From June to September

From June to September
Always a time to remember
Good weather to enjoy
Water to splash
No homework
Dismissed from class
Your friends have cook outs
Your neighbors throw a bash
The days are long
And the nights hot
Easy to sleep it is not
Because you’re not here
And I long for you
As I long for the days gone by
When it was summertime
Without a care in the world
In love with a beautiful girl
Daughter of Ullr
Or perhaps Poseidon
Either way
I liked to be right beside her
This I was sure
Usually though by November I was as cold as the weather
My girl had found someone better
And I was alone to bear the cold weather
She should of left
Cause lately
Summer ended with me unhealthy
And sent away
No phone card to call
But when I did
I realized how far I did fall
Said goodbye through the phone
Held it till I heard the dial tone
And knew that was all
No more reason for me to call
Guess I’ll just have to wait it out
And walk about
Go home
Pout
But not shout
By now it is January
And the snow has fallen
I take my skis
Not even worried about calling
But April ends
And May goes on by
All over again it is summertime
From June to September
Again I remember
Her
My girl
My whole world
I call again
Is this the summer it will begin?

Can I Love Me?

Can I love me?
Will I finally be free?
From my own imprisonment
My shackles
My confinement
I turned myself in
Declared all my own sins
To Him I did repent
My time in Hell spent
Despair
Came and went
So why can I not still love me?
Know I deserve all life’s pleasantries
Just like everyone else
Whom I love
So why don’t I love myself?
Underserving of good health
Huddled beneath my half filled bookshelf
Feel like these are just the cards I was dealt
That’s okay
Cause I remembered this day
When I signed the contract
And let my soul fly this way
Maybe if you let me stay
Then maybe I would not feel this way
But how can I love you
When I don’t even want my dreams to come true
When I’m fine being blue
I can’t hear your dreams when you tell them
And have no vision for when
We could be a happy pair
Our love all around us in the air
Hearts in each other’s hands
Held with care
There is no way this can be
Cause I still can’t love me
Even though I have all the reasons
Just a slight issue with the seasons
But I can make you laugh
And everyone else
Sometimes even myself
I can ski
And apparently know how to live free
Still
This is not enough for me
Cause I’m still stuck on something from the past
Still think it is about whether or not it will last
Nothing ever seems good enough
And I always try and look tough
But look where it has got thee
In love with no on
Especially not in love with me

U R Gr8

I see the lake
I see the boys at practice
Hey you
Number 38
You’re great!
And the trainers too
You’re great!
Yeah I’ve met you
Spent the summer together
One I will always remember
Cherish forever
Even though I yearn for the future
And want to grow
You’re great!
I just want you to know
I just want my love for you to show
I am tired of being fearful of who knows
It is not wrong
Or inappropriate
For me to say you are a gift
A special person
Meant for this world to uplift
So am I
But for whatever reason I feel like I should not even try
Each day get more and more shy
Always looking for reasons why
Always stuck on her goodbye
Can’t find the space between
Dead and sky high
I want to hear it
That I am great too
But this I knew
Traded in these feelings of glee
For my own misplaced misery
So let me tell you first again
I’ll be the first
The one to begin
You’re great!
The best
Never think you are less
Me either
Let’s be great to  each other
And be best friends to one another
We all deserve it
I think it is time I stop trying to earn it
Not yearn for it
Just be it
Cause if you’re great
I am too
Not wrapped up in what we do
Just who
we are
Mostly to each other
Our spirits may never mar
Thank you for being you
Cause you let me be me
You’re great!
You set me free