
Laugh when he gets no dinner from me
I am just joshing though
This is how my love for tucker does show
Cause I think he knows
How I feel about him
Always nice when I rub his chinny chin chin
Give him carrots
Let him chew on them
I wish I could be like Tucker
Spend my days in the sun
Rolling in the mud
Loose this tie and fancy shirt
Cause like Tucker
I rather be covered in dirt

A Bourbon Night Farewell

Bourbon fills the glass
Where will it take us tonight?
Will it take us to places we have never been?
Will it reunite us with old friends?
Tonight let’s not fight it
Let’s let the bourbon work it’s magic
Remind us of the good days gone by
And make tomorrow’s dreams come true
The bourbon falls from the glass
And slides smoothly down your throat
Its warmth embraces you like the summer days we’ve enjoyed
The bourbon dances inside us and brings us together tonight
The glass is out of bourbon
But it is not empty
It is filled with hopes and dreams in new places
And with the hearts of new faces

Goodnight Goodnight

Goodnight goodnight my love
Whether you be here or not
You’re in my heart
You’re in my thoughts
Am I not the one you have sought?
Worth more than all you’ve bought
Am I the one
Who at night
You think of?
And pray to God for their heavenly light
Shine on both of us
Whether together or not
Why is love something that is not taught?
How can I sleep
When you make me so hot?
So goodnight goodnight my love
It is late
And I need my rest
I too pray to God before bed
Asked that again I can be blessed
Even though that day I did transgress
Please Lord may I confess
To you and her
Of my love I am sure
But the door is closed
And you took back your key
To remind me
Who is welcome
To see thee
But as I say goodnight
Tuck  myself in
And sleep tight
I know at dawn
Morning comes
The gently singing doves
This day begins a new
With or without you
So today I do what I choose
I live my life fully
And in love
Filled with light
Alive with Divine might
And clear sight
Each night when I say goodnight
I say goodnight to you
In thanks and gratitude
For all you do
Know my blessing in this life is you
Goodnight goodnight my love
Whether you are here or not
You’re in my heart
You’re in my thoughts

I Met That Guy Once

You’re great
Aw
Thanks
Wanna go on a date?
Not really
No thanks
Actually rather swim in shark tanks
When I said you’re great
I meant
You remind me of a place I once went
No
I didn’t like the letter you sent
And I just like to look at you
You make me laugh
And I like that you do
Well I guess I am not
What I think I am
I guess I am damned
Cursed
Everyone’s favorite
But still the very worst
Good enough to look at
Funny enough to laugh at
Great to do your work
But now
Feel like dirt
Walked all over
And totally mistreated
Why am I always defeated?
I guess it is true
We reap what we sow
And get what we deserve
I just wish I could remember
I could know
What I did that was so wrong?
Why my life is not in reverse
Nor in forward
Just stuck in park
And standing still
At least pretty soon I’ll die from these pills
That will be that
Time here on Earth past
Please Lord grant me my pass back
There I knew me
There my heart was free
Not frozen
And broken perpetually
On Earth I cannot even live simply
3 days away from my bank account being empty
No one around who really knows me
The silence on the other line
Deafening
This sucks
And I hate loosing
One day perhaps
I may feel my life is of my choosing

My Home

There is a little patch of grass
Just left of my front door
For a lawn
This patch will pass
I don’t need much
Brand names
And such and such
Although I  do not need a lot
I still want your touch
Still wish I made you blush
But I got this lawn
All these sweet bird songs
Right outside my window
And the grass
I don’t have to mow
That comes when I pay rent
Man that is money well spent
Inside
My dwelling
Where I reside
Yeah it’s all mine
Nice sofa to sit on
And I keep it clean
Just for me
You know what I mean
I’m not going out on dates
Oh god
What a waste
Rather sit at home and contemplate
Besides
I can’t seem to understand women
Oh though I may try
And well
You’re the only woman ever on my mind
Feel like I could have them all
But just say fuck it
Never even call
I like my home
I do whatever I want
Talk out loud
Or dance by myself
I am really just want to focus on my mental heath
Do things I like
And live in peace
Which I do
And I enjoy
But still I think of you
And how nice it is to do things with you
To spend time with you
I know my feelings are true
I know together there is nothing we cannot do
I want to see us through
I wish on a day soon
In this home it will be me and you

Please Be Me (again)

Here we are
I am at home
And so are you
Just each of us
Not two
I don’t know what to do
Other than say
I love you
So if you are trying to decide
Thinking who you want by your side
Please be me
Please let me be the one to hold you tenderly
Talk to you gently
Give you plenty
Most of all
Please be me as the one you call
For any reason
Or none at all
All I do now is wish
And wonder
What happened?
What’s up with this?
Please be me as the one you miss
But
Maybe not
I see how I am not the one you have sought
There were things for you I bought
And others I made with my heart
Still not enough for our love to start
Now
Again we live apart
It’s up to you
How or who you do choose
And even after all this time
The ups and the downs
The unread rhymes
And paintings left behind
I still hope that when you look for someone to see
Someone special
For yours just to be
I do
And will always hope
That, that one be me