A New Chance

Even though I keep getting second chances
This one is brand new
Although I still get these sideways glances
And even though I am confused about the pictures I drew
Someone said “I believe in you”
But I wonder how that could be true
When all I feel is lack
The only color I want to wear is black
And I rather just lay on the ground
Flat on my back
What now to do
I am so unsure
Seems dangerous just to think about you
But you don’t seem to waver
Your words are the exact ones to say
You give me hope there can be another chance
And perhaps again I will enjoy to dance
Not feel the victim of my circumstance
But again feel the magic of coincidence
And believe life is not just happenstance
I should give myself a new chance
For even as I falter again and again
I have yet to meet my end
It is not easy
And right now
The road seems without end
I do have a new chance to begin
To her my love I can send
And in my basement the colors I can blend
And in time all wounds they do mend
I wish I knew when
I wish I could feel sure of something
Wish I could feel like a human being
Not a monstrous thing
Or an Angel without wings
Tomorrow the sun will rise again
And I can still count on the same friends
A new day
And a new chance to begin
I promise to make the most of it
My disappointments I will forget
And my actions I won’t regret

The Return

How long can one wait?
Anticipate the date?
Even though time seems to delay
I know soon I will walk through that door
And you will love me that much more
Although again
I will not be the same as before
Again
I will be much more
Even less fear
Even more cheer
Because I was not afraid to shed tears
Show my most vulnerable side
Know I am certain to die
But have strong faith in the beauty of the other side
I was scared this separation would be a reason to divide
But
Our love survives
And more things I want you now to realize
Most I cannot explain
Just reinforce their claims I am insane
Wild, free, and crazy sure
But I do have a name
And you do know it
And you have been to my personal palace
Were there to be my date on a night I felt great
Then next to me on a loveseat to watch a historic horse race
Soon I will be home
I will be back where I belong
And if you like you can find out this story long
But I rather just make you a mix tape and tell it in songs
Plenty of chores to do
When this long stay is through
Then I hope again to get close to you
So we can resume
So we can return to what we started
In yours and my room
I will bring you new flowers to bloom
The day draws near
Be patient
I will see you soon

Rise

Many Lay in bed still
Even though it is long past the time to wake
Each new day is ours to make
For granted please do not take
Or life do not forsake
Or her love do not mistake
For those of us who are awake
It is the time to rise
Time to open up your mind and realize
All we do in life is for us to decide
Let’s make clear choices
Do things worth people’s rejoices
And holy noises
For we should be listening to the Lord
Release your hand from the sword
And forget you even carry one
Take a few more steps up the ladder to the Holy One
The best part
We have only just begun
Please accept this invitation
This front row seat to the universes recreation
This is Divine declaration
So raise up your heart and mind
Be prepared to learn new things about space and time
Forget what is yours
And what is mine
The most important thing to do is shine
And let your heart rise
So once again you can see in her eyes
Remove all desire to disguise
Any thought of suicide or homicide
For now is the time to thrive
Reasons for conflict
Ended a long time ago
By now we all should know
Ascension is now the only path to go
By now we all should definitely know

I feel like I waited in the darkest cell
In my private hell
My own graveyard
Where only my old bones dwell
For the longest night
Because she was the only one left to fight
Good thing she is a warrior of light
And so am I
And I never forgot my power to fly
Rise
And never die
But for us
I knew there was a time to choose sides
So I chose darkness
So she could be light
And locked myself away so there would be no fight
I kept her eyes in my sight
The Lord’s love in my heart to know
I served the light
I checked all my notes
And the famous quotes
Remembered how to count
Covered my mouth when it was time to shout
Our love was not what this was about
It is about much more than that
It is about everyone and everything
A gift for every human being
It is time to rise and awaken
For our glorious new Golden Age to begin
I hope that it never ends

In my Hometown

Back home
Still sometimes it feels like I never left
Still speeding down the hill
Trying to get to high school
Still only care about being cool
And still love all the same things
Upset
I cannot find my class ring
People wonder why by now
I don’t wear a wedding ring
Well I guess a wedding is not just a thing
More a commitment
A divine union
Holy communion
Not just a life step
Or something you should expect
By the time you reach a certain age
Prefer
For
Now to spend my time reading words of the sage
Learn to be a mage
My soul I can never trade
And yours
If I can
I’d like to save
Simply by saying have a nice day
Now that I am back home
I see friends where ever I go
Ask what they are up to
So I can know
When they ask what I do
Same as before
Doing my thing
Living the dream
Making the world into scenes
Making the most out of each day
Living under these golden rays
Making the lake my place of play
Make art
Make love
Send beautiful letters her way
How can one not love this life?
Why choose strife?
When we always can choose not to fight
Only serve light
Live with the Lord in
Eternal life

C

I am love
So are you
So is everyone
So is everything above
And below
Why do we think there is so much we do not know?
When the only thing in life to do is to grow
In all ways
In all directions
To see all perspectives
Not only follow directions
But do some introspection
And self reflections
Decide what will be your life lessons
By asking God the questions
And let them be the one to do the telling
Not some angry white guy yelling
It is so easy when you turn off the telly
Put some good food in your belly
Go for a walk
And just start listening
And start looking
Feeling
And living
This is where we start
When we begin
To not only build a world
But also live in it
This is how the fire is lit
Love is the beginning of it
That is where we came from
And where we are headed
The beginning is where it is ended
So start each day
As you ought
Be what you are as you are brought
A Divine beam
A long thread of eternal seed
You are pure
Always believe
Even if at times you are not in deed
Ask forgiveness
And you shall see
What true love really means

She Knows

I love women
In all their varieties
Whether
They be
Sisters or mothers
Daughters or nieces, grandmothers
Especially as lovers
So why do we live in a world
That does not seem to see it as so?
Constant objectification
Thought for only male satisfaction
Never given gratification
Just degradation
How do you not love a woman?
When she is the one who knows
The one who always knows
Even when ugliness is all that shows
When you’re the worst version of man
She knows
You are still a son of Hanuman
The greatest man
Strongest of the strong
A creature made for protecting
His woman and land
For they are one and the same
One of your birth
And one of your grave
Both lead to the same place
Heaven’s gate
One way in
One way out
Same as on the inside
As it is on the out
And she is the one who knows
Taught you all of this
Said this life is what you make of it
I’m always with you
I am always here
I love you forever
I’ll be waiting
When you get back home
This is where you left from
And the only home you will forever know
Now free yourself and grow
So love a woman
Whether she be your mother or wife
Or something different
Whether in this or the next life
She is the one who
Knows
How bright is your light
So shine
Shine so bright

Reunion

It had been awhile since
We had been a class
The last
Of the millennium
Or perhaps the first
The last time we shared a stage
I held the mic
In place of the other me
But here we were together
I and she
A reunion
A celebration
A chance to meet our new generation
Now our classmates
Have lifemates
from different places they did graduate
And now have children
Our family grows bigger
And I am happy to be together
Kind of blew it on the planning
Let work get in the way of living
Forgot to send notes
Do more than Facebook pokes
Or Twitter quotes
My class is what matters most
Not my social class
My mates
Ones of past dates
And study groups
The ones who helped you learn
Helped you grow
Gave you the power
To let your light show
And heart glow
To them I will always be beautiful
And that is what they are to me
My family
I manned the grill
And I am happy to be the tree
The one at the center
The one who always remembers
Although I never really took notes
Just drew in my notebooks
To me please connect the spokes
And I will stay here
Always welcome you home
Say it is nice to see you
How are you?
I love you
Wanna go to the lake later?
Let’s talk about the things that are true
Let’s always remind each other
What matters most
Regardless of which coast
Or who makes the most
Whether you came on a plane or a boat
We will remember the good times
Renew our vows to each other
Everyone more like a sister or a brother
We have seen each others worst
Best
And now all the rest
To each other we do bless
Our mirrors
Always there to remind us
Who we are
That we are each stars
But live together in this cluster
For we learned and grew together
Which makes us family
4 Eva and forever